i don't have the strength to fight this anymore, i have school come monday and i feel like nothing is changing and that i'm just wasting time. i just....i don't feel anything again, all those moments of clinical memories are corrupting me and i'm losing feeling again....i'm forgetting what it's like to care again....i'm not feeling pain, hate, anguish, sadness or happiness....i've become the shell again and i can't help but notice how numb i am....but i don't blame myself, i blame everyone else for making me not feel anything.....they're the ones who have made this way, i appreciate it. thanks.