(⚠️usual language warning⚠️)
⚠️!TRIGGER WARNING!⚠️
(In the past izuku was suicidal and it eventually drove him to insanity <which is why he's so messed up now> he was fine for about a week after all might died but then reality set in and he got very depressed very fast, it will all be in about 10-12 chapters so buckle up bitches because I cried after re-reading this)

(Izukus backstory part 1)

Nobody's/izukus POV:
Izuku: underlined
Nobody: normal

It was a semi-normal day in class 3-A, the class was filled with anxious and paranoid chatter because all might had passed out while teaching the previous day but other than that nothing out of the ordinary or dangerous (like villain attacks
A/N; *cough cough* USJ, the mall and training camp *cough cough*)
Had happened recently.

*BELL RINGS*

Everyone quieted down and headed to their seats as aizawa sensei
Entered the class, I was slightly surprised seeing as all might was supposed to teach us this period..
Hmm...
'Was he resting? or did he just use up all of his time doing heroic acts before school?.. no he couldn't have I check the LAHN (live action hero news) everyday on the way to school...
Could he be-'
I was cut off by kacchan

"Hey nerd!"
"Y-yes kacchan?"
"Aizawa is trying to get your attention you were fucking muttering again"
"O-oh! S-sorry sensei What did you need?"

I turned my attention from kacchan to erasure head and I noticed a worried and sad look in his eyes.
They also looked puffy...
Has he been crying?!

"C-could- *clears throat* could you come with me into the hall for a moment please midoriya?"

Oh no this must be bad!
Am I failing a class?! Am I in trouble?!

I don't usually cuss but shit.. I'm in trouble for something aren't I?

WAIT

Did someone hear me and Todoroki?! I thought the dorms were sound proof! Crap crap crap crap!

(😏)

I shook away my thoughts and took a deep breath.

The greenette stood up from his seat and shakily followed his teacher out of the class room..

Okay this is fine as long as he doesn't close-
He closed the door.. damn it this must be really bad..

"Midoriya.. all might is like a father to you correct?"

Huh? Why is he asking about all might?

"Y-yes why do you ask?"

Aizawa took a deep breath in trying not to break down..
'Why are emotions so damn confusing?!'
He thought while fighting back tears

"Midoriya.. all might... h-he...."

Wait..
are those tears?!
No no no no no! What happened?! If a UA teacher and pro hero is crying this must be badder than bad..

"All might is dying Midoriya.,"

"..."

The man held out his arms and izuku fell into him so fast it knocked all the air out of the hero's lungs

"I-is h-h-he.. c-ca-an I se-e him?"

he managed to choke out on between sobs.

"He's stable for now and recovery girl said h-he won't last another day so yes you should go see him and s-say
goodb-bye.."

"O-kay"

"I'm going to tell the class.. you can head down now so you have time alone"

Izuku walked down the seemingly endless hallway to the room where his mentor,
the man he looked up to,
the father he never had
lay dying..

The small green-haired boy cautiously walked in to see recovery girl standing over a weak looking all might in his deflated form
Izuku wanted to break down in tears but he had to keep it together-
For all might

(Bold means izukus inner demons)

Oh all might..
'No! Don't cry! He can't die thinking his failure of a successor is weaker than he already knows'
'Oh izuku he already knows how weak and useless you are'
'Great.. it's you again...'
'If you thought therapy would get rid of me you need a wake up call because guess what?.. Therapy didn't do shit'
I dismissed the voices and walked over to all nights bedside,

There in front of izuku, lay all might
Weak
Frail
And barley able to keep his eyes open
"W-what hap-pend?"
Izuku turned to recovery girl with tears in his eyes
"Well.. during a fight with a villain around a few days ago he suffered a blow to the stomach.. because of this he started to slowly bleed internally.."
"y-yesterday when he was teaching he collapsed due to blood loss and now his organs are shutting down.. it may sound painful but it's painless for the most part.."
they we're now both crying
Izuku letting out loud pain-filled sobs while recovery girl seemed unaware of the tears streaming down her face

"Y-young m-midoriya?"
All might said in a raspy dry voice

"Oh all might! I-I'm s-s-so sorry! I'm a f-failure and now you have to d-die knowing I'm weak and useless!"

"Midoriya my boy..
your not a failure....
if you failed me I wouldn't have given you my power! You cleared the beach and passed my expectations and continue to do so every day"

"I-I don't want you to go! There's still so much I want y-ou to teach me!"

"I know.. I'm sorry- I thought I had more time.. I wanted to teach you and share so much more with you...."

"I-.."

the doors to recovery girls office burst open and all of class 3-A was suddenly behind izuku

Everyone of them had tears in their eyes..

Bakugo was crying with no emotion

Todoroki has a hand over his mouth and tears pouring out of his eyes

Kirishima was sobbing  violently saying something along the lines of
'oh my god all might' while bakugo had a hand on his back attempting to comfort them both

Everyone of them looked shocked, scared, and sad

"A-ah! Class 3-A!.. d-don't cry my children.. I know I won't be there to see you all find love and become hero's..... but I know every single one of you have a future filled with success!"

All of them nodded, some even attempted to smile to ease the hero's mind

"D-don't fucking die on us a-a-all might"
Bakugo said trying to hide his small sobs and failing miserably

"I don't want a new teacher! Y-you were such an inspiration a-and so manly!"
Kirishima choked out burying his head into bakugos now soaked uniform

"I-I don't want you to leave us a-all might"
Todoroki said in a raspy voice attempting to wipe away and hide his tears

"Y-you were like a dad to me.. you gave me so many new opportunities and inspired-me my whole l-li-life"

Izuku couldn't worry about how weak he seemed at this point he just needed to make sure all might knew how grateful he was

"Everyone if you have a bright future filled with well earned power.. and you 4.. don't even get me started! Izuku, bakugo, Todoroki and kirishima.. you 4 have so much potential and you've proved that! I'm disappointed I won't get to come to your wedding kirishima but I'm sure bakugo will be very happy with you"

Everyone chuckled at this and kirishima was blushing so hard you couldn't tell what was his hair and what was his face,
bakugo however smiled with pink tinting his face and said

"Yeah well he already makes me h-happy so..."

"D-don't take that the wrong way
sh-shitty hair!"

"Oh bakugo my boy.. stop being a tsundere and ask him out all ready"

Everyone burst out laughing at this comment from all might
But this happiness was short lived..
Suddenly All might started coughing
This fit lasted about 2 minutes before he stopped and smiled weakly

"M-my ti-time is almo-st up I'm afraid.."

He turned to the class and with one final smile he said-

"Never give up and-

"Go beyond plus ultra.."

Suddenly his eyes fluttered shut and with one final breath in the monitor went flat..

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My god! 1416 words!
Part 2 is already done so get ready because I'm crying violently in a corner clutching my ice cream rn

See you in the next one~