This was supposed be out 46 minutes ago but I got lost in the world of pinterest when I was looking for a pic of Mihawk. Sorry
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A smile crossed my lips at the sight of Mihawk enjoying the meal I'd made him. My eyes became hazed over with admiration as my smile became more sincere but my mood was soon ruined by the swordman clearing his throat.

"What did you want to talk about?" His voice was deep with authority, reminding me of our current position. He was my ex-husband and this was only a dinner between to former companions to figure out what went wrong. Nothing more, nothing less.

"I just want to know why?"

"Elaborate." A heavy sigh escaped me but I followed his order nonetheless.

"I want to know why you left me? Why don't you love me anymore?"

"Are you certain you want to know?"

"I wouldn't ask if I wasn't." Mihawk slowly stood from his chair and walked towards my own, where he knelt down and gently palmed my thigh.

"I was tired (y/n), I was tired of you not trusting me. Imagine being with someone for years and having them not trust you once even after you've had a child together."

"I know how you-"

"No you don't. I trusted you fullheartedly and refused to doubt you even once. Because I loved you. I loved you with every fiber of my being and you refused to believe it. Your lack of trust caused you to question me in some of our most important times together. Even when it came to our child you'd question me."

"Well I'm sorry for not being a submissive bitch but I'm an assassin, its my job to make decisions on my own."

"Who said anything about being submissive? I never wanted you to be submissive. The reason why I'd never been with another woman before you was because of that very issue. I believed all women to be submissive and from the ones I'd seen, I thought I was right."

"Then how was I not to question you?"

"Because we were married and I loved you and you knew it. You knew I'd never hurt you, I promised you that I'd cherish you. (Y/n) we were supposed to be able to talk things out and work together rather than one person taking over the whole thing. It was supposed to be a collaborative effort, yet you wouldn't let that happen."

Gently he cupped my cheek in his large slightly calloused hand and I could vividly see the salty tears forming in his sad golden eyes.

"I love you (y/n) and I poured everything into our family. But you never returned the gesture. Why?"

"I did I swear I did! I did everything for you. I gave myself to you multiple times. I tried to please you in every way possible what more do you want from me?"

"Can you say that you completely trusted me at least once throughout our relationship?" The room went silent and I found myself speechless. I wanted to say yes and yell at the warlord for being so stupid as not to see that, but I couldn't. Because it wasn't true. I didn't trust him, I loved him, I pleasured him and I gave him a child but never throughout the whole relationship did I fully put my trust in this man.

I may have believed him in certain cases and trusted him not to do certain things but I didn't dare completely believe in him. Part of me always strayed away from him and doubted him and that was the part that showed the most. Taking note of my silence, Mihawk decided to answer for me.

"You didn't and I fail to believe that you ever will." Those were the last words that left his mouth before he closed his tearful eyes and allowed his lips to touch my own in a rueful kiss. Everything he was felt, he poured into this one action and my heart couldn't help but constrict from it all.

His tongue slipped through the barrier that was my lips and i allowed myself to taste his emotion. The noirette before me felt love, pain, hatred, regret, and sadness but at the same time he felt hated, betrayed, used, thrown away, lied to, he felt it all.

He was conflicted and I couldn't help but respond to his desperate gesture of emotional turmoil by allowing myself to melt into his kiss and wrapped my tongue around his own. Gently tangling my hands unto his messy black hair as he placed my legs around his waist while he began to stand.

"I miss you." I whimpered against his lips tears running down my cheeks.

"And I you." He replied pulling away to look at me.

"Then why can't I come back?"

"Because you still don't trust me. I refuse to put you and I back in the same position we were in."

"I can learn. I promise I'll learn just let me come home, let me be yours again."

"If you can learn then do so for me and I'll gladly to take you back. Show me that you can trust me not to lead you into despair and what we're doing now can go back to being a regular thing." I sniffled against his chest at the thought of him leaving again.

"You're still going to sleep with her aren't you?"

"She does for me what Sebastian does for you."

"She helps take away the pain even though you know its there and burning to be released?" With a nod Mihawk let me down and delivered one last kiss to my temple.

"Yes but I'm going to tell you this from now. I'm still mad at you and I won't believe nor forgive you that easily."

"You took the words right out of my mouth." I huffed angrily while fixing myself and opening the door.

"You're welcome to leave. Now." As Mihawk pridefully left the cottage we both delivered to each other an icy glare of hatred and I slammed the door in his back.

"Fucking asshole. I can't believe that's the man i fell for."

'So you're done with the mating process?' I nearly shot Kitt as he slithered through the window towards me.

"It wasn't a mating process, just us sealing a deal."

'Whatever you say, (n/n).' A knife whizzed past Kitt's head as I crossed my arms.

"Only my brother is allowed to call me by that horrid name."

'Then I guess we're related.'

"I hate you."

'I love you too (n/n).'