New chapter! Woot woot! 

Don't skip my rant this time please! Cause I'll give the translation to Blake's French rant! lol If you had looked at the previews comments, I gave it there, but anyway I'm putting it back here! 

So Blake was actually quoting Hernani! (Act 5, Scene 3) The boy does that a lot! ;P  

So here's my translation of it, word by word :

Oh! I am your slave! Yes I stay, stay! 

Do what you want. I ask for nothing. 

You know what you do! What you do is good! 

I'll laugh if you want, I'll sing. My soul burns...

Now, if we take the translation I've been using in previews chapters of the whole play it's "Make me wait, then. Whatever you wish, I am your slave.." and some blah blah about volcanoes which is nice but Blake cut that part lol

For those interested you can read the complete play at this link : 

http://paws.wcu.edu/jmanning/hernani.pdf

Anyway sorry about this chapter... my brain is just too full of different characters right now that are all fighting to speak and it was hard to get into the right state of mind. So sorry if it sucks! lol Plus I had like too much stuff I needed to mention and crap... anyway sorry again! lol

Oh and speaking of characters that would like to speak I have a little something something to offer you guys. Don't know if you've noticed but I got a FREAKING million reads now... I'm pretty shocked but mostly touched and happy and freaking the hell out!!! AAAAAAA!!! So to thank you all I thought about giving you a tiny Tyler's POV? How would you like that? Tyler's head is pretty amusing! lol Not to mention interesting. So I'll try giving you that in the next twenty four hours (no promises though I do get distracted quite easily!)

Anyway, I hope you'll enjoy this. And I mean... took me 63 chapters to just have them kiss so you got to give a little time to Lexi to sort things out in her head. lol

So, read, enjoy, vote and comment! :P

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Sleeping was definitely out of the question I realized as I laid in my bed, staring at the ceiling like an idiot.

Kind of ironic I had told Blake he could be replaying the kiss in his head all night long and it was me right now who was doing it.

Yes I was replaying the kiss.

Pathetic really.

This was stupid. I needed to sleep. I shouldn't be thinking about how sweet his lips had been one mine. I shouldn't be thinking about how soft the skin of his face was, about how his hair felt when I ran my fingers through them. I shouldn't be thinking about how hot he looked shirtless and how-

Crap crap crap CRAP!

I rolled over in my bed, burying my face in my pillow and screamed a good ten seconds, punching in the mattress.

What the frack was WRONG with me?

Fantasizing about Blake? REALLY?

UGH!

Seriously, that's the stage I was at now?

Just freaking perfect really!

But would I kiss him again or would I just have that one memory to replay over and over? But there were almost-kisses too and other moments, in the cemetery holding his hand, when we were practicing the play and he had laid his head on me. When I had been sick and he had taken care of me...

Why did all those moments felt so maddening right now?

I was definitely pathetic. Completely pathetic!

The next morning I was in a weird mood. I was pissed at myself, not to mention tired as always, but at the same time I was in a bliss bubble just thinking about the fact that Blake had actually climbed up my freaking window. I mean that was something that only happened in movies! But trust Blake to do something like that, something as stupid and over the top and sweet and... and Blakish as that!

Tyler was in a weird mood too. It wasn't hard to guess what was going through that boy's head. Vanessa was coming back tomorrow. He didn't know what he would do, how things would plan out. At least he didn't play with my radio on the ride to school.

When I walked in the school halls I felt bad for the fact I had missed more school yesturday, since I already had on Friday. If things kept going this way people would start rumours or something.

That's why I needed to freaking calm down and breathe and just stop over thinking for two seconds. Over thinking to the point of making myself sick!

Daphnee and Alex were at my side the minute they spotted me. I didn't know if I should tell them about last night, but decided against it.

Why did everything with Blake always felt so secretive? Why did it felt like I had to keep it to myself?

I was anxious to see Blake to say the least; I didn't have to wait long though. First class was English Literature. The teacher gave us all copies of the complete play of Hernani to read because apparently we would have a test about it. I was glad because I actually kinda liked that play.

And it was as if everything was back to normal. Blake was smirking at me and teasing and annoying, and I was rolling my eyes at him.

But not exactly the same, because I had to fight with my eyes, to stop them from staring at his lips for too long...

At the end of the day, in the Chemistry Lab though, I got in class before the bell and Blake was already sitting at our working desk, texting I think, because he had his iPhone out and in front of him, frowning at it actually.

"Who are you texting?" I asked him and sat beside him.

Stalker mode back on.

"Hmm? Oh I'm not texting" he answered not raising his head to me and I peeked over his shoulder and saw he was checking his emails.

"Can't you wait to get home to answer to your fan mails?" I asked, my voice trying to be teasing.

"That's not MY email account that's Josh's" Blake smirked.

"And what are you doing looking at Josh's emails? Isn't that illegal? And did you have to crack codes or something?" I started to ask, sitting beside him, putting my bag on the black counter.

"Josh's been acting weird lately so I'm trying to figure out something. And please I think I've done worse in the illegal area. Oh and easy. Josh's password is "Scarlett Johansson's Tits""

"Okay what the hell? And how do you even know that?"

Those two were sooo weird...

"Inside joke, sort of... he said that as long as my password was an unattainable dream his should too. He's a dick." Blake mumbled, seeming much more concentrated on the phone in his hand than in the conversation.

"And what's that password of yours?" I asked, chuckling.

"Sorry according to the Stalker Law I'm not supposed to give you that kind of information..." Blake answered, absentmindedly again.

For two second I wondered what his password actually was. Was it something as stupid as "Meghan Fox's Tits" or something like having his brother back?

"But anyway, what do you mean by acting weird?"

That's when Blake raised his head and looked at me, smirking. "I think he likes a girl"

"And that is weird because he's never liked girls?" I chuckled.

"Well not like this. I think he has a crush on someone and I'm just trying to figure out if the chick is a hooker..." Blake frowned a little "Because he's been talking a lot about hookers lately and how they're human beings just like us with rights and then insert Josh rant. So ya... I'm trying to figure out that" Blake nodded and started to skim through the emails again.

"You know you could just ASK him right?"

"Tried that, didn't work. He said it was just Miss Puss worrying him because he thinks she's having an affair."

"You two are just so strange together" I laughed again, shaking my head while looking at him in disbelief.

"Tell me about it" Blake laughed a little too and then looked at me, smiling the nice smile and I had a hard time finding my breath.

Oh crap...

"By the way I'm going to need your help with a few math problems" Blake said, and then broke eye contact.

Why did it have to be so contradictory with Blake? Because a part of me was glad that he wasn't looking at me anymore with that oh so irresistible smile of his while another one was feeling all sad because of it.

Seriously, bi-polar much? I had been thinking that it was Blake the bi-polar but maybe it was me?

Dang it! When had I become such an emotional wreck! Why was I even doing this to myself?

"Want to come over tonight?" I asked him and took out my notebook and pencil.

"Got practice tonight. Tomorrow?" Blake asked

"Well tomorrow Vanessa's going to be there so I'm probably going to want to see her"

If Tyler lets me, I wanted to add.

"Alright then, Friday night it is" Blake said "And it won't take long anyways so if you had plans you'll have the rest of your evening free. I just need one hour or two"

And of course when he said that I wanted to pout because I wanted to have him for all the evening but seriously Blake had to have better things to do on a Friday night than math homework. Of course he had.

When I got finally got back home I realized I had nothing to do and after speaking with Vanessa on the phone about all the final details for her visit, I ended up reading Hernani's play.

Next thing I knew it was the middle of the night and I was crying alone.

Hadn't Blake said this play had a GOOD ending? I was one hundered percent sure Blake had told me this play had a nice ending!

And now I was sitting in the middle of my room, crying my freaking eyes out! And I mean it wasn't like this was the saddest thing I had ever read but I had begun to like Hernani and Dona Sol a lot and I would have wanted them to be happy and when they finally could have had that freaking uncle of hers had to come and ask for his life and they didn't even have time to be together and...

Why the hell had Blake told me this had a nice ending! That mean idiot! At least I would have expected it!

And why did he hate Don Carlos? I hated freaking Gomez! I would have strangled him myself! That stupid bastard! He could have at least let them have their wedding night! He could have let them just one freaking night!

But he hadn't and now they were both dead! Well all dead. Since the idiot killed himself!

URG!

And here I had thought the play would distract me! It actually had pissed me off!

I thought about calling Blake to yell at him about this but then decided that it would be better face to face so I could punch him a few times! Idiot! He had some explaining to do!

At least that night I was too pissed off about the play to replay the kiss in my head. But that still didn't help on the whole "falling asleep" deal...

Next morning I didn't have to wake Tyler up. He was already in the kitchen when I got downstairs, clothed and sitting at the counter with his bowl of cereal in front of him.

"Someone's in a hurry to get to school" I smirked at him and yawned while walking to the coffee machine.

Coffee was definitely a blessing these days.

"There's not even a point in arguing on this" Tyler answered shrugging.

"You're cute" I laughed a little.

"Is... she... she's going to be there at school today right?" Tyler finally asked me when I sat in front of him with my mug in my hands.

I smiled "Yes, but just in the afternoon and she's going to be with the people that will be in the show helping them and giving them advice. Oh and we're going to that show by the way. It's Saturday night. Anyway, she's going to eat at her grandparents and then she's coming over. Around seven thirty maybe." I started to rant and for once he actually looked like he was listening and listening INTENTLY on what I was saying.

I wanted to laugh at that but decided against it.

"So she's going to be at the school in the afternoon?"

"Yes" I nodded and then frowned "Are you going to go all stalker on her?"

"That's my business" Tyler said still frowning.

"Just let her breath for two second alright? I know you missed her and you want to see her but don't smother her alright? You know how she is, if you do that you're doomed and then you guys will only argue and all of this will have been done for nothing"

"I'm going to do whatever the beep I want!" Tyler scowled and I rolled my eyes at him.

Stubborn ass...

When we got to school, all I wanted to do was to see Blake so I could yell at him a bit.

The second I saw him walk through the front door and in the hall towards his locker I rushed to him.

He seemed to enjoy that though and smirked at me but before he could say anything I punched him hard on the shoulder.

"Hey! What the hell was that for?" Blake whined, grabbing my fist so I wouldn't punch him again.

"You're a liar!"

"What?" Blake frowned, confusion and worry evident in his eyes.

"I read the freaking play last night! A NICE ending! You call Hernani and Dona Sol dying, a NICE ending!?" I hissed and punched him with my other fist which he grabbed with his other hand.

And now he lost the worried look and smiled a little "Depends on what you consider a nice ending"

"THAT wasn't a nice ending! That was a freaking SAD ending alright?" I shouted at him.

"Did you cry?" Blake smirked

"You asshole! Don't you dare smirking! You said that was a nice ending! How is them dying a nice ending!"

"They died together. Together. He was in her arms. Not everyone has that luck. To die in the arms of the one they love. I think it's a fairly good ending considering everything." Blake explained to me, his eyes intense on me.

And now I was aware of how close our bodies were and that kissing him woul have been quite easy again.

Freaking kiss haunting me all the time!

"Your definition of a good ending sucks, Blake!" I scowled at him.

"Aww come on, don't be like that! Want me to kiss the sadness away"

Yes please.

"Little bitch!" I kept scowling making him laugh.

And that's when the bell rang.

So I dropped the matter and when Blake finally released my fists I left to get to my class with Mrs. Muffin while he left for his.

While the top conversation in the class seemed to be about the school trip next week, Alex and I were all but bouncing up and down thinking that our friend would be here soon.

It was an understatement to say we had missed our Goldilocks.

I got a text from her just a few minutes after lunch saying she was here. Needless to say I was happy. But she was at the complete opposite of where my classes were so there would be no time for me to see her if I didn't want to be late plus I knew I would see her tonight.

Still I couldn't wait for school to be over so I could jump up and down with her and just see her. It had been so long. And even though I had Daph and Alex, Vanessa was Vanessa and no one could replace her. No one could replace one of your friends. No one could replace your best friend since first grade.

Tyler didn't ride back home with me since he had a soccer practice so I ended up going back home alone at the end of the day. I thought about the fact I should have said yes to Blake, to help him with math but it was kind of too late now.

So instead I cleaned up a little and then I tried to draw a little to ease up my mind. Though the subjects seemed to repeat themselves and made me look as obsessed as I was so I stopped after a little while.

Tyler finally got home. He had gotten a ride with Landon. And then dad got home and we all ate together at the counter but my dad was finding a lot of amusement in Tyler's weird behavior so he ended up leaving to eat in the living room.

"Your brother is becoming touchy, don't you think" dad said and laughed.

"Tell me about it" I chuckled.

"Ah the strange behaviors of kids in love..." dad half smiled.

I smiled a little too.

"Speaking of kids in love, I didn't get a chance to talk to you last night but next time your little friend decides to come see you in the middle of the night I would enjoy he doesn't rip off the gutter. Oh and maybe... you know normal hour visit, that sort of thing. I enjoy that kid but I enjoy my gutter too." Dad stated to rant, smirking wider as my eyes bulge wider.

Oh. My. Freaking. GOD.

Oh my god, my god, my god, my god!

"Okay, seriously sorry dad, I had nothing to do with it, it was ALL his fault, and I'm sorry about the gutter and nothing happened and I'M SORRY!" I freaked but dad just laughed.

"Typical. Put all the blame on the boy. Just... don't do anything stupid alright?" my father asked.

That's it?

Dad seemed to find amusement in my shock and patted my arm but before he could add anything the bell rang.

"I GOT IT!" Tyler yelled and then actually sprinted to the door, while I got on my feet instantly and ran too.

When I got to the door, it was open and there she stood, blondest girl I knew with her baby blue eyes and her freckles and her jeans with holes and the biggest smile I had ever seen on her and brother or no brother I didn't give a crap I ran and almost jump in her arms and then we were doing the bouncing thing, squealing like two years old.

"You're here!" I finally said when we stopped jumping up and down, smiling as much as her.

"Hell yeah!" she answered "Gosh I missed you!"

"I missed you too! We all freaking missed you!"

"Stupid art school!" she said and then I just had to hug her again because I realized how much I really had missed her.

I didn't want to ruin the moment for Tyler but it was a little too late now because he had left and walked back to the living room.

When I realized that I said "Oh crap" but Vanessa just shrugged and said it was alright and we had some catching up to do anyway.

So I helped her with her bag, taking them to Anna's room and then we went into mine, sitting on my bed, like we used to and then the catching up started.

"So what have I been missing?"

"Well you know about Alex's boyfriend right? Travis. He's nice but Alex's being an idiot with the whole being gay thing and the fact that he doesn't want to talk about it will probably ruin his relation and..." I stopped talking because she was giving me the look. "What?" I asked self-conscious.

"I already know all of that and I will talk about Alex's problem with Alex. Now I'm with Lexi. I want to hear about Lexi's problem!"

"I don't..." I sighed because I knew there was no point in denying. I could hide it to her on the phone but not in her face "Blake kissed me..."

"OH. MY. GOD!"

"Ya..."

"So what? Are you two dating now?"

"Nope. He kissed me during the play. It wasn't really real, or at least I don't think it was. I could have been. Probably not... It's all freaking confused in my head that's for sure!" I groaned.

"But you like him?" she asked.

"No... I mean I don't... I just... look it's like, I can't like Blake. It's BLAKE. It's just not possible. And I mean, just at the beginning of the year the boy annoyed the crap out of me. How could I like him now? At the beginning of the year I thought his name was Drake! HOW could I like him now?"

Vanessa rolled her eyes at me "Oh please! All that resentment was just denied liking!"

"Now you please!"

"No no, hear me out here. I recall when he first got here you were the first one to go up to him! First day of class, he was alone, all the guys wanted you to sit beside them but you sat beside him and I think you tried to talk to him and you were smiling and he just stared at you and didn't say anything and you bitched about it the whole day! You liked him then, I'm sure, but the fact that he didn't talk to you pissed you off and you missy are really not good at forgiving."

"Ouch" I snorted "Please I don't even remember that..."

"All a brain thing!"

Could that even be true? Okay I did remember the whole him not talking to me that first day he was at school but I didn't like him then, I liked Alex. Yes it had annoyed me that he hadn't said a freaking word to me and basically turned his head to stared back at his desk instead of presenting himself or something but... liking him?

No.

"You're being delusional. And anyway it's not the point here!"

"And what is that point?"

"The point is, I don't like him now."

"I've been told you aren't eating anymore. First sign. When you like someone you get the butterflies in your stomach and they take all the space and you stop eating. You're over thinking. Second sign. Liking someone scares people. You-" I stopped her ranting though

"Please that doesn't mean anything! Maybe I just stopped that grown spur! And you KNOW I always over think!"

"Yes, but you're always distracted, even when we talked on the phone it's like you're almost disconnected. You think about him all the time don't you?"

"No I don't!" I said, shaking my head.

"You do. You like that boy!"

"No I don't I-" I didn't get to finish my sentence because I was stopped by Vanessa's hand slapping me across the face.

Crap that hurt!

"What the hell was THAT for?!" I shouted at her, my palm covering my cheek.

What the hell was wrong with her!? Had she gone MAD!?

"I'm trying to bring some sense into that thick head of yours! You, Lexi Grayson, LIKE Blake Eaton!"

I was about to shout back at her that she was wrong but I couldn't.

Because she was right.

Of course she was right.

I liked Blake.

Why hadn't this been obvious to me?

I liked Blake.

Of course I did. It didn't matter whether he liked me or not, it didn't matter that last time I liked a guy he ended up being gay, or that I was scared and everything felt messed up in my head because in the end, I liked Blake.

Of course I did...

"Crap... I like Blake... And you freaking slapped me you meany!" I just whispered, making Vanessa almost jump up and down again.

"See! That wasn't that hard to admit! And sorry about the slap but it was needed"

"What the hell am I supposed to do now?" I whispered again, unable to look up from my twisted hands resting on my lap.

"Hey don't ask me! I'm just here to make you realize how you're feeling because all this denying is ridiculous!" she said shaking her head in disapprobation.  

Wow.

She had been here with me what? Half and hour? And she made me admit I liked Blake?

"I missed you Van" I smiled.

"I missed you too... you really have no idea. I seriously have no clue what I'm doing at that school... seriously I don't know what to do... I mean it's a great opportunity but am I really going to become a singer? Is this going to be my career? Even if I want to believe I'm good at singing the chances of me being able to live on that are really slim so there's no point in studying in this..." she started to say

"Are you saying you want to quit?"

"I don't know but I'm tired of missing out on everything on missing out on being here with you guys while everything is changing, and I'm there, and out of it and... and..."

"Tyler?" I offered.

"I'm just tired of missing out on everything..."

"You're not missing out on anything! Heck everyone's been trying to make me say I liked Blake and you do in five minutes!" I smiled at her.

"That's just because I understand you better!" she smiled too.

So we spend the rest of the evening talking, while I told her everything, not missing out on any details this time, from the first day at the restaurant while waiting for my mom, till the other night when he showed up at my window and she listened like only Vanessa could and she understood like only she could.

The next morning was pretty amusing considering that Vanessa was part of the morning routine. She was going to go to school to help again with the show. She told me she would stay late so I didn't have to worry about her and could help Blake with work as long as I needed and I wouldn't have to entertain her.

There was something weird though. I would have thought Tyler and Van would be trying to speak or something but they just exchange glances now and then, not saying anything, but there seemed to be something there.

What were they up to? Silence treatment?

Those two were some weird birds...

That morning went I got to school though I started to freak.

Would Blake see? Would Blake feel it? That I knew I liked him now? Nothing ever seemed to go pass him? Would he see it?

But things just felt as normal as always when I saw him and I stopped worrying.

For that. Because there was the "What now?" question nagging me again.

What was I supposed to do now?

Tell Blake I liked him? Put our friendship in jeopardy?

Give things time?

Why did Cameron advice felt like it was the wisest?

Rushing things could only end up badly. And I mean I knew so little about Blake. I knew big important secret things, but I still didn't know a lot of things about him. I needed to know him better.

I needed time.

When school was finally over Blake told me he wanted to go drop the books he had borrowed at the library before he forgot them so I drove Tyler back to the house, and then went with Blake, back to his house and then to the library. 

"You look tired" I told him as we drove back to my house.

He did look tired...

I hope it was because he was late night reading...

"You look tired too!" Blake smiled.

"We have sleeping problems"

"We do"

"We should sleep more" I said, nodding to myself

Blake chuckled "We should"

Only reason why I was keeping the "We" deal was because I liked the sound of it... maybe a little too much...

When we finally got home I kicked dropped my bag on the floor and walked to kitchen, Blake following me.

"God, I'm starving!" Blake whined behind me, stretching his arms above his head, yawning.

"Anything to not do homework, right Blakey-Boy" I smirked a little but... I was actually a little hungry right now. Shocker. "Wanna call pizza?"

"Sure" Blake shrugged and turned to face the cupboards, obviously thinking about trying to find food.

"Alright, I'll go check if Ty wants some..." I said and then ran up the stairs taking two at the time.

Ty's door was close but I didn't bother and walked in, like I usually did but then I almost had a heart attack.

OH!

MY!

GOD!

I closed the door in a rush and sprinted down the stairs, almost breaking my neck in the process.

Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god oh my god, oh my god, oh my god...

"Are you alright Pumpkin, you look like you just saw a dead body?" Blake asked frowning, a box of chocolate chip cookies in his hands.

"Oh my god, oh my god, OH MY GOD!"

"What's wrong?" Blake said, setting the cookies on the counter.

I just stood there and then shook my body, like I had some kind of worm on me or something, my expression disgusted.

Mental image please leave, please, please please leave!

"Are you alright?" Blake asked wide eyed.

"Oh god, oh dear freaking god!" I said, closing my eyes, shaking my head and my hands, and then jumped up and down.

"What did you see?" Blake said, and then walked towards the stairs.

"DON'T GO THERE!" I shouted and gripped his arm.

"What's wrong?" 

"We should just leave, ya that's it, let's just get out of the house, like now, like right now!" I answered and then I was walking towards the door.

Don't think about it, just DON'T think about it!

"Lexi, wait up!" Blake said and then grabbed me by the arm, stopping me "What the hell is going on here!?!"

"What... What the hell is going on is that I fucking walked in my brother and BEST FRIEND going at it!" I yelled and then I think I puke a little in my mouth.

"WHAT!?" Blake said and burst laughing.

"Oh god, please, kill me! Burn my eyeballs please!" I whined, holding my face in my palms.

"Like at it, at it?" Blake asked, still laughing like a moron.

"God, I'm going to have that mental picture for the rest of my life now!! Oh my god!" I whined and then shook my head and my hands, jumping again, "Ewww, ewww, ewww!!"

"Alright, this is too funny!" Blake said and then he took his phone out and turned around walking to the stairs.

"Wait, wait wait! What are you doing?!" I asked my eyes bulging.

"That's call revenge for that little stunt your brother pulled on me in the gym lockers!" Blake answered wickedly and ran up the stairs.

"Blake! Blake, come back here!" I hissed at the bottom of the stairs.

But Blake just shushed me, waving his hand at me, and then he opened the door.

"Smile you guys!" he yelled and then he closed the door behind. "OH MY GOD! They really were at it!" Blake burst laughing "Way to go Tyler, show her who's the man!" he yelled louder.

And then he took his phone, looking at it, turning it in his hand.

"Hmmm... who would have thought..." he mumbled coming down the stairs and I could hear Tyler cursing in his room, and like banging sound and opening of drawers...

"OH SHIT!" Blake yelled and then Tyler's door opened. "RUN!" Blake yelled at me and then we were both sprinting to the door, laughing.

"EATON, GET YOUR FUCKING ASS BACK HERE!" Ty yelled.

"This is sooo going on Facebook now!" Blake shouted at him.

"I SWEAR TO GOD, YOU'RE A DEAD MAN!!" Ty yelled back.

But we had reached the car now and I was closing the Escalade door and Blake was starting the engine and we were driving away while I was laughing and well trying to get rid of the disturbing mental image of... oh god mental image OUT!

"I think your brother and I are even now!" Blake was still laughing beside me.

"You're an idiot!" I shook my head and slapped his arm

"How many times do I have to tell you to NOT hit the driver?" Blake smirked and I smiled a little.

"So what now? We left all the school work at my house." I informed Blake.

"I guess we'll just have to do something else then school work" Blake smiled.