Jimin stretches as his alarm goes off, trying to pry his eyes open. Without moving, he reaches for his phone, sitting up and turning it off. He checked his notifications for a few minutes, but ultimately decided he needed to get up and get ready for work.

He turns on the bathroom light, running his fingers through his hair. With a yawn, he makes eye contact with himself in the mirror. And then his eyes widen, utterly shocked.

Because he wasn't looking at his own face.

He steps back, the face in his mirror just as surprised. But...the man didn't mirror Jimin's actions. He was his own person.

"What the hell!?" Jimin exclaims to himself quietly, still groggy. "Am I on drugs? But, I haven't left the house in over two days...no one could've drugged me."

"W-what the hell are you doing in my mirror?" The man asks, surprised, but not loud.

"What do you mean?" Jimin sputters. "You're in my mirror!"

"What!?"

"H-hold on, I must be dreaming," Jimin walks back to his room, turning on the light there. He goes up to the long mirror that stands up against his wall—the one with the beat up, olive-colored frame.

There he was again.

"Oh my God," Jimin shakes his head, then his shoulders, trying to wake up. "What happened to my reflection!?"

"I'm asking myself the same thing!" He exclaims. "Everything is the same in my room, everything is reflected. But I'm not looking at myself—I'm looking at you."

"It's the same for me," Jimin could see his bed, his nightstand, the carpet, the walls...but he saw this tall, doe-eyed brunette instead of his reflection. "Wait, so you're a real person?"

"Yeah I am," He nods. "You are too?"

"Uh, yeah," Jimin rubs his eyes. "Damn, I can't do this, it's too early. I need to get ready for work." 

He was sure whatever this was should go away soon.

*

Jimin walks into the bathroom at work. He was more awake now—he had had his coffee, everything should be back to normal.

Nope.

"You're here too!?" Jimin looks at the brunette.

"You pop up every time I look at a mirror. I must do that same for you," He shrugs. "I'm just as confused as you are."

"Yeah, but you seem so calm about it all," Jimin points out.

"...I'm not, really, but it seems to help people when there's someone who seems calm," The man explains. "I'm confused, and freaking out internally. But externally I'm good at putting on a brave face. I'm not sure why, but I am."

"Oh-"

Someone else walks into the bathroom.

And Jimin could see his face again.

He stares at himself with wide eyes, confused. He put his hand up, tilted his head, but it really was just his reflection. 

What was going on?

But the other man did his business and left, and the brunette was back the second Jimin was once again alone.

Jimin stares at the mirror man. "W-wait, did that happen to you too?"

"When someone came into the room I was in, I saw myself again," The taller tells him. "But he left, and here you are."

"Ugh, this is so confusing!" Jimin exclaims. "But I must be dreaming, right? I have to be."

"Or you're not real, and telling me I'm dreaming," He counters.

"Whatever. I really need to get back to work. I didn't come in here to talk to an illusion," Jimin waves a hand, and with that he walks away from the mirror.

*

"...What's your name?"

"Why?" The brunette cocks his head to the side. "Do you want to get to know me?"

"I...I don't know," Jimin walks to the mirror in his bedroom, sitting down. He leans against the bed. "But if...if this isn't a dream, no matter what it is, I might as well know your name. I mean it's been an entire day. It's obviously not just a dream anymore."

"Well, my name is Jungkook," He smiles a small smile. "What's your name?"

He looks him in the eyes softly. "I'm Jimin."

"Hi, Jimin," Jungkook greets. "What's happening to us is weird."

"That it is, Jungkook," He huffs out a laugh. "But...but I'm going to take this as it is. Because I have no idea what's going on...however, besides the fact that I literally see you in the mirror instead of my own reflection, there's not too much to freak out about."

"...That's a good idea," Jungkook nods slowly. "Then I will too."

"Good," Jimin smiles. "We may be on different sides of the mirror, but it's nice to know we're on the same page."

"That was clever," Jungkook chuckles.

"Thank you," The atmosphere was somewhat calm now, amid the confusion. "I'm proud of myself."

"Good," Jungkook looks at him. "That's a good thing."

"You're kind," Jimin looks back. "If this is real...I don't think it'll be too bad. I could've gotten stuck with a real asshole."

"Well, at first I wasn't too sure," Jungkook confesses. "But now that you've calmed down, I don't think this'll be bad either."

"One reason I'm so calm is because I'm exhausted," Jimin sighs lightly. "This whole thing is taking all of my energy."

"I agree," Jungkook nods. "My brain hurts."

"Then...let's just pretend this is normal for now, okay? Life is stressful," Jimin looks at him in the eyes. "This doesn't have to be a part of it."

"Okay, that sounds good," Jungkook agrees. "We're simply just...friends."

"Yes," Jimin smiles. "Friends."

*

"...What if I'm dying? What if this is the product of a brain tumor?"

"I don't know," Jungkook shrugs.

"Well, if I have cancer, it's definitely progressed too far along for me to survive it," Jimin shudders at the thought. "So instead of worrying, I'll talk to you instead. I really like having you around."

"I like having you around too, hallucination in my head that's the result of a brain tumor," Jungkook smiles warmly.

Jimin tips his head to the side, mirroring the look. "I'm real, I promise."

"Your promise means nothing," But there was warmth in his words. "There's no way for me to know for sure."

"You're right," Jimin sighs. "But like...what if I am dying? What if I just drop dead tomorrow? I'd hope to be in a public place, maybe then I could be resuscitated and taken to a hospital."

"I don't know," Jungkook shrugs once again. "You could be dying. I don't know anything. We've only been at this for two weeks. I don't have any answers."

"Although it doesn't feel that way," Jimin agrees. He already feels like he's known Jungkook for a long time. "Hey, what if you're an angel?"

Jungkook cocks his head to the side. "I think I would know if I were an angel."

"Yeah but maybe you can't tell me," Jimin points at him. "Maybe, you're here to give me comfort before I die."

"Aw, do I give you comfort?" Jungkook's face melts into a touched smile.

"...Yeah, you do," Jimin nods bashfully. "The world is cold and lonely. It's nice having someone who's always there, someone as great as you." Something suddenly dawns on him. "Wait, if we're both real, how are we always there for each other? How are you always in the mirror?"

"You keep asking questions I don't know the answers to," Jungkook chuckles.

"Oh, right," Jimin huffs out a laugh. "Maybe I'm trying to crack a code or something. Like, if you're not real, and I say the right thing, you'll tell me what's going on."

"Well I'm real," Jungkook confirms once again. "And I really hope you're real too. I don't know what I'd do with myself if I learned I was talking to a hallucination."

"I really hope you're real too," Jimin smiles. "And not like angel real. Just a human. In a weird situation like me."

"I am, trust me," His voice is soft.

"I want to trust you," Jimin stares at him. "I just don't know if I can."

"I want to trust you too," Jungkook stares right back at him. "Because I really want you to be real."

Jimin cracks a smile. "You already said that."

"Well then I must mean it," Jungkook's own smile is wide. Jimin's chest is warm. 

At this moment he realized just how beautiful Jungkook's smile was.

He never wanted to lose him.

*

"I wish I could give you a hug."

"What?" Jimin huffs out a laugh, his body jolting a bit with it, surprised. "Where did that come from?"

"Well, you're just so small," Jungkook almost coos. "I could just wrap you up. I think you'd fit perfectly."

"That's such a weird thing to say," Jimin stares at him, eyes filled with warmth.

"Well, do you not like the thought of that?" Jungkook smirks lightly.

"No...I think I might," Jimin blushes a bit. "It sounds soft. I like that."

"Me too," The smile melts off Jungkook's face. There was suddenly an air of seriousness coming from him. It scares the smaller a bit. "Hey...Jimin?"

"What?" He laughs. "What are you hesitating for? You know you can tell me anything, right? It's not like I'll tell anyone the secrets of the man in my mirror. I gotta stay sane to society."

Still, Jungkook pauses. "...You live in Busan, right?"

Jimin furrows his eyebrows. "Yeah...I do. Why?"

"Well, you know I do too..." Jungkook looks down, before looking right back up at Jimin. "So, what if we decide on a place to meet up?"

"No," Jimin shakes his head right away.

"O-oh," Jungkook stares at the floor ashamed. "Okay."

Jimin could feel Jungkook's obvious disappointment, and it pained him. "Jungkook...I can't risk it. I just can't. If-if you don't show up, then that's it. I'll never look at you the same way again. I'll know you aren't real, I just can't risk that. I don't want to lose you...you mean way too much to me."

Jungkook looks at him, so obviously hurt. "If you care so much about me, don't you want to meet me?"

"Of course I do!" Jimin starts to tear up. He wipes them away—they were small for now. "But I want to keep you around as long as I can. I know it's selfish...but you mean more to me than anyone has before."

Jungkook is rendered speechless for just a second. "...What?"

"Jungkook, I love you," Jimin confesses, sniffing as tears keep falling. "I do. And there's nothing I want more than to meet you, but I can't. I trust you, Jungkook, I do. But I don't trust this—the circumstance we're in, the universe. Can you blame me for wanting to believe you're real for as long as possible?"

Jungkook stares at him attentively. "...What kind of love?"

Jimin's eyes dart away. "D-does it matter?"

"Yes, of course it matters," Jungkook presses. "Because I'm in love with you. I've been in love with you for a couple months now."

Jimin tilts his head back onto his bed, laughing incredulously. 

"See!?" He looks back at Jungkook, hurting. "When you say things like that, it makes me doubt things. Because how could a real person think that about me?"

"Think about how I feel," Jungkook shrugs. "You suddenly explain to me in length how much you care about me, then how much you love me? You think I don't feel the same?"

"I can't help the fact that I love you, I just do..." Jimin's voice was getting whiny, the tears were making it harder to speak. "I told you I loved you, but telling me you're in love with me is unfair."

"Why?" Jungkook sounds exhausted. "Am I not allowed to share my feelings too? Do my feelings ruin everything, Jimin?"

"No!" Jimin denies. "Of course not, you know that's not what I meant! But...it does make everything worse."

"Why?" Jungkook's eyes hold nothing but hurt.

"Because now I know you feel the same as I do," Jimin answers, voice breaking. "I know you're in love with me like I am with you. And that we can't do anything about it."

"But we can..." However even Jungkook seems discouraged, as he whispers, "We can."

"We can't," Jimin shakes his head. "I can't. Not when the possibility of us is already so shaky."

"...I just want to love you," Jungkook begins to cry.

"You can love me," Jimin scoots towards the mirror. "Just like this, just like I love you."

"I don't want just this!" The two slowly get closer to the mirror, to the point where they're both kneeling in front of it. They've never been close like this before. "I want to be in the same room as you, and hold you, and kiss you."

"I want that too..." Jimin puts his hand on the mirror. "But we can't. I'm so sorry, Jungkook."

"It's not your fault," Jungkook places his hand on the mirror as well, against Jimin's. Only that thin piece of glass was between them. The taller rests his head on the mirror. "I can't blame you, no matter how much it hurts. I wish I had someone to blame...but I don't."

And Jimin does the same—their foreheads, instead of touching each other, touch the cold material. "I'm so sorry."

And with that they both break down, the mirror fogging up by their mouths, water collecting, and sliding down in droplets. They were both helpless in this moment. They were so in love...well—Jimin was so in love with Jungkook.

Jungkook may not even be real.

*

"I love you so much."

"As you've said," Jimin chuckles eyes warm. "I love you so much too."

"You...something happens when I'm with you," Jungkook tells him. "I always get so emotional just looking at you. All types of emotions."

"I remember you saying how calm you were when there was chaos," Jimin's eyes gleam with amusement. "On the first day we met."

"But you came into my life and rocked my world," Jungkook continues. "And that all fell apart. I want to hold you so bad."

"I know," Jimin sighs. "Me too. You say that every day."

"I broke my daily crying streak," Jungkook jokes sadly. "I'm starting to cry a lot less frequently. Are you proud of me?"

"Of course I am," Jimin coos. "I don't want you to cry over something like this...Something we can't change."

"...You're right," Jungkook nods. "We're slowly becoming okay with this situation."

Jimin frowns, a thought coming into his mind. "...Is this going to work? How are we going to do this for the rest of our lives?"

"...Well, we have the rest of our lives to figure that out," Jungkook looks down. "It's interesting you jumped to that point though. You're saying you want to spend the rest of your life with me? We only confessed to each other three weeks ago. That's a bit fast."

"I do," Jimin nods. "Even if that means you're a tumor in my brain, or an angel, or any crazy thing like that. We spend every day together...it's not that odd to think I'd feel that way."

"It's not...I feel the same way," Jungkook's smile is soft. "We've connected in a way I don't think I could ever connect with someone else...never. We're here for a reason. It's been a crazy few months, Jimin. We haven't even known each other half a year...but I'm ready to spend my whole life together with you."

Jimin smiles a smile that doesn't reach his eyes. "We've really only known each other for a few months?"

"Almost five," Jungkook tips his head to the side.

"No even five," Jimin rephrases. "Wow..."

"...If we have to live our whole lives like this," Jungkook's voice is quiet. "Will this be enough for you? Will...will I be enough for you?"

"Jungkook...I don't think there's going to ever be anything except this," Jimin admits. "I've come to terms with that. Knowing that, of course you'll be enough for me. You will always be enough for me."

"You'll always be enough for me too," Jungkook agrees. "I love you. Love will be enough...right?"

"Right," Jimin nods. "Love is definitely enough."

The pair falls into silence.

"...I'm never going to get to hold you," Jungkook whispers. "Am I?"

"You're probably not even real," Jimin shrugs. "I've even accepted that...and yet this is okay. Not ideal...but okay."

Jungkook looks so upset. "You're really okay being in love with someone you don't think is real?"

"If it's you, yes," Jimin looks at him sadly. "I'm too far into it now."

"This is starting to make me question if I myself am even real," Jungkook brings a hand to his head.

"My brain is becoming self-aware," Jimin starts tearing up with a pitiful laugh. "The character it made up to torture me knows he's not real."

"Hey, I thought we were working on not crying," Jungkook tries to comfort, but it's hard when he's so sad as well. "Dry the tears off your pretty face."

"I love you," Jimin ignores. "That's the only thing that keeps me from going insane."

"I love you too, Jiminie," Jungkook kisses into the air, staring at him with so much pained love. "And I'm a real person."

"And you're a real person," Jimin repeats. "Or I'm going crazy. Either way, I'll never know, so it doesn't matter. And I have to be okay with that."

"In a way, that's a good mindset to have," Jungkook notes. "Just...take each other for what they are."

"And be satisfied with what we have," Jimin adds.

It was just so difficult.

*

Jimin needed to get out of the house. 

His entire life for the past six months has been pretty limited to just work and Jungkook. He'd wake up, see Jungkook, go to work, come home, talk to Jungkook until late at night. He stayed home on weekends, he never went out.

The past month...Jimin and Jungkook tried to find as much to be happy about as possible. They spent an entire Saturday talking about it—all the positives, ways they'd improve their mindset, the lot. And it got better. It was still extremely difficult...but it was getting better.

Today he was just going to spend some money, just for fun. New clothes, maybe some home décor for his apartment. Retail therapy, if you will. The only thing he's really spent money on these past few months were necessities—he had money lying around.

He decided to walk. He lived in a populated town, with many recreational shopping areas around. If he walked he'd encounter no traffic, he'd have total control—he needed any little control in his life...he felt like he had none. 

Waking was simple. He needed simple.

He stares ahead, focused and controlled, taking a deep breath. Jimin was exhausted, he was discouraged. But wouldn't anybody be? He was scared, he was stressed, he was beyond depressed. Because he was in a relationship with a man in his mirror.

He tries to be okay with their situation...he really does. But it was so difficult. It was like being in a long-distance relationship...except without the possibility of ever meeting on the horizon. 

Jimin loves Jungkook, he really does. But he was missing out on a huge part of this relationship. He'll never be able to touch Jungkook. He doesn't know the texture of his hair or his skin. He doesn't know what Jungkook smells like—what fragrances he uses, be it shampoo or perfume. And that was hard.

There were so many things people took for granted, being present with their partner. Whenever Jimin sees couples together in public, he feels bitter, and jealous. Especially when they don't seem to be enjoying themselves. They have what Jimin wants...and they aren't even appreciating it.

That was a big reason he didn't go out much anymore—besides of course the fact that going out means he'd be around people, therefore not able to see Jungkook in any public mirror. He didn't want to have to look at people being happy in a way he never will be.

Suddenly he stops in his tracks, eyes almost popping out of his head.

In front of him was a man, standing about 10 feet away, who did the same.

With wide eyes they stare at each other, mouths hanging open. They can't move, their brains just...stop functioning. 

Jimin couldn't believe what he was seeing. He had to be hallucinating, he was going completely insane!

"J-Jungkook?"

"Jimin," His voice comes out whiny, as he starts to cry. 

With that they run towards each other at once. They crash together, in a tight embrace. Jimin inhales a long, deep breath. Jungkook smells like flowers. 

Jimin holds him as tight as he can, Jungkook doing the same. Soon Jimin's tears wet Jungkook's shirt as well. Within seconds, they were both crying in the streets of a very populated area.

"Oh my God," Jungkook mumbles into Jimin's hair. "Oh my God, this isn't real."

"H-hold on," Jimin pulls away, his eyes darting to the nearest person. "Hey, you! This man is real, right?"

"Yeah?" The guy looks at them weirdly.

"Oh Baby you're real," Jimin pulls him back in, tears falling faster. "I can't believe it. How are you real!? I had no hope!"

"I never though I'd get to meet you," Jungkook whispers. "Even if you were real. But here you are. And I'm holding you, and you fit perfectly...just like I talked about."

Jimin somehow holds him even closer. "I was so scared I'd never get this. I've loved you for so long, staring at you without getting to touch you. And I tried to convince myself I was fine with that...but I wasn't."

"Oh me neither, me neither..." Jungkook nuzzles his face into the side of Jimin's. "My only wish has come true. I love you so much."

"I love you too," Jimin puts his face in Jungkook's neck. "Let's...let's go to my home. It's only five minutes away. I can show you where I sat to talk to you every day."

Jungkook nods rapidly. "That sounds perfect."

"Come here," Jimin pulls away, grabbing Jungkook's hand. "It's this way."

Their tears slow down as they make the short walk to Jimin's apartment. Their shoulders brush up against each other—they feel like they have to be as close as possible.

Jimin unlocks the door, and they walk inside. 

"You'll have to show me your room soon," Jimin brings him to his bedroom. "But here's mine. Look, there's the mirror I sat at for hours every day."

They walk up to the mirror. Jungkook touches the scratched wooden frame, painted olive green. They look into it, but to their surprise, they were still staring at the other's reflection.

Jimin faces Jungkook and Jungkook faces Jimin. But the two in the mirror were smiling, knowing, wise smiles.

"I'm so glad you two found each other," The Jimin in the mirror says, voice calm and gentle. "It's what we intended."

"What's going on?" The other Jimin whispers. "What are you?"

"Gradian angels, celestial beings," Mirror Jungkook chuckles. "Whatever you'd like to call us."

"We made a mistake...we accidentally opened a portal of sorts in mirrors, just for you two," Mirror Jimin scratches the back of his head. "But it's okay. It obviously worked out."

"Jimin, remember when you asked how Jungkook is always there when you are?" Mirror Jungkook asks. "Well that's because when he wasn't there, I was."

"You two were talking to each other face to face about 80% of the time," Mirror Jimin assures. "But when you guys weren't in front of the mirrors at the same time, we'd take your place. Don't worry though—everything you told us the other retains. For example, Jungkook? What's the name of Jimin's childhood dog?"

"Bucky," Jungkook's eyes widen. "O-oh. You never told me that."

Jimin looks at him, eyes wide as well. "But I did tell you that."

"You told me," Mirror Jungkook corrects. "But the knowledge went into Jungkook's mind. We didn't intend for this to happen, for you two to meet this way, but in the end it was better.  It was going to happen anyways—you two meeting. But you met sooner because of this accident."

"We're going to leave you alone now," Mirror Jimin smiles. "No more emotional crying, no more hopeless longing. We knew you two would meet eventually but we didn't know when. Now you have, so you don't need us. Now you'll finally see your own face in the mirror."

"Th-thank you," Jungkook speaks up. "So much. For giving me Jimin."

The two just smile at the two outside the mirror, as Mirror Jungkook says, "It was the best mistake we've ever made."

The two in the mirror turn into glowing beings, almost humanistic but not quite. The one that used to be Jimin goes, "Goodbye you two. You don't need us anymore. Your days of uncertainty are over, darlings."

And then they were gone.

And Jimin and Jungkook see their reflections in the mirror for almost the first time in six months.

Jimin turns his body towards Jungkook, wrapping his arms around him and pushing him backwards. They fall onto the bed in a tangle, so happy.

"It's over," Jimin smiles. "This whole stressful situation is over. I just get to love you like any normal person."

"You smell so good," Jungkook notes, causing Jimin to laugh. "I've always wondered how you smelled."

"Jungkookie," Jimin coos. "My emotional baby."

"Only for you," Jungkook's looks into his eyes. "I'm always so calm, until it comes to you."

"Jungkook?" Jimin's eyes are innocent. "...Will you kiss me?"

"If you kiss back," Jungkook jokes lightly.

But Jimin doesn't laugh, he just leans in. Jungkook is the one who kisses back, holding his lover's face. They've both wanted this for so long, they savored it completely. They just laid there, their arms moving, their legs moving, their lips moving, simply just happy.

Jungkook pulls away first. 

"Jimin, marry me," It comes out as barely a mumble.

"What?" Jimin's eyes widen.

"Marry me," He voice is louder. "We already promised to spend the rest of our lives together...why not just get married?"

"We haven't met each other's families, we just met in person for the first time," Jimin lists, but he doesn't sound against the idea completely. "We have so much more to learn about each other."

"We can do that all before we get married," Jungkook holds both of Jimin's hands. "But you can still promise you'll marry me now. We can wait a year, or even two. However long it takes for both of us to feel ready. But you can still tell me you want to marry me right at this moment."

"You present a convincing argument," Jimin chuckles. "I...I do want to marry you. You know what? Yes, I will marry you, Jungkookie. And it will be a long time from now, but I will. I'll buy you an engagement ring. I haven't had any reason to spend money, but now I have a perfect one."

"I'll take you to meet my parents tomorrow," Jungkook kisses him once again. "We won't tell them we're getting married yet, but they'll love my new fiancé."

"And next week, when I take you to meet mine," Jimin touches his face. "They'll fall in love with their future son-in-law."

"I can't believe we're getting married!" Jungkook tears up yet again. "I can still barely believe you're real."

"I can't either," Jimin shakes his head. "But I'm going to savor every second of it, just in case I wake up from a dream."

Finally they had clarity, assurance, real answers. Finally they could stop wondering if they were insane or simply imagining the one they love so much. This was real, this was pure. There was nothing but love.

It was perfect. 

A/N: *Inhales*

MINGIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ATEEZ is 8! Mingi is slowly coming back to us ^^ my beautiful birthday twinnie is feeling better and I'm so happy for him ^^

Mingi is at the top right btw ^^

Atinys are some of the nicest people ever, I never see negativity on ATEEZ's side of Twitter, the only negativity I see is people feeling sad that ATEEZ is getting attacked by others. They're not like the Kpoppies that blame other groups (BTS a lot of the time smh) if ATEEZ don't win or get a lower ranking, they simply just work harder.

Since ATEEZ are on Kingdom, they've been getting a lot of harassment, and they were getting really hated on because they got first place, to the point where some of the fans of multiple other groups emailed mnet telling them to nullify ATEEZ's score because they were angry ATEEZ got first

But listen.

Wonderland this week was a cinematic masterpiece, skills-wise as well as artistically it was just better. 

And not that this would be important to any non-atiny/non-mikchimin readers, but Yeosang does a cute little lifted twirl that was like, Jikook in no more dream vibes were Jimin gets lifted up and kicks over the rest of the members, and I'm so proud of him that he got that part and he did so good and yeah-

Here's the performance, I really recommend watching it;

https://youtu.be/-uDitNeFO-I

All I'm saying is many agreed, including non-atinys, that ATEEZ deserved the win this week. And it makes sense, their specialty is performance. I watch way more ATEEZ stages than I do BTS stages because they are just so captivating, they're so amazing to watch. They set my standards so high I'll watch other groups dance and be like "...Eye mean it's fine-"

And that's not to say the groups are bad, just that performance wise, ATEEZ are on their own level, especially when you think about the fact that they'll only be two and a half on the 24th of this month.

BTS is better, Jimin and Hoseok and probably Jungkook are way better dancers than all of ATEEZ of course, but as a whole I'd rather watch ATEEZ perform fireworks than BTS perform ON.

Black Swan is the only stage I could watch over and over and over again. I don't know why, it's not even my favorite song-

Black Swan Supremacy, am I right??

I am right, I won't take criticism, I'm The Queen of Controversial Opinions but sometimes opinions are just flat out wrong~

Like men aren't allowed to wear dresses.

As if men didn't wear dresses until the age of 9 until the early 1900s

Yeah, from the mid 16th century to the early 20th century it was completely normal for young boys to wear dresses! And in the 1700s the most masculine thing to show off your wealth was with a full face of makeup, frills, shoes with heels and huge wigs!

There are people who claim that men wearing dresses is "gOiNg AgAiNsT bIoLoGy"

W H A T

It's laughable. Boys don't come out of the womb loving cars and trucks, and girls don't pop out talking about how much the love pink and dolls. It is not in our biology because gender isn't biological.

Ever think about why there's no transgender animals? Transphobes will hold their head high with that argument, but in reality, it's a simple answer.

Gender is a social construct.

Male and female is different than man and woman. It's the reason not all people born female are women or those born male are men. Some people are neither no matter what they were born as, and some are just fluidly both. Gender norms have been so rigid for centuries, usually to oppress women and keep them at home might I add ew, and we're trying to blur the lines. 

People will make the argument that we're pushing "the agenda" and they won't specify what the agenda is (the gay agenda, the trans agenda, the feminism agenda, like what the fuck is it Hunter?) but that we're pushing one anyways.

But here's the thing. We aren't forcing men to wear dresses. We are simply just trying to create a more comfortable world for people to express themselves in. It's just so misogynistic, you know? And I don't usually talk about misogyny about men cuz usually they're the ones being assfucks, but why is it that women can wear suits (what a power move, we love a handsome woman) but men can't wear dresses without people crying and complaining over the "downfall of masculinity" 

They're crying and screaming as if we're drying to get men to dress like this;

What a queen, might I add.

But we're not.

We're just asking them to shut up about the decision of people that have nothing to do with them. Like what does Gunner from Louisiana have to do with Harry Styles? What does Lucas from Tennessee have to do with Jikook on the cover of vogue in big ballgowns, staring at the world with beautiful stares?

Oh wait that was only in my head.

Damn it.

Everyone pray to whoever you pray to and if no one then to the universe for Jikook in ballgowns on the cover of a magazine someday.

Okay thank you I love you all :)

But that was my point. We're not here to force people to do things, we're trying to promote a world with the opposite. I don't know what I'd do if the roles were flipped and women got shamed for wearing men's clothes instead of people thinking it was cute. I mean look at my Instagram story!

I don't know if anyone can tell but I basically live in this shirt. Men's clothes are so big and nice ^^

But yes. My point is, be like Hongjoong, express yourself instead of suppressing others.

Oh shit that was good~

Express yourself instead of suppressing others!

Yayyyyy!

But look at Hongjoong, he's great, he paints his nails and wears skirts;

Or Hoseok or Namjoon in those photoshoots, we love those~

Also Jimin said he looks pretty in dresses, and Jungkook loves being called pretty, Bangtan is amazing and they're all so pretty and love and respect everyone except for those who oppress. 

And now they're sponsoring McDonald's~

Damn these transitions are smooth I'm never like this-

In May we're getting McDonald's x BTS and I'm so excited! And McDonald's said they're OT7 so yes we love that~

I sent it to my dad and he was like, "Well I don't even like McDonald's but we're totally trying that!" so I'm really excited. Usually BTS only does promotions in Korea, which is always sad, especially since they were doing a BTS ice cream cake from Baskin Robbins around my birthday, but they're doing it in so many countries this time!!

Here's the list;

I already know some of you are gonna be sad cuz your country isn't on here but it's still a lot all things considered.

So yes, I will blindly take the BTS meal, hopefully it comes with a photocard, hopefully I'll be able to collect them all someday, I'mma be going at lunch time cuz I swear if they sell out I'll cry, but I do live in a small town so hopefully I'll be fine-

I'm talking small town. There are cows less than five minutes away from my house.

One with an annual fair, a river, three highways, all those things.

Here's the river;

The sun was in my eyes I'm not looking at the camera.

Here's another pretty spot;

Actually if you turn your head you'll have houses on one side and industrial buildings on the other, but it looks like a creek in the woods on the way to a cottage ^^

I watch too many tumblr compilations like I was starting to think about tumblr and cottagecore while walking past-

Oh yeah! I didn't mention the dog at all! Her name is Lemmon, she's adorable, I love her ^^ I get paid $20/hr to walk her, and walk her about four times a week, so that's $80 a week and $320 a month. Not as much as an actual job, but I also do a really good job vacuuming cars which is $15/hr, so I'm finding ways to make money. 

And my Winter Package is coming~

It took three or four months to the point where it isn't even winter anymore but it's fine-

Now that I have a job I get to build up my collection, and collecting is really important to me, so I'm gonna start getting Musters, Winter Packages, Summer Packages, Japanese CD's, it's all going to be good :)

Oh my God tho, going back to the dog, Lemmon is a really skittish dog, she'll sometimes she a cat and do that thing the lady from the fake rat Walmart vine did, you know the one with that weird sound she made? "aᶻᵉᵐ!" it's so hard to describe in words hold on;

This one. You get it.

Lemmon basically zips away. But she has two dogs that she loves, that live near a park pretty near her house. Their names are Kevin and Lucky and she loves them both so much. Today when she saw them from across the street she got so excited. She was on a leash but when she got to them she started jumping and rolling around and the leash got tangled and yeah it was cute.

Kevin has a rubber frisbee, and when it gets thrown Lemmon doesn't wanna chase the frisbee, she wants to chase Kevin chasing the frisbee, which is so adorable.

And Lucky, he's huge, not Jake The Big Boy Pupper Dude big, but almost that size. His owner said that he thinks Lucky thinks Lemmon is his girlfriend since he'll like, rest his head around her like a hug almost, and lick her ears and it's soft and domestic and that's adorable.

His owner said that Lucky really likes ears

I deadass almost went "Omg same-"

And I am so glad I have a filter because if I said that-

I think my eyes widened tho he might've noticed that. 

I never asked any of you this, but what's your favorite body part that's not like a normal thing people say

Because I know if I didn't add that you'd all say thighs and that's well and good but I want variety, I was uniqueness, I want individuality

And I'm obsessed with ears so I don't wanna be the only one with a weird thing, and I know I'm not. So what body part are you attracted to that not everyone is~?

And also what's your favorite thing right now?

My favorite thing is being outside. I feel like I'm making Namjoon proud :)

I started writing this up yesterday, now it's 8:55pm-

I think I don't have anything else to say. 

I was feeling really nostalgic walking on the street Kevin and Lucky live on (oh ig I do have more to say sorry-) because one of my childhood best friends lived on that street, but they don't anymore and I walked past her house and had all these memories flash by. It was nice, I miss the memories, we're at different parts of our life now. 

But yeah.

I haven't talked about Jikook at all, so I'll just leave this hear because of the lack of moments;

Same energy as;

Also, there was a Run BTS episode on Live TV, I haven't watched it, but;

They hugged a couple times.

And Jimin got pushed away by Hoseok from playing with the professional, so Jungkook immediately went, "Jimin Hyung, come here, come here, Jimin Hyung! Jimin Hyung, come here! Come here." 

I watched the clip multiple times just to make sure I got down all the times Jungkook said either Jimin Hyung or come here, and yeah. It already sounded like a lot, but that's three Jimin Hyungs and four come here's. 

Well he was eager.

He just wanted to play with his Hyungie, and wanted to make sure he knew he was wanted I think ^^

And there's also clips of them playing in the background all giggly and stuff, and Jungkook had to do this thing where he had to knock over a bottle with a ping pong ball, and he wasn't even close so Jimin hit it off the table and went, "Wowwwwww! My dongsaeng is so talented!" and that's what prompted the hug above.

Oh and all the Bodyfriend behind the scenes is fun too.

I wish I could just start a Jikook podcast. Like I'd want to start it with someone. Where we can talk about what Jikook did that week, how much we love them, and our favorite Jikook moments, and it would just be fun and people would listen just to get that extra Jikook content, because every Jikookie wants more Jikook content ^^

If I had someone to do it with it would be so fun, but I don't, so oh well.

Now I think I'm done.

Until next time~

Vmon;

They are so cuteeeeeeeeeee ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

They're the two geniuses of Bangtan (Yoongi is part of the genius line too, but you know-) Namjoon is so obviously smart and wise, and calms us with his words and actions. And Taehyung is just so amazing to watch. You learn to expect the unexpected with him. He comes up with the most creative things to say and do. I love them both so much. But their brains together, and you get an amazing Run BTS episode, as seen in the last episode.

We won't talk about the fact that they were in last place-

Maybe geniuses cancel each other out?

Lmao whatever the reason, it doesn't matter, because Vmon together is amazing~

I'm done~

I love you guys!

If I were a type in a friendgroup, which one would I be? Which one would you be?

-Mikayla