Dear Louis,

It's been three days since you left us all behind. It is not getting any better, love. I miss you more and more every day. I crave your presence; I wish I could just hold you.

Harry and Liam keep visiting me to make sure I am okay and I am eating. To make sure I'm alive. They keep scolding me because I haven't eaten a morsel of food ever since you left. They are always pestering me about how starving myself won't make you come back. So, just for the sake of their satisfaction-I keep a plate of food in front of me while they are watching me and as soon as they turn, I throw it away. Why do we eat? To live? I don't think I want to live in a world where everybody is convincing me that I'll be better without you. Even if I put the food in my mouth, I'm hardly able to swallow any of it as I start sobbing and then choke myself. Wherever you are, I know you want to see me happy but, you took my happiness away with you.

Harry hugged me today as I broke down in front of him. He rubbed my back and whispered soothing things but, nothing is going to soothe me now. I lost my sanity the minute I lost you.

You will always have my heart Louis. I know you won't come back but, I would never stop waiting for you.

Yours truly,

Freya.

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