Don't mistake my kindness for weakness. The beast inside of me is sleeping, not dead.

Alexander led me back to the SUV, we did not say anything and the tension between us was undeniably awkward. I carried Lily in my arms, I was too scared to let her go. From the corner of my eye, I could see his gaze on me. Watching me closely.

Once we were in the SUV, Alexander drove into a small gravel road, the road was surrounded by big pine trees leading deeper into the forest. A few minutes later we reached a beautiful wooden cabin style home. There was already an SUV parked in front of the home, Alexander stopped beside the vehicle, and then he just stared at me. Like he was studying me, which made me blush.

His home, I presumed it was his home, was beautiful. "Let's go" he finally said. 

I have to admit. I was excited to see where he lived. His domain. Which may sound strange, but I had a feeling there is so much more to him than just the big image he shows the world.

I picked Lily from the backseat, she was fast asleep, so content, so peaceful. She was nothing like her real mother.

Alexander led me into his home. The first room was like a big hallway that led to the lounge, a big and I mean big spacious room, there was everything you would think of and then some. On the opposite side was the kitchen. My jaw dropped when I took a closer look. 

"Let me take her, I'll lay her down for a nap," Alexander said, taking Lily from me. She grabbed onto his neck and for a moment his body relaxed.

"Then we can...talk," he said walking up the stairs. I guess they led to the bedrooms...

"This house is amazing, imagine our pups running around here." Ella said proudly giggling. 

"Shut up, Ella."

"Don't be a prune, Monica... You're thinking it as well!" She growled

A few minutes later Alexander came walking into the kitchen. He was angry, I could tell.

"Listen, what happened in the office, you should know. It was not me, I would never want to kiss you." he spat out.

I did not respond, my heart felt like it was chopped up into one million little pieces. I could feel my emotions starting to stir within me as Ella yelped. She was hurt. So was I.

"It was Zane. My wolf. But I assure you. It won't happen again." 

Again I did not respond. To be honest, if I do, I'm sure I would fall apart. So I chose to avoid his gaze and to just say nothing about it.

"Where do I stay?" I asked him.

"In my room."

Goddess, I don't understand this man. What the hell. SO I decided to be as cold to him as he is to me.

"Uh, No thank you, Alpha King," I said, words dripping from my mouth in anger. I won't be used again.

"What did you say?" He said, eyes black as he slammed his hand on the kitchen counter.

"I said, No thank you. Alpha. King! I won't be used again as Mitch used me. I won't sleep with you. Besides. I'm just a weak lone wolf, pathetic right? You might just catch something from me if you dare share a bed with me." I spat out, I was angry, but more hurt than anything else.

His rage filled the room and I could feel his anger radiating from his body. "Very well, come," he said, clenching his jaw.

He led me to a bedroom upstairs, he opened the door for me and I walked inside. Closing the door in his face, locking it. That's when I fell apart, I knew he could hear me. Did I care? No! Why should I care?

My back slammed against the door as I fell to my knees, pulling my knees to my chest, I cried. I cried for being used, for being not good enough, for being naïve. To think that someone like him could ever show any interest in someone like me, a lone wolf, not even wanted by her own birth parents. 

I knew I came for Lily but a small, no a big part of me was hoping that this will work. That it won't be the same as with Mitch. That for once in my life I would be really happy, with him. 

Was I wrong about it? Absolutely. I was wrong to think coming here for a little girl, which I loved so much would ever be more than just that.

My thoughts and sobs were interrupted by my phone ringing from my pocket. 

I looked at the phone...Mitch.

What the hell does he want? 

I answered the phone. "What?" I spat out, trying to control my breathing

"Shame, did the big bad Alpha King also reject you?" he said, I could feel his smirk through the phone.

"What do you want Mitch and how did you know about Ale... the Alpha King?" I said, remembering that I can't just call him that anymore. I am below him.

"News travels fast, especially since the idiot tried to kill me in that bar. It's thanks to him that you're still alive. Anyways. I want to inform you that Chloe is expecting our pup."

Confusion was the only emotion I had at the moment. "And you're telling me this why?"

He laughed and then snapped at me "oh. I just like to put some salt in your wounds. You know he will never be your first right? I will always be your first."

That's when it hit me. It was never Chloe who took him away, he just wanted to get into my pants. That was his plan all along. How could I be so stupid?

I threw the phone straight into the bedroom wall, making it crash into pieces. Tears and sadness spread throughout my entire body as Ella cried with me. 

I stood up and walked to the bed, crashing into it as I grabbed a pillow to stuff my crying face in,  to quiet the sobs coming from my broken soul.

I was woken by a loud knock at the door. "Open up," Alexander shouted.

I ignored him, after a few moments and growls he left. He could have easily broken the door open. I was glad he did not.

I pulled the covers over my body when someone came knocking again. "Baby girl ... will you open up for me, please." a familiar voice said.

I got up from the bed and unlocked the door, opening it. Only to find William on the other side.

"May I come in, Luna?" he asked. Why so formal, he just called me baby girl...

"It's Monica, sure," I said opening the door wide enough for him to enter. I walked to the bed and sat down.

"Well then Monica - " he said sitting on the edge of my bed, facing me. "-permission to speak freely?"

I was shocked, why the hell would he ask my permission to speak. "You don't need my permission to speak Beta William. You can talk freely, to anyone, including me." 

He smiled and nodded "Alexan... I mean the King, he just needs some time, he as you have had a hard time Monica. You see- " 

"I don't want to hear it, Beta William. I am tired, done. He should just reject me and get it over with. I'll still be here for Lily, but then the bond can be broken once I accept and we can both, well I can then deal with it, and move on." 

William gave a small chuckle, "the two of you are both the same. Keep lying to yourself." 

Oh, that's when all the anger hit me, how dare he compare me to him.. "I am nothing like that dick! I don't send mixed signals, I don't hear someone's pathetic life story, try to kiss them and then blame it ALL on my wolf, I don't hate my mate because of his status, and I sure as hell don't go around waving my dick into other peoples faces, acting like this big bad wolf, but underneath it all, I'm just hurting! I'm not like that!!!" I said growling.

"Remember to breathe while you rant Monica," William said laughing.

What is so darn funny? Nothing I said was funny? 

"Let me sum you up.. as you did with the King," he said, standing from the bed, in front of me.

"Let's see;  You are insecure, you hide behind being weak and not good enough, but in fact you are. You say you don't care, but you do. You are angry because your first mate used you for sex, he was your first and now you are afraid of what Alexander will think because he won't be your first. You did not even like the sex with Mitch, because he left you feeling empty the entire time after forcing himself on you. You think you can hide behind these doors and hide from him, but in fact, you are just as broken and bruised as him. Not really willing to give each other a real chance. Even though the sexual tension between the two of you is really reeking!"

I couldn't breathe, how...how did he...

"You can breathe now, Monica," he said smiling.

"How do you know all of this?" I asked with my head between my hands, yes I was crying again, weak.

"I'm not only a Beta, but I also notice things others hide, I know more than I say, always," he said smiling. "Now, come. Dinner is ready and for the first time in my life Alexander has cooked dinner, so I need someone to help me if he has poisoned the food."

I laughed so hard I snorted. William was something else. 

"What makes you think I was not in on it?" I asked, smirking.

"Ha! You. Never."

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