So I'm gonna be honest. I don't know where I'm gonna go with this, I just felt like I should do something so I feel like I've been productive this year, even though this probably won't change that.

Hm, lets see. Two of my friends have admitted to not trusting me anymore because of actions that are either justified or non-existent. The first girl, lets call her Chapstick (i can't tell you why if I'm being honest) and she told me that last year I spread a nasty rumour about her. LAST YEAR. First off, if I did, then why are you my friend right now? Secondly, what was this nasty rumour that you say I've spread? Thirdly, you're lying because never have I ever INTENTIONALLY spread a 'nasty' rumour. As you can see this really hurts that she would tell me this because I've told her so many confidential things only to have her say she doesn't trust me at all. But she couldn't even tell me what I had spread because she had 'forgotten'. Secondly, Menma, you all know her, shes been in a few of my chapters. Anyway, we were playing truth or dare and I asked her something and she told me she couldn't tell me cause she felt like I would go tell that person. She then brought up the fact that I had done it before when technically I didn't. So what happened was everyone was spreading a rumour that she liked Ginge, when in fact, she wasn't sure. Ginge heard this so came to me and tricked me into telling her through Truth or Dare. I altered it saying that it wasn't true and that they were just trying to annoy Menma. But it seems Ginge told her that I ADMITTED that Menma did say she liked Ginge. Which both frustrates and upsets me.

My hair is tied up into a super-tight ponytail right now and not only does it feel nice but the ends of my hair are now bouncy and slightly curled, quite snazzy if I say so myself.

Yes, I made the picture at the top, and its completely true on my behalf.

I'm hungry but I don't feel like moving and I feel like I'm too fat to begin with.

I'm now on half-term break so I won't be in school for a week and a half.

I still hate life. Wish I was never born.

Heard a few more depressing songs that make me wanna date again real bad.

Have a poem:
The waters black
Your soul is dead
The waters red
Your soul is drowning

Your heart is numb
All of you is in pain
Your heart is twisting
You can sense others pain

Feel yourself,
Drowning in fears
Drowning in tears

Feel yourself
Choking
Bleeding
Suffocating
Blood loss
Death

Take it in stride my friend
Death only comes to the lucky ones.

Okay bye now, playing truth or dare with my favourite online group.