I grunted realizing what I had to do.

"UGGHHH, why the fuck do I do this to myself." I quietly asked myself and looked around. I don't want her to die before I actually do anything, so I'm gonna have to find her some shit to wear and maybe find some boots. I'll bring her to the cabin that I stayed at for the three nights that I was here. I looked back over at her and her hair was covering her face. I squatted down to her and I gently moved her hair out of the way. My leather-like fingers graced her soft cheek and I froze. Usually, I don't even touch my victims. I barely even look at them before I kill them. But when my hand graced her cheek, my heart stopped.

I let out a breath that I didn't even know I was holding and I looked at my hand. It was the softest thing that I have touched for over 6 years. I even forgot how much I've missed this feeling. All of the things that I have experienced was just rough or cold touches, rough pushing, latex gloves, chains, mouth guards. I haven't even slept a good night's sleep ever since I started killing. Every time I did sleep, I would wake up every 5 minutes because of how paranoid I was.

I sucked in a breath and growled a little. I hate the sensitive part of me. I always feel so vulnerable and just want to punch something so that I could be angry again. I shook my head and glared at the women. I'm not going to lie, I want to kill her, here and now. But, I haven't had true fun in a while. I smiled again and got back up. I just have to look for some warm clothes for her and we'll be ready to go.

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"Oh, for FUCKS SAKE" I yelled and harshly dropped the women on the cold snowy floor. After a while of holding something, it starts to get heavier and heavier. I huffed and kicked some snow as I sat down next to a tree. It wasn't that hard to find her clothes and boots. What was hard was trudging through the fucking 5-inch snow in the woods. I sighed and looked up. I watched as the mist like clouds slowly pass the crystal-like moon. I stared at the shimmering stars and started to think of Liu.

God, I miss him so much. I never meant to kill him, I was too far off to actually notice what I was doing till the last second. I cried...so much. I still do. I wish he was here so that he can stargaze with me. I felt something slide down my cheek and fall on my hand. I flinched at the sudden feeling and I looked down. I rubbed my cheek and noticed that it was water.

I was crying.

I started to heave and cough uncontrollably, I felt like my chest was going to cave in on itself. I tried to calm myself down in any way that I could think of. I was having a fucking meltdown in the middle of a fucking snowed down woods. I was cursing at myself and I tried to get back up. I slipped and slumped against the tree that I was against. I started to have blurry vision and I was starting to panic.

Why? Why now? Every time I think of him! I cried aloud and kicked the snow. I screamed a heart-wrenching sound and pulled at my hair. Just stop already! Just breathe for fucksake! Calm down already! Please! Please! Please!

"It's okay, it's okay, y-you're okay." I faintly heard a small voice and I flinched when I felt a soft touch on my back. I was still screaming and cursing, but, the soft words and touches were helping.

"I promise it's okay, it'll pass, just let it out." The person kept saying soft nothings next to me and I was cooling down my breathing. My hands weren't harshly pulling at my hair anymore, but soft tug's here and there. I was able to wipe the tears away from my cheeks, making sure I don't get too close to my eyes as they would burn from the sudden contact. I sniffed feeling vulnerable and I harshly shrugged the hand away. I didn't want to say thanks or even anything at that matter and as I slowly pulled my hands down from my head I glanced at whoever was behind me. It was the girl.

Fan-fucking-tastic.

I growled and huffed as she scooted back a bit. I sighed and slouched. I watched as my breath clouded in front of me and dissipated slowly. The only light helping me see was from the moon. I wiped the last bit of my tears and I harshly grabbed the girls arm. She said a small ouch as I pulled her standing with me. I grunted and basically dragged her to the direction I was going in the first place.

Yes. I was pissed. But, I can't deny the fact that it helped me tons. I want to thank her, but, I'm not thanking shit from my victims. I chuckled softly and felt her tense under my hands. That's when I knew that I got her back. I smiled greatly and stopped in my tracks.

"You had the chance to run, why didn't you?" I asked her and still held onto her arm. When I finished my sentence I harshly tugged on her arm and she flinched.

"Because I'm not mean, like you." She said with a small voice but with some attitude behind it. I growled at the attitude and scoffed. Stupid girl-

"Plus, you would have killed me anyway even if I ran. I also didn't want you to hurt yourself." She continued.

"Shut up."

I pulled her along again trudging through the thick snow. I was starting to get even more irritated than I already was since I didn't even think about how far away my cabin was. My fingers were starting to feel numb and that usually isn't a good thing in the winter. I know I was going the right way, but I can't figure out where the living hell the house is. I was starting to panic a little and so I sighed deeply and stopped again. I looked around me and I felt a sudden wave of relief. I saw a warm glow of light and instantly knew that it was the cabin. I got excited and basically dragged the girl along with me. I could hear her protest but I didn't care, I was gonna start complaining soon if I didn't feel the warmth of the flimsy cabin. 

It was hard to trudge through the snow when you were dragging a human behind you but I managed. The cold was starting to feel like knives against my leather skin, I hissed sharply when I finally got out of the snow and onto the broken-down porch. I huffed and let the girl's arm go and I took this time to open the cabin door. I kept looking behind myself to make sure that the girl was still there and each time I looked the more the girl looked pale. I groaned and when I was done pushing the door open I grabbed her and led her to the bathroom. 

"Hurry up and do what you need to, I don't need you vomiting all over my cabin." I hissed at her and pushed her towards the toilet. I heard a small whimper come from her while I left the room. I walked over to the door and closed it making sure that it was wedged into the floor like before. I looked around outside before I closed the curtains. This was unnecessary as there was literally no one around not for a couple of miles at least. I sighed as I heard the girl starting to vomit. I rolled my eyes thinking that the girl was pretty weak, I'm gonna have to learn her name soon, saying 'the girl' was starting to get tiresome. 

I turned around when I heard her go quiet. I walked quickly to the bathroom just to make sure that she wasn't stupid enough to actually try to run. I smirked and almost laughed when I saw that the girl had passed out again. She looked dehydrated, I'm gonna have to be nice and give her some water. But, not after I have secured her. I got out of the bathroom carrying her to the sofa and started my journey around the cabin.

I needed rope, duct tape, and a chair that she could sit in. I found the rope near the shack, the tape in a drawer, and I grabbed one of the chairs from the kitchen. I brought these things to my bedroom and went to grab the girl.

She looked like she was still asleep so I was kind enough to grab her gently and bring her to my room. I sat her down on the chair and watched as she slumped over. I chuckled a bit and grabbed the materials. Now that she was all secure I grabbed my knife and sat on my bed.

Now I just have to wait.