I'm at lunch now and I'm waiting patiently  in line looking down at my phone. I hear someone walk up to me. 

"Hay aren't you that one girl?" A males voice asked  from behind me.

I look up turning to see  Justin Croves, standing in front of me with his group of guys following suit next to him.

"No." Im quick to deny.

"Yeah you are. You kicked  a killer goal at the girls soccer game." Justin says 

"Oh...Wait what?" I asked not  knowing what he's talking about.

" you must got me confused my someone else i dont play for the girls soccer team." I said roving my eyes  at them all.

"Oh..,No but I'm not. Your the girl who was a queen out in the field two years ago." He says  with a twinkle in his eyes.

Oh right I used to play soccer when Jorden used to come to my games. Yes I was a beast. But I  quit before i got anywhere with it.

 Two years ago was when Jorden switched schools. I couldn't handle all the eyes on me when i couldn't even  see Jorden there cheering me on.

"Then yes that was me." I admitted lowering my eyes. Not so sure why Justins even talking to me. Or even noticed me. 

"So actually my sisters on the girls soccer team and there pretty bad if you asked me. But i kinda was wondering if you could help them out with that." 

There we go. That's why he's here. To  ask me to allow him to use me. Sounds  about right.

"Justin. Look I dont know. Im not so sure i'm even good anymore." i say Trying to turn him down easily without making a big old scene out of it all. Justin's good at making big scenes out of anything.

His face goes perplexed. "You know my name?" 

Did he really just ask that question. Of course I no your name, your the most known guy up in this school. WHo wouldn't know you.

But i just when with the less extra way of answering that question.

"Yeah." I reply simply.

"Oh...I...Or, whats your name." He asked struggling to speak to me.

"Its-" I start but get cut off seeing one of justin's guys whisper into his ears.

I see his expression change completely.

"Oh...really." He asked the guy. 

The guy shook his head 'yes' slowly.

"Look...Ivy," He says slowly

Oh no here it comes. "I'm sorry for your  lost..." 

My heart just sank. That fast.

I don't need there sorrys. it's not there fault he died.

"He wasn't nobody in the first place. You'll get over in a month. We all do."

Now my heart just shattered. My tears pour out this time and my face, i already now is red, bright red.

In a month. It's only been three months and i still haven't gotten over it. 

I was too hurt to say anything else. I couldn't  control my hurt. neither could i keep myself together.

I bust through the guys in front of me and ran to the bathroom. the tears just leaking away as i lock myself inside the bathrooms stalls. they seem different than usual but it's a new year, soo.

He really just said that to me. Jordan might of been a nobody to him, but to me, he was everything.

I began  to sod. And not the soft sobs your expecting a girl to have, those nasty loud sods,with runny noses and red faces. those kinds of sods. 

I sit there for a good amount of time. But i wasn't going to get up.  I can't go back out there.

 Why did you have to leave me? 

I cant handle life without you.  

PLEASE! COME BACK!!!