(Izukus backstory part 2)

⚠️language and massive trigger warning⚠️
(Also fluffy gay bois in the first couple paragraphs UwU once again it's 3-A because there all in the star of 3rd year)

(Last chapter)

"Go beyond plus ultra.."

Suddenly his eyes fluttered shut and with one final breath in the monitor went flat..

"NO!"
Izuku screamed out

"Get izuku out of here!"
Recovery girl yelled and rushed to all mights side

Todoroki had to pick Up a sobbing izuku up bridal style and carry him back to his dorm,

-le time skip (in izukus dorm)-

Todoroki laid his crying boyfriend down and turned to leave
Just as he was about to walk toward the door he felt a hand grab his sleeve

"Shoto.. s-stay"
He nodded and climbed under the covers with him
Almost instantly he felt arms rap around him and small sobs into his shirt

It stayed like this for awhile until the sobs stopped and izukus shaky breathing became steady
He looked down to see izuku sleeping with a calm expression

"Cute.." Todoroki mumbled and drifted off to sleep with his boyfriend in his arms

-morning-

Todorokis POV;

I awoke to sun shining in my eyes
Memory's of yesterday flooded my mind and I looked down to see izuku sleeping peacefully in my arms

'I don't want to wake him but I have to turn off his alarm so he can get some rest..'

I carefully slipped out of his grasp and stood up.

Deciding to let him sleep I unplugged his alarm clock and wrote him a note so he wouldn't think I left him
———
'Izuku,
Because of yesterday's events I'm fairly certain we won't have classes today so I let you sleep in

Just so you know I stayed all night and if you need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on I'll be here.. until you need me I'm going to give you space,

Remember that I'm only a phone call away!
(Since you probably won't want to-leave your room and that's fine)

I'm here for you and I love you.. remember that-
xoxo Shoto'
———

I set the note on his bedside table and gave him a quick kiss on the forehead before leaving
"I love you.."

-an hour later-

Izukus POV;
'What happened?'
You don't remember?~
'Remember what-'
Your favorite hero died knowing how much of a failure you are!~
'Oh..'
Useless
'N-no! I'm useful!'
Weak
'Stop it!'
Nobody loves you
'That's a lie!'
Aww~ is the baby crying?
Stop it!
Crybaby
I-I'm not a crybaby!
Fat
..n-no
Ugly
...
Unliked
M-maybe..
Pitied
That's not true!.. r-right?
Waste of space
Waste of space..?
Waste of oxygen
Waste of oxygen...?
Die
Die?
You deserve pain
Pain?
Failure
Failure
FAILURE

Nobody's POV;
Without thinking the greenette swiped a pencil from off his desk and stabbed his leg

Izukus POV;

H-huh? The voices stopped..
That felt..
Good...
Why don't you take it a step further?
Further?
Look how sharp the metal looks
mh..
You could easily feel pain using that
right.. but it's not strong enough
Look over there

Nobody's POV;
It's so innocent
You see it every where and every student has one..
It would look harmless if you found one in his dorm
Who knew something you give to children could do so much damage...

Izukus POV;
A pencil sharpener..

Nobody's POV;
Without thinking about the consequences or what anyone else thought izuku picked up the pencil sharpener and broke out the blade

He pressed it against his pale wrist and watched as the red blood formed small beads on the cut..
but of course he wasn't satisfied

Izukus POV;
There wasn't enough blood

One

Two

Three

The voices stoped

Four

Five

Six

It feels nice against my skin

Seven

Eight

Nine

I deserve this pain

Ten

Eleven

Tw-

Knock Knock

Shit! Nobody can know they will just try and stop me.. convince me they actually care...
I cleaned up the blood and pulled my sleeve down

After throwing the blade under my bed I got up and answered the door

"Shoto?"

—————
I KNOW I KNOW! I'm evil af
XD

Anyways I'm shook and slightly disturbed by how well I can portray insanity into such an innocent character..
But then again he does have a messed up past..

See you in the next one!~