Wednesday, May 20, 2020 

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Hi gang and welcome back to "when I say something but actually mean something completely different and nobody realizes it!", starring me and y'all because honestly I'd be surprised if none of you can relate to this. 

All of these apply when you!re lying through your teeth and not actually meaning it, because there's a difference between the two.

"It's fine"

1) in response to school. Yeah, you're not fine, it's not fine, you want to curl up in a hole and cry for a couple days or murder the entire education system. But we can't exactly say that can we, so instead you say "it's fine/ I'm fine".

2) in response to literally everything else. Because it's not fine. You're not fine. You want to scream and rage and rant and lay out all your feelings because "it's fine" and it's never fine and honestly why couldn't something just work out and go your way instead of constantly attacking you and bring you nothing but pain and stress?!

"It's something I read on the internet/I've read on the internet that"

1) fandom knowledge. You've gotten this by surfing posts, reading the character pages for your fic, watching video clips of actors and directors, or just exchanging info with others in your fandom. But you can't say that, because your parents wouldn't respect you or for something else. 

2) fan theories. You've gotten these by reading posts, creating ideas, talking/communicating with fellow fans and theorists, connecting dots and cross referencing so many things that it sounds stands out, headcanoning, writing, or some other means of creating a theory. But you can't say that, much for the same reasons as in number 1.

"I'm heading to bed"

1) it's like 9 or 10 P.M. You're not "going to bed", you're going to surf the web/social media, write something, draw something, read posts or fics, or watch YouTube videos or Netflix till it's 12 A.M. or later. All under the guise that you're a responsible kid/teen/adult that get proper sleep.

2) you're actually trying to get sleep. You know you'll fail and end up doing number 1's stuff but you're trying. The point is that you're acknowledging your limits and while it doesn't actually work you at least tried.

"I'm busy"

1) you're too anxious/don't want to. You don't want to go so you fake excuses to not go and instead do what you actually like to do.

2) you had plans with social media/fanfics. You can't/con't want to tell anyone, but you had plans and you'll lie to stick to them because honestly your secret plans are placed higher than whatever you would have done other wise. Usually you're also avoiding like in number 1.

And that's all I can think of right now, comment any other phrases and what you actually mean here!!

Stay safe kiddos and my lovely trans/genderfluid/genderqueer people who bind? Make sure to take those off every once in a while (after 9-10 hours is preferable, once it reaches 12 hours you have to take it off immediately for your safety) so you don't hurt your lungs and/or ribs.

I love you all very much <3<3<3

~Ink