"You never fail until you stop trying." — Albert Einstein

Monica POV

I could feel myself being pulled into the darkness as the familiar song of Disturbed, filled my mind.

Hello, darkness, my old friend, I've come to talk with you again. Because a vision softly creeping. Left its seeds while I was sleeping. And the vision that was planted in my brain, still remains. Within the sound of silence...

I hummed to the tune as I felt my body giving in, there was not much I felt like doing. I only felt empty, like something is being drained within me.

I know darkness, I've known darkness all my life. The familiar feeling of the silence was deafening, there can be no darkness without silence. 

At least in my mind, that is.

Darkness is defined as the absence of light, but honestly... it's much deeper than just that. For me, darkness means father, mother, Mitch, and now... Katy. 

Once again, I was back in this place. 

My mind.

Feeling like I'm being torn apart, piece by piece.

"You need to wake up now. Shit is about to get real!" Ella's voice was wheezing through my throbbing head, pulling me from my thoughts.

 "Can you hear me?" she said pacing. I tried my best to answer her back, but there was no sound when I tried to speak.

"Never mind. Open your eyes," she responded.

A bright white scene unfolded in front of me, as I opened my eyes. Trees were covered in a coat of white snow, only a few leaves and branches peeked from underneath. 

The freezing coldness hit my skin, making me shiver.

"Where am I?" I asked. Not quite sure who I wanted to respond, because I was alone.

"and you thought, you could run from me." The familiar voice sent shivers down my spine, making me feel colder than I've ever felt in my life.

I slowly turned towards the direction of the voice, silently praying that somehow, I was wrong.

My eyes met his and his eyes turned black, beside him stood two of the people I feared the most. Even as a werewolf, even if they are human, they have this power over me. Something I can't explain.

I kept thinking... why? Why would my mother and father be with Mitch? I couldn't think of a reason...

There shouldn't be one, they were human. They should not even know about our kind, or did they?

"You'll break that useless head of yours thinking about it," she said, taking a step forward.

I gulped on my own breath, trying to stand up, again I felt down... there is no use.

My legs were starting to feel the coldness of the snow underneath my body, I was like a sitting duck. 

Useless...

Again.

'I'm going to force shift. Just don't fight it.' Ella's words scared the living crap out of me.

'Ella. No. Please.' I begged her. I don't want to go through that again.. a force shift is the worst thing to ever go through. It's being broken and strapped together only to be broken again.

'We'll both be dead staying like this. And I won't allow it. Not now. Not while we're-' She stopped her sentence and went silent.

'Not while we're what Ella?' I asked, but she just blocked me out.

Before I could even think about what she said, I felt a sharp shooting pain through my body. I tried to fight her, to fight what she wanted to do, but it was like tapping water from a stone. 

All I could do is back away so that she could take over my body. My bones forcibly elongate and change shape, rupturing my skin as I could feel myself getting hotter.

 Why is this happening again... this should not happen.

It felt like my blood was boiling, and the pain was worse than the last time this happened. 

"She is going to pass out, just give it a moment." I heard my father say. The amount of hate in his voice was evident to just how much they hated me.

I made it my mission to not pass out, I will prove to them, once and for all.

I am strong.

I am not worthless, 

I am the Luna Queen.

The last thing I saw before Ella took over was blood, dripping out of my mouth. I almost choked on it before she took control. I watched them closely, from within my own mind. 

They took a few steps forward, their eyes fixed on me. 

Ella tried standing, pushing our body to it's utmost. It took her a few tries, but she got up. The wind was howling through the trees as she evened our weight. Ensuring that we don't sink into the snow when we move.

Ella was getting ready to fight. Anger was radiating off her as our ears were pulled back. She lowered her head, showing her teeth as she growled at them. Snapping a few times.

"It's too late Ella." my father spoke, stopping a few meters from us. 

How the hell does he know her name is Ella? And how does... The questions were making me feel dizzy as they traveled through my mind.

'Too late for what? Ella?' I asked. Once again, she said nothing. Only giving a low howl. It's like she was just broken by his words... This is not like Ella, at all!

'Fight him, Ella!! We cannot stand back. We need to find Lily and Alexander. Ella, Please!' I linked her, begging her not to give up. My head was throbbing in pain as the dizziness started to creep up on me again.

I need to be brave, for the first time I was not going to stand back for them.

'Ella! Please, Zane also needs us. Please, Ella.' I shouted.

'Then let's do this. Nothing tastes better than revenge.' she linked me back. I could feel Ella gaining back her confidence. 

Mitch jumped, pouncing at us. Ella dodged him, just the movement made me want to puke and clinch in pain. I could do nothing but sit in this corner in my mind, praying we survive this.

She turned around, pouncing back at him.

I closed my eyes for the impact.

Which never came...

I opened my eyes, seeing what Ella sees. We fell face first in the darn snow, we scattered around, trying to find and sense them.

They were gone... like they were never here.

My head was pounding again, pulling me into the darkness. I closed my eyes, just for a moment taking a deep breath as my lungs filled with air.

As I squeezed my eyes shut, I felt my heart beating wildly in my chest. My headache was much worse than a few moments ago, I tried my best to just breathe. All I really wanted was Alec. 

He was all I needed, at this moment.

I slowly opened my eyes, scared of the fact that maybe Mitch and my parents are still here. 

The sight before me made me doubt my mental state even more. I felt like I was in Panem and that no matter how hard I tried, I won't get out of here.  I was lying next to the SUV, like nothing ever happened. I knew it did. Just from the blood dripping from my mouth, I knew it happened.

My eyes traveled to my arm when I saw a small cut made in my hand. Taking a closer look, I had to focus my eyes which were burning really bad. The cut was about two inches deep and had some sort of substance pressed into the wound.

I don't understand why? Who did this? and why not just kill me and get it over with? Why do they have to make me feel so scared and touchable? What does this all mean? 

I tried to force my body to just get up, I can't stay like this. I need to get away. I need to get to Lily and make sure Nicola and Bella are okay.

The sun was way past set and the only way I could see anything was really focusing my sight, which was still foggy and blurry. 

After, I don't know how many attempts I could at least sit up straight. I pulled my knees to my chest and placed my head on them.  

"Mummy?" My head snapped to the familiar voice of Lily. Why are they still here? 

"Luna! M!" Bella spoke up. "Let me help you."

"NO!" I said, I can't let them be here, not now. They need to be safe!

"Cole said they are coming. We need to move so that they will find us sooner," she explained, her hair was slightly out of place, as she stood with Lily in her arms.

"GO. Now, move along. Take Nicola with." I demanded.

"I won't leave you."

"Bella! I command you to go! Now. I won't speak again." I said, using the bit of strength I had left in me to sound like a Luna. A real Luna, not the excuse of one, like I am.

"Your bleeding, really badly, Mo... Lun-"

"Don't. I told you to go. NOW!" I demanded again, cutting her off.

I don't know how long ago I send Bella away with Lily and Nicola. I could barely keep my eyes open, at least the bleeding from my mouth has improved. The dizziness and pain in my stomach were still there.  

A low howl startled the living crap out of me, I could feel the wolves' pain and worry. Ella jumped in excitement, and just from that, I knew.

Alexander.

My eyes scanned for any sign of him, my vision was blurry, but it won't stop me from finding my mate.

I tried again to stand up, leaning my body against that of the wreck of the SUV. I was halfway up when I felt my legs tremble.

Just keep it together, just keep this... up... Goddess, why do you make everything so darn perfect in my life!

It was no use though.

I could feel myself being drawn to the ground and just as I was about to buy myself a nice piece of land, I felt it...

His strong arms pulled me into his naked chest. I could not help but start to cry, he was really my everything and then some.

"Sshhh, It's okay, love," he said, placing me gently on the ground.

"I'm going to shift. Will you be able to get on my back? Zane will be in control, he needs to be," he said gently.

"Is..." I took a deep breath. "-he okay?" I asked. "-are you?" It felt like someone was punching me in the gut, every time I spoke.

"Yes, because of you," he said, gently kissing my forehead, sending little sparks down my body.

So he found her. There are going to be some emotional things happening in the next chapter. I hope this was okay. <3 Please do tell me your thoughts.

Thank you so much for reading. 

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M

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