Dedicated this chapter to pradhanas .Happy Birthday to the girl who likes sweets like me and sometimes is as crazy as I am.May god fulfills all your wish and always keep you happy sweetheart.God bless you♥️♥️

P.s.Never change for anybody.People who will love you should love you for who you are.

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This chapter will include another type of insecurity.

Rayna's POV

I ran from there towards the main road and tried to get an auto but there was no single auto.

"Rayna...please listen to me."I heard Aaryan's voice but didnt turn around.

"Auto."I shouted and an auto which was passing by stopped infront of me.

I was going to sit inside the auto but I felt someone holding my arm tightly forbidding me to sit inside the auto.

"Sorry...please leave."Aaryan said to the auto driver.

"No...dont leave.."I shouted and he looked at both of us.

"Meri biwi mujhpe gussa hai kyonki main hamara marriage anniversary bhul gaya.please samjhiye."Aaryan said to him and I looked at him shockingly.

(My wife is angry at me because I forgot our marriage anniversary.Please understand.")

"Isiliye madam itna gussa hai.Mai samajh sakta hoon.Apna khyal rakhiyega sir."he said to Aaryan and left and a chuckle left out of Aaryan's lips but he controlled himself as soon as I looked at him angrily.

(That's why madam is so angry.I can understand.Take care of yourself sir.)

"Dont leave.please."he said and held my hand tightly.

I looked at our hands and remembered Payel.

Why is he still holding my hand when Payel has come back ?

The thought of Payel coming back bought tears in my eyes and I started crying.

"Please dont cry.Please listen to me."he said.

"You cant decide should I cry or not."I yelled.

"Okay.Cry as much as you want but let's sit in the car.You dont like creating scene in public,right?"he asked and I looked around and wiped my tears.

"Let's go."he said and I followed him towards his car.

As soon I sat in the car I cried my heart out and Aaryan was looking at me without saying anything.

"Two questions."I said wiping my tears.

"Yes?"he asked.

"Do you want her back?"I asked.

"No."he said.

"Do you want her back in Surya and Piya's life?"I asked the second question.

"No."he said.

I know the questions were almost similar but I need clarity.

"With you it will always be like this,right?First Monica...now Payel.I cant take it anymore."I said.

"What do you mean?Are you saying you are leaving me?"he asked making me chuckle.

"If only it was so easy to leave you."I said.

"That means you are thinking of leaving me?"he asked.

"No.I love you too much to leave you but I dont know how many girls I have to fight to stay with you."I said.

"Rayna I only have my eyes for you.I dont need anybody.I never needed Monica and I dont need Payel."I said.

"Anyways lets change the topic.This is what was bothering you for past few days?"I asked and he nodded in a yes.

"When were you going to tell me?"I asked.

"Soon."he said.

"Okay.It's totally your decesion when to tell me."I said.

"Rayna listen carefully...even if there are hundreds of woman behind me I will only stand beside you and I want the same from you."he said making me chuckle.

"Huh...as if anybody will be interested in me."I said.

"You dont know yourself Rayna and anyways I expected 'okay' as an answer for you...why are you saying nobody will be interested in you."he asked making me look at him.

What?

What is he saying?

"Are you not happy with me?Do you want other men's attention?"he asked making me shock.

When did I say that ?

"I meant nobody will love a girl like me."I said.

"Why do you need other's love when I am here to love you."he said,almost shouted.

"And I am scared...there are men who have no baggages...not like me...and what if you get attracted to them and they love you more than I do.What if they see the beauty of you which I have only seen."he said.

"You were supposed to make me understand that you will not leave me and here I have to make you understand."I said.

"I know I love you too much to leave you...but what about you Rayna...this is me...I have many baggages...i am not simple guy with whom you can start a new family....I had my own family...you were an important addition to it and now our family seems incomplete without you.What if you find a simple guy with no baggage..who will love you very much."he said.

"And I feel you are with me because you think nobody will love you and not because how much I love you."he continued and I was just looking at him.

Where did he get this things in his head from?

"I feel it often."he once again continued before I could say anything.

This guy !!

"I will never cheat on you."I said.

"Sh!t ! I know that.I dont know how to make you understand.That's why I never told you all this."he said.

This stupid gym man !!

"You always think that you are lucky that atleast one person fell in love with you and sometimes I feel you feel obligated to be with me because I love you.You think that atleast one person loves you."he said.

This crazy fellow !!

When does he thinks all this?

"But what if you find someone better than me.Then what Rayna?You find someone who loves you more than me?And dont say it cant happen because it can happen."he said and rubbed his forehead.

"You never give too much credit to yourself.You think nobody can love you and atleast I love you and that is scaring me Rayna.Like for me I know people can like me or even love me but I love you and will stand by your side till I die.Tomorrow what if you get approached by someone else who can love you more than me.What will happen then?"

"Okay okay...I believe people can like me and can even fall in love with me but when I hear the word love and family....you and kids only come in my mind and I dont need any other love.This is the only love I want in my life."I said and saw a smile on his face.

"I love you."he said with a smile on his face.

"I know."I said and he pouted making me laugh.

"I will tell you everything."he said.

"I am waiting."I said.

"First let's pick the kids from school."he said looking at the time.

"Okay."I said and cleaned my face with hankerchief as he started the car.

"I dont want Surya to know I was crying."I said and he looked at me with question in his eyes.

"Today I was crying while cutting onions and he got so upset looking at the tears in my eyes.He said he doesnt like when I cry."I said.

"Nobody in our family likes when you cry."I said.

Our family.

"My heart broke into pieces when I heard the name 'payel'.I thought everything ended."I continued.

"No baby...you are stuck with me forever."I said.

"And I only want to stuck with you forever.I love you as you are...the good side..the angry side..the baggage...everything."I said and he stopped the car.

"Why you stopped the car?Is everything okay?"I asked.

"You said 'I love you.' and all that romantic things." he said making me laugh.

"Stop being overdramatic.I say 'I love you'to you.Today morning only I said it."I said.

"If only we were not at public place I would have done what I did today morning."he said and I hit his shoulder playfully.

"Stop it."I said.

"What baby?"he asked.

"Nothing.Start the car.We are getting late."I said and with his laughter echoing in the car he started the car.

I always want to see him happy like this.

I always want our house to be filled by his laughter like this.

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First and foremost when I started writing I was thinking that "now she will cry..he will get upset..this that..it will be so dramatic"

But...but..but...

As soon as I started writing it I went with the flow...and Rayna and Aaryan started writing their own story and I just went with the flow.

I hope you liked the chapter.

After 89 chapters still we dont know what goes in Aaryan's head.Right or wrong ?

Their insecurities will kill me one day.

What do you think about his thinking?

Do you agree with Rayna 'when does he thinks all this?'

In all what do you think of this chapter?

Random question :- (this question is best on last chapter's random question where I asked which of my stories you like.... a reader commented that he or she likes my 'short stories' books which made me realize that I have not given importance to my short stories😄😄so...)

Among my three short stories which do you like the most?

Short stories.

Let me go.

Forget me..not.

Comment and vote if you liked today's chapter.

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