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It's been a little over a month since KJ showed up at my doorstep. We've become somewhat close since I've been taking care of him while Kaiden went to work. It might seem stupid but I decided to stay with Kaiden.

If I did leave Kaiden, I knew KJ would not get the proper attention he needs at his age. I know for a fact that I love Kaden and I wouldn't know what to do without him. Although we are still married, we are not acting like we used to before KJ came along. We haven't been intimate in a while and our communication is broken. Kaiden knows I still haven't fully forgiven him yet so he tries to give me as much space as possible.

The only person that truly has my attention is Kj. He has really brought so much joy to my heart when I thought it was completely broken. I enjoy teaching him ABC's and taking him to the park.

I sometimes see Kj's mother in the park watching him from a distance. It warmed my heart a bit knowing she is trying to get better for the sake of KJ. I hope she gains the confidence to speak to Kj while we are at the park. I know Kj sees her but he decides not to say anything. He truly misses her.

I wonder what will happen once she gets better. Will she let me see him? At this point, I'm attached to Kj as if he is my own. He is that important to me.

As far as Kaden and I, I think we are coming to a common ground. We're back in stride with a new routine involving KJ. Honestly, I'm tired of fighting. I had to realize that all I was doing was arguing with him and not communicating with him. I don't know how many ways I told him I was hurt but honestly I was smelling myself. I was doing everything I could to say anything to hurt him back but really I was hurting myself. I knew I didn't want to leave. I loved him too much. And recently I feel like we are getting back to us. 

Kaden POV

Kj has been here for over a month and he is driving me up a wall. I'll tell him he can't have something. Then he will go crying to Melanie, talking about how being mean . Of course Mel falls for it. He is ruining what's left of the relationship I have with her. I've been trying to make it up to her by putting in effort to show her how sorry I am and how she is the only woman for me, but I get turned down at every turn. It's always an excuse involving him.

" I need to help KJ with his bath."

" I promised KJ, I would bake cookies with him."

" We can't go out. Who would watch KJ."

It's always KJ, KJ, KJ.

That's the reason why I kept him from her. I knew she was going to get attached to him. Well he won't be here for long because he is going back to his moms. I'll make sure of it.

Yeah it's true. Kj is my son by law, but he was born before we got married. I hope she didn't think I was tied down to one woman. Grant it, I genuinely don't think KJ was mine for a minute since I found out about Jaz, hoe-ish ways. So I bit the bullet and didn't say anything. Besides, my father always used to tell me that you're single until you're married. He said I had to have my options to make sure I chose the right one. And I chose Melanie. My father hid me away from his woman, So why can't I?

I spent years being a secret to my father's ole lady up until I was about 12 years old, when my moms felt like I needed to be around my father more. She shipped me off to live with my pops one summer and the rest was history. Kathleen, my step mother, although she was upset, she accepted me with open arms and took her role as my second mother seriously. I guess Melanie was doing the same, but I wasn't ready for that or rather our marriage wasn't.

It has always been just us and with KJ needing so much attention, it was bound for one of us to feel abandoned.

I hear Kj and Melanie walking in at the front door.

"You had fun baby boy?"

Baby boy? See, it's already gone too far. I just know one of them would be kicking and screaming when it's time for KJ to go back to his mother.

" Yes I'm so tired,"Kj replied, dragging his feet behind her.

" I bet you are with all that running around you did today."

Once they came in further they both saw me, sitting in the living room.

" Hey daddy, look at what Melanie got me. It's a T-rex."He said excitedly.

He held up the stuffed dinosaur in my face so I could see, but my focus was on Melanie's fine ass.

" That's nice Kj." I said, trying to sound enthusiastic.

Maybe If I was a little nicer to him and baby him like she does, I could get some alone time with Melanie. I haven't gotten any since Kj has been here. Yo boy is feening for it.

She kissed me on the forehead as a greeting and continued walking towards the kitchen. Maybe that's a sign that we're headed in the right direction.

" Go wash up baby boy. It's getting late. You need to go to bed at a decent time. I'll be up there to help you a little bit." she shouted so he could hear.

" Okay Melanie. Good Night daddy. I love you." his voice squeaked.

" Night" I replied back to him.

This is my chance to get with Melanie. Melanie came out of the kitchen and went over to the coat closet to take off her shoes. I watched her as she bent over giving me a view of all her assets. I got up and snuck up on her. I got all up on her so she could feel what she was doing to me.

She jumped a little and turned around with a small frown when she noticed me.

" What are you jumping for?" I palmed a good hand full of her butt through her tight ass pants she got on.

" You scared me" she whined, her frown not leaving her face. I could tell she was turned on by how her cheeks started to turn red.

" Sorry" I mumbled as I softly kissed her pouty lips. I continued to kiss her.

The kiss got more passionate as she gave me access. All of a sudden she stopped kissing me back. She softly pushed me away with her hand on my chest.

" I can't. Not tonight." she said above a whisper.

" You're killing me ma" I admitted as I looked down at my growing member.

" I'm sorry. We will soon."

KJ called for Melanie from the top of the stairs.

" Soon Okay?" she pecked my lips then got away from my grasp.

" I'm going to the office for a little while." I told her to walk away from the situation. I love Melanie but sometimes she makes me feel like she doesn't love me back.

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After getting some work done at the office, I headed to kick it with my brother Khalil. Khalil was my pops and step mother's son. He was only a couple of years younger than me. Almost mirroring the ages of Melanie and her sister Mia. We were just as close. In college we were always together. You didn't see me without seeing him.

We both went to college on a football scholarship with him being a wide receiver and I being a running back. When I got hurt my junior year of college our lives went into different paths. I started taking my dream of making my way up in the corporate world while he chased his dream of getting into the NFL. Currently, Khalil was back in Houston after a decent season with the Dallas Cowboys.

" Yo lil, wassup my boy." I greeted spotting him at the sports bar.

" Nigga wassup with you? Trouble in paradise?" We slapped hands and took a seat.

" What do you mean?" I asked confused, nobody knew of the situation I had going on.

" Yeah Mel, hit me up saying we needed to talk and shit. When I asked her about what, she said nevermind and hung up. But check this out, I see China fine ass at the mall. You know I've been trying to get at her for a minute, but she was on some bull. Talm about I don't want you if you anything like your sorry ass brother." Khalil explained.

I shook my head, already knowing that Melanie told her girls about KJ. I knew it would come out eventually, but I wanted to get my house back in order.

" Jaz, showed up with Kj a few weeks back." I confessed, before flagging the bartender down.

" damn" He said, shaking his head along with me. " But what does that have to do with me?"

" I may have thrown you under the bus and said you hit too."

" Bro," he sighed. I knew he would feel away about me telling his business but I had to get the pressure off of me.

During that time, we both didn't know we were messing with the same chick. I had just found out when I decided to cut off all my sneaky links in preparation for proposing to Melanie. Out of all the girls I was messing with at the time, Jaz was the only one who had a problem with it by revealing her truth of being pregnant.

I was excited for the baby and was even going to tell Melanie about it. Of course I knew Mel would feel away about not being the only woman I was messing with but I was going to deal with it and hoped for the best. However, things got messy quickly. I was hearing rumors about Jaz messing around with different guys. It wasn't until after KJ was born that I found out that she slept with Khalil and a homeboy of ours.

" I panicked, man. I tried to tell her that Kj isn't mine but she kept talking about how much he looks like me, so..."

" So you tell her he's mine? Nigga , why the fuck would you do that? I told you that the time of conception does not match to when I hit. Instead of trying to throw that baby on me, why don't you just get a DNA test and squash this. Besides, Jaz didn't come to me saying she was pregnant by me. She seems sure that the baby is yours." Khalil sipped on his Crown Royal.

"Bro, why you so sure, he ain't yours? We're brothers, of course he would look like me too." I was trying to convince him to see if this could go away.

" It seems like trying to put Kj on me to make yourself look better." Khalil got out of seat with his drink in his hand. " That's fucked up KD. Just to prove to your ass that I'm not his father, Imma get a DNA test done. That's probably why Mel tried to contact me. How about you stop cheating and man up to take care of your responsibility."

Done with the conversation, Khalil walked away from me leaving me to handle my own mess.

Melanie POV

The next night I felt bad for blowing Kaden off. I know he is sexually frustrated and honestly so was I. The only reason why I was holding out is because I felt like we needed some time apart. I can admit Kj showing up did put a damper in our marriage but it's a rough patch I'm willing to get past. Plus I love Kj and I love taking care of him. But now I have to figure out how to manage being a wife and a stepmother.

I decided to give Kaden what he wants. But I didn't want it to just be sex. I went all out and planned a romantic night for us. I made sure Kj was more than happy to go to sleep by taking him to Chuckee Cheeses earlier and made him not take a nap so he could be good and tired. I even managed to pick up some lingerie from the mall and some essential oils for a nice massage.

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It was 1:00 in the morning and Kaden still wasn't home. I called the office and they said he left hours ago. I tried calling him several times but there was no answer. I began to worry and started calling hospitals in the area to see if he got in an accident or something. I know Kaden is an adult and maybe he went out with colleagues but it's not like Kaden to not answer his phone. Normally, he would call first.

Around 2:00 am I became restless, no hospitals or police stations had seen him, so I concluded he was out doing God knows what. I Heard someone come in and I immediately turned on the lights.

" Where have you been? I was worried.

" I got up and hugged him. I smelled something odd and backed away.

" Where were you?" I asked again as I looked up at him.

" I was at the office finishing up some work." He lied.

" You should be proud of your boy. I think the investor I was telling you about might be interested. We are about to get paid, baby."

I put my accusations to the side and sat on the bed.

" That's great, baby. We should celebrate" I said as I pulled on his belt buckle.

" mmm okay. Let me wash the day away, baby. Then I'm all yours"

He went to take a shower. Once he was gone my mind began to roam. Wash the day away? That didn't sit well with me. But whatever, I'm trying to move on.

I glanced at the floor and near Kaden's briefcase was an empty condom wrapper. I sighed in frustration before picking it up. Why can't I have a nice night with my husband? I could address this now or address it after I have my fun.

" Girl, get it together" I said to myself.

I heard the shower turn off and I tried to get my thoughts together.

" Kaden, what the hell is this?"

Kaden came out of the bathroom fully to see what I was talking about. He came out looking all sexy with his wet glistening skin. Only a towel hung loosely off his hips. Tattooed arms called out for me to touch.

But I can't think about that right now.

" It's a condom wrapper." He said in a duh tone.

" It's an empty condom wrapper." I said back in a duh tone.

" Okay. it must have fallen out the side drawer. Now stop trying to fight with me." He came closer to me.

" You smell so good baby." he complimented trying to get even closer to me.

" You think I'm stupid Kaden? I smelled that cheap ass perfume on you. I was sitting here worried about your ass. when you were out there..."

Kaden just stood there while I ranted. Giving me that look he gives when he's turned on.

" Stop looking at me like that, Kaden. I'm serious." The look he was giving me made me feel like I was gushing between my legs. Well maybe this wasn't a feeling, I definitely was beyond wet and he hasn't even touched me.

It has been a long time since I felt any pleasure.

"I'm sorry. I can't help it. You're the one which yo girls all out in this little outfit you got on."

He was so close to me I could feel his minty breath on my lips.

" Stop Kaden, I'm not playing with you." I pushed him away but somehow he was closer than before.

" Damn you so sexy when you get mad at me."

Before I Knew it, I was on the bed laid out in a daze with Kaden kissing all on me.

" I love you. Don't you love me?"

What seemed like seconds, I was like putty in Kaden's hands. It's like my mind wanted to fight him, tell him to go to hell, punish him for making me confused, but my body and my heart was letting him touch me, love me, and confuse me even more.

My body was experiencing things I never experienced before. With my eyes closed, his tongue gave me ecstasy. With a yes upon my lips, his dick put in overdrive.

In my mind, I didn't want this but my body was glued to him. He felt like a glove making it seem right.

" Fuck baby I missed you." He whispered to me. I couldn't say anything even If I wanted to as a moan was stuck in my throat. With my mouth ajar and welling tears, I came hard. Hard and long.

He was right behind me but I knew we were done.

My body craved him so much that we went on for hours. As I lay here now, while Kaden slept, I thought about what my marriage has come to. I don't know why I was crying but I was. Suddenly I felt alone.

I got up, careful not to wake Kaden, and went into Kj's room a few doors down. It was recently redecorated to be more fitting for him

He was asleep cuddled up with his pillow. I tried getting into the full size bed with him without waking him. Unfortunately I was not successful. Kj turned over and looked at me with his soft beautiful eyes.

" Why are you crying?" he asked, concerned, as he got closer to me.

" I don't know," I said truthfully. Kj got on top of me and wiped my eyes.

" I love you Mommy. It's going to be okay." he said sweetly.

Did he just call me mommy? He didn't mean it.

" Go back to sleep" He got comfortable on my chest like he normally does when he goes to sleep on me.

" Can I call you mommy?"

Oh he was serious.

" Sure," I said, shocked.

" I love you Mommy." he repeated what he said before, expecting an answer.

" I love you too baby boy."

He closed his eyes and drifted off to sleep.

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