*Phil's POV*

I slept with Dan most of the time now, I felt safer and didn't wake up scared as much, but I would still occasionally wake up because of nightmares but then Dan would tell me that he's here and everything will be okay and I would fall back asleep again. We were laying in bed one evening and I said "Your birthday is in a few weeks, I remember you told me" he looked at me and smile "So what do you want to do on your birthday?" I asked him "I just want to stay home and spend time with you, that's what I love to do" he said kissing my cheek "I want to get you a present" I said "Phil that's sweet but I don't want you using up the money you have on me" he said "Too bad I've already ordered something for you, I wanted to get you something special with what I had" I said quickly, he sat up and looked at me "Phil, you didn't need to" he said softly "You do so much for me Dan, I wanted to get you something special, so I ordered a piano" I smiled "Phil.." He said, he didn't seem happy, I felt hurt "I thought it would make you happy" I said softly sitting up in pain "Babe I am happy" he said softly "I just wanted to get a present for you" I said getting up "Where are you going?" He asked worried "I should've gotten you something else, you don't like it" I said "No no, I love the piano, I just don't want you wasting your money on me" he said quick "You think it's a waste?" I asked, I know I was probably overreacting but I really wanted to make him happy I can't help but feel like that I can't make him happy. "No babe, your taking it the wrong way that's not what I meant" he said quickly, I walked out the room "Come back Phil" Dan called after me, I ignored him and walked towards the other room, the pain in my leg started building up a lot and I fell to the ground and Dan came running to me "Are you okay!?" He asked freaking out "No I'm not okay" I said in pain, he picked me up and then carried me to his room placing me on the bed "Why do you hate my gift?" I asked my mind still obviously on that "I don't hate it babe, I love it" he whispered kissing me. "Dan I'm in pain" I said "Do you want me to get you painkillers?" He asked and I shook my head "They don't help" I whispered "But that's all we can do babe" he said softly "I'm going to be paralyzed, painkillers won't help" I sobbed, he laid down next to me and held onto me "Babe relax, you'll be okay I promise" he whispered "I won't be okay Dan, I'm going to get paralyzed and I'm going to die" I said sobbing "Ssshh no don't say that" he said softly stroking my cheek "You don't understand the pain I'm in Dan, I want to die" I sobbed "No babe don't say that" he whispered letting go of me "It will end my pain, I'd be better off dead" I said  "Babe you need to relax okay? Just look at me and relax" he said "D-don't act like you know everything Dan, c-calming down won't do anything" I said my voice was shaky "Its important that you stay calm" he whispered "I cant. Just face it. I'm going to be paralyzed and then I'm going to die and you can't do anything about it" I snapped, he looked at me shocked, I felt bad but it is what it is, he looked away "Its the truth Dan" I added "C-can we just sleep now Phil. I'm tired" he said quietly "You know I can't sleep Dan" I said quietly, he turned around and hugged onto me "Get off Dan" I said but he hugged me tighter and kissed my shoulder, it was hurting me a bit "Dan I'm in pain" I said softly but he didn't understand "Get off I'm in pain" I said again raising my voice slightly, he moved back and looked hurt, I felt really bad "No Dan.." I said softly "Sorry.. I didn't mean to hurt you.." He whispered "No babe you can hold me but just be gentle I'm just sore" I said softly, I felt awful for snapping at him, all he does is take care of me. He faced the other way "I don't want to hurt you again" he whispered "Dan you're not the one hurting me" I said kissing the back of his head, he laid there quietly "Why are you being this way Dan?" I asked, I get I was harsh but why is he acting this way "I just want to sleep" he whispered "Fine, then I'm going to go sleep in the other room" I said getting up "No please stay with me" he said quickly "No Dan, good night" I said and walked off to the other room in pain, he didn't follow me this time, we just need to cool off things will be fine in the morning. I walked up to the bed my head started spinning, and then blank.

*Dan's POV*

Phil was being very quiet, I overreacted I was hurting him he tried telling me that but I didn't get it. I should really check up on him ans apologize, I got out of bed and went to his room "Phil? Are you awake?" I asked, I opened the door and found him passed out on the ground "No Phil" I ran to him, he was breathing thank God, I carried him into the car and drove him to the hospital. I waited in the waiting room as they ran some tests a nurse came up to me "Daniel, Philip is okay, he just needed his oxygen. He's asleep you can go to his room" she said. I went to his room he was fast asleep, his rude doctor was stood writing something down "His health is failing Daniel" he said not looking at me "I can see that" I whispered holding Phil's hand "You're taking shitty care of him" he said coldly, I looked at him "I'm trying my best to take good care of him" I said defensively "No you're not, in fact I think its better you go home" he said "If I go Phil will start to panic" I said calmly "You being here will make him worse" he said "How will it make him worse? I'm the only person who can keep him calm" I said "I'm not going" I raised my voice, it woke Phil up "Dan? Don't go.." He said softly, I sat down and held his hand "I'm not going anywhere babe" I promised. "Dan I don't want this doctor, he's horrible he handles me roughly and hurts me" he whispered, I looked up at the doctor "You hurt him?" I asked "Not my intention and not my fault he can't tolerate anything" the doctor said "You need to be careful with him! I want a different doctor for him" I said "Well I'm the only cancer specialist here and you might as well know that his cancer is spreading to his major organs" he said coldly "Are you just here to tell my that my cancer is killing me?" Phil asked annoyed now "I could refuse giving you treatments, you stopped responding to them anyway" he said "Are you fucking kidding me, you can't refuse him treatments" I said coldly "and you do not hurt him" he looked at me "quite honestly I don't care" he said and left and then a nurse came in "I need to check your blood pressure dear" she said sweetly "Is it okay if I stay here while you do that?" I asked "Of course, I think its good if he has you here" she smiled. "Do the other nurses take care of Phil? The doctor hurts him and is awful" I said "Well he's a mean man that's for sure, but I try to make sure Phil is okay" she explained "When did chemo stop working for him? Is there anything you guys can do?" I asked "Not too long ago dear. And I'm sorry but I can only advise that he takes his medicines and keeps his oxygen tubes in" she sighed sadly "And please try to get him to eat" she said before leaving. "I don't want to eat Dan" Phil said softly "You have to Phil, just a little bit" I said and he shook his head "No I don't want to and you can't make me" he said looking down "Babe just a little bit, please?" I asked and he shook his head again "I'm still getting food for you" I said getting up "No no don't leave me" he said quickly "I'm just getting food for you and I have to get something from the car I have something for you" I said before leaving, I ran down to the car and got a plastic bag and then got food from the cafeteria and headed back to Phil's room. "What is it?" He asked "I'll show you but then after you have to eat a little no choice" I said  and he sighed. I sat next to him on his bed and pulled out an iPhone "you needed a new phone so I got you this" I smiled "You didn't have to Dan" he said "Well too bad I did, do you know how to use it?" I asked and he shook his head "I was occupied with my illness" he laughed "I'll show you how to use it" I smiled, he rested his head on my shoulder as I showed him "Electronics aren't allowed here" the doctor said sternly standing at the door, Phil rolled his eyes "I'm just showing him something calm down" I said putting it away and he walked off. I grabbed the food tray "Okay now time for you to eat I said" I spoon fed him because I knew he wouldn't eat any other way "Dan I feel ill" he said half way through making a face, I gently placed my hand over his mouth "you don't have to eat more just try keeping it down okay?" And he nodded. After a while he fell asleep, I sat on the chair and watched him sleep, tears pouring down my face, I'm glad he's asleep so he doesn't see me crying. "Daniel?" The same nurse from before was at the door, I stood up and wiped my tears away "You're not here to tell me I can't stay here are you?" I asked and she gave me an apologetic look "But he will panic if he wakes up and I'm not here" I explained "I'm sorry Daniel" she sighed "Can I at least sit outside his room?" I asked and she nodded. I sat on the chair outside his room and slowly drifted off to sleep. I woke up to the sound of Phil's panicking voice calling me, I got up and went to him "What's wrong babe?" I asked "I-I had a b-bad dream. I-I woke up and y-you weren't here" he said breathing deeply "I was right outside sorry they made me sit outside" I whispered stoking his cheek "Stay here please" he said and I laid down next to him "Just tell them we're engaged or something they'll let you stay" he said "Okay I'll keep that in mind" I laughed silently as he drifted off to sleep again. "Daniel.." The nurse said standing out the door "I'm sorry but he woke up panicking" I said softly "It'll be our secret" she smiled "Thank you" I whispered "I lost my fiancé to cancer Daniel, I want to help you" she assured me "I'm sorry..." I whispered "No I'm sorry for what you're going through, now try to get some sleep" she said leaving. Phil started moving around and woke up looking at me "Sleep" I whispered "I had a nightmare, that I died and I was alone" he whispered wrapping his arm around my waist sobbing silently "Babe its a bad dream, I'm right here" I kissed his forehead, he held me tighter and drifted off to sleep.