So today I woke up and... I didn't really plan on writing to say the least... but I did..

This chapter goes to C.  

Because you're one of the first to have encouraged my writing, to have actually read and listened to my crazy ideas, for nagging me to write more, for that time you actually dressed up as the bear for the play I wrote, for letting yourself being attacked by the bugs while we tried to shoot the movie I wrote in Sec1.. you died first in that too.. for the race in the school halls with your wheelchair and around the art class..

Remember I said there was actually some good from being sick when you got to meet Patrick Kane at the All-Star game... but you know what? I take it back... 

I miss you..

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"Seriously Travis, you really hit the jackpot!" Ashley, his friend, was saying again while she took another bite of Alex's chocolate cake "You really sure you're gay? Wouldn't want to dump Travis, come live with me and cook all the time" she asked Alex, making us all laugh.

At this point the dirty dishes from the chicken were on the counter, with all the dirty pans waiting to get wash.

Daph had easily made Travis blur his life story before he even had time to ask for a second serving.

We now knew that his parents had divorced when he was eight, he was an only child, he had always kinda knew he was gay and had dated the one publicly known guy in his school that was, but he wasn't really his type and "unnecessarily loud and obnoxious" as Ashley had put it so it hadn't last long. He accepted his orientation easily but he wasn't the kind to like scream it on roofs. He didn't mind but his life didn't center around that.

His acceptance of being gay, I think that's one of the things that Alex liked about him. I mean Alex, I'm sure he would have liked for people to know, to have this "weight" off his shoulder... but he was scared of how the guys would take it. I mean Travis wasn't the quarterback in a team full of machos. Maybe that wasn't a good excuse, but it was still true...

"Sorry Ashley, the second he changes his mind, he's ALL mine" Daphnee smirked at her.

"Oh and what about that flea market guy?" Alex asked, laughing, and then his eyes fell back on Travis, and gave him a look that made me want to turn my head and stare away.

I mean it's wasn't a dirty look, it was a loving look. The kind of way that made you feel like you were infiltrating something private you shouldn't see.

For one tiny fraction of a second I thought about the fact that he had never looked at me that way. Just long enough to realize I didn't mind.

"Who's the flea market guy?" Ashley asked, chuckling a little.

That's right she had missed the talk about him earlier.

"Just THE hotness guy on Earth. He's been torturing me, basically ignoring my attempts at dragging him into a dark alley! But he gave me his phone number the other day... well I kinda almost choked it out of him, anyway, not the point! So I have the phone number but I'm planning on not calling... to torture him too, though I doubt he will mind, so I'll stop minding, like soon, otherwise I'll become obsessed like Silly-Lexi here!" Daph rambled, giving me a mischievous smile at the end.

"I am NOT obsessed!" I scowled at her.

But I was...

"Please!" she rolled her eyes.

"Now that sounds interesting" Ashley interfered, smirking a little too.

The two boys were having a discussion of their own, and I kinda freaked as I realized I was the new center of attention.

"Trust me, it's not" I answered her, and took a huge bite of chocolate cake, effectively preventing me from speaking and having to say more.

"Oh it is! And it's a little sad at the same time, I mean it's almost written on her forehead when she stares at him drooling like a moron "Please take me sexy running back, take me NOW!"" Daphnee went on and I realized shoving food in my mouth and stopping me from being able to defend myself hadn't been the smartness move on my behalf.

"Really?" Ash asked and then looked at my head "I don't see anything" she laughed.

I swallowed the cake hurriedly, which, important to mention was like heaven in my mouth, and then spoke, so that Daph would shut up "Seriously I don't wanna "take him" and I mean I have to right to stare sometimes, like you said once everyone thinks he's hot!"

Just saying this I knew it was a lame excuse. Why? Because Blake had obviously been hot all his life, and more importantly ever since I had known him. Now, why was I staring at him NOW? Why didn't I start that earlier, before really speaking with him? If I had I could have said it was because of his hotness, but now... I couldn't. Because the truth was if it hadn't been for him, for his personality, for everything that made Blake, Blake, I wouldn,t be staring. If it hadn't been for who he was I would have giving a care. But now I did, and I... I cared... Because it wasn't just staring, it was caring too...

Oh crap.

"Correction, I said everyone wanted a piece of him!" Daph intervened.

"That sexy?" Ashley asked.

"He could compete with my flea market guy!" she nodded.

"Please your flea market guy is probably a bum!" I laughed.

"Oh sorry! He. Is. NOT!"

"Does he wear shoes?" I asked her, thinking back at that freaky guy she had thought was THE sexiest thing on Earth a little while ago.

I mentally shuddered. I mean Daphnee could have the worst and the best taste with guys.

"As a matter of fact he does! And you know what, I'm now going to say he'd kick your running-back ass with his hotness!"

I didn't want to say this but I did "Please that would be almost impossible!"

My running back was the definition of hotness...

And he wasn't MY running back!!

Oh god...

"The running back sounds hot" Ashley said, chuckling.

"He is, and that's the only reason why I stare, seriously! If you saw him you'd understand"

Why did I need to explain myself?

"Hey Alex!" Daph suddenly said, looking over at him, interfering in his nice little chat "You still have that picture of the football team?"

"Sure, it's in my room" he shrugged.

"Well then, Lexi go get it and show our friend here how sexy your running back is" Daph smirked.

"It's not MY running back!" I told her, trying again to get that through my head, and I mean I knew that, of course I did!

"Whatever, just go get it!" she laughed at me.

I narrowed my eyes at her, but got up never the less and then ran upstairs to Alex's room, and quickly saw what I was looking for, hanging on the wall. I looked at the picture for a second. At all the players. And then at Blake, of course. He was smiling, but it wasn't the dimple smile or the smirk, it was almost a sad smile, and there was something almost heartbreaking about his eyes. He looked so unhappy... My fingers stroked the glass, like I could actually take the sadness away, but then shook my head collecting my thoughts and ran back downstairs.

The voice now came from the living room so I headed there.

"Hey! Sorry we took the party here!" Alex told me.

He was sitting on one of the two white couches with Travis, while Daphnee was on the other one with Ashley, but she got up on her feet when I walked in.

"Now show her your object of infatuation" she smirked at me and I narrowed my eyes again while she sat in a chair beside the couch.

I sat beside Ashley and gave her the picture.

But before I could point anyone or say anything she almost squealed "Whoa! Okay who are the double-yummies?" Ashley asked pointing the twins.

I chuckled, but I mean she was right the twins were definitely yummy!

"That's Cameron and Trevor!" I told her.

"I could stare at them. All. Day. LONG!" she said and then sighed and kept staring. I restrained myself from giggling. "Can I get one please? Please?"

"Sorry I don't own the rights on them!" I laughed.

"Shame..." Ashley trailed shaking her head, still staring intently at the picture in front of her "Hey! I know that guy!" she suddenly exclaimed, pointing Blake.

Oh crap... oh crap crap crap...

I didn't like that. This had bad story written ALL over it...

"Really?" I asked like I didn't have a care in the world, but Daph had suddenly appeared behind my shoulder.

"Well ain't that fun! That's precisely Lexi's boy toy!"

"Shut up Daphnee!"

But I mean I was kinda showing him off to her wasn't I? That was completely ridiculous. Why had I needed to show her he was hot to explain my staring? Wasn't my words enough?

Seriously what was wrong with me lately? My brains felt messed up!

"Easy Tiger!" Daph chuckled to me and then looked at Ashley "How'd you know him?"

I didn't want to know...

"Well there's a girl at school who basically ran around the halls, a picture of her and him in her hands, showing it to everyone. And I know there are a few other girls that pranced around the fact that they had been with him. He's like the hot material at our school. If you've been with him, you got social status" she explained simply, shrugging.

"Well isn't that nice..." Daph laughed.

Wow... Blake's got a reputation even in other schools.

Perfect, just freaking perfect...

"Should have said his name was Blake Eaton" Ashley laughed and then looked like she was going to give me the picture back but stopped and stared again, at the twins.

I wanted to laugh but at the same time didn't.

"Couldn't have known he was so popular..." I trailed.

"Anyway gotta give it to you, he is nice to look at... You like him?" she asked me.

"No, like you said, he's just nice to look at" I answered, nodding to myself, trying to get this in my head.

But I WAS friend with him though...

"Oh please! You ain't fooling anyone!" Daphnee whined. "Back me up here Alex! Those two, Blake and Lexi I mean, there's something there, right?"

"I'd say yes, but I that guy is mystery on his self..." Alex trailed "I mean just the other day at practice, coach wouldn't even let him do the plays, made him sit on the bench all the time and he kept saying he wouldn't be in the game on Friday but coach called me tonight an apparently Blake gonna be playing now..."

Okay, lot of info right there, but before I could ask further more or defend myself and tell everyone that nothing was there between me and Blake Daph exclaimed "You guys will be coming to the game right? And you could meet the twins!" she said, looking at Ashley.

"Ouu, tempting!" Ash smirked a little.

"Only if Alex doesn't mind..." Travis trailed.

"Well I don't mind!" Alex answered but then looked like he was thinking about it thoroughly.

"You know it's fine if you do mind, but I would appreciate looking at you in those spandex pants" Travis smiled.

Stupid Alex, hurting his boyfriend! And I mean, it's not like he needed to scream that the guy over there enjoying his butt in the spandex uniform was his boyfriend!

But then, there was a sound coming from the kitchen that interrupted the conversation.

My phone ringing.

"Me this time!" I said guilty and got up from the couch.

"Now now, you'd be calling you, we're all here!" Daph said, shaking her head.

"Might be Vanessa..." I trailed.

"Well I could answer then!" Daph exclaimed, getting up on her feet too.

"Just let me get this please! Could also be dad or Ty..." I told her.

Or Blake...

"If it's Vanessa tell her she just missed an awesome night! Rub it in a little!" and then when she saw Ashley confused face "She our friend. Goldilocks in the flesh, and he's Papa Bear and she's Baby Bear and I'm Mama Bear. We're like a cute fairy tale just waiting to happen!" Daph said in a fake cute voice.

"Bring out the rainbow and bunnies!" Ashley laughed.

I stopped listening to them and turned around, walking to my cell and then when I got it sure thing, the caller ID said Blake.

I leaned against the wall in the entry of the kitchen and brought the phone to my ear.

"Hey" I answered, smiling a little, almost jumpy at the thought of the fact I would hear his voice now. His deep sexy voice.

"Hey... what are you doing right now? Can I-" Blake started to say, his voice sounding... off? But then Alex screamed from the living room "IS IT YNA?" loud enough for Blake to hear I guess because he stopped speaking.

Crap.

"I don't fancy being mistaken for a girl. That's like a first in my book" Blake told me.

"Sorry about that, I'm over at Alex's..." I trailed, biting my bottom lip worriedly.

I don't know why, I just was for a second.

"Kinda figured that out for myself..." Blake just said and then was silent.

"So you were saying?" I asked, trying to get him speaking again.

"Nothing, forget about it" he simply said.

"No no! Go ahead!" I urged.

"Really Lexi it was nothing, just go have fun, I'll see you tomorrow, try not to forget your script or anything and if you have stage fright remember to picture everyone naked, except me, cause then you'll just be speechless and we need you to be able to make coherent sentence and not drool on sight alright?" Blake said, his voice teasing but there was still something off about it, and how he kinda blurred it all in one breath almost...

"Seriously Blake what's wrong?" I asked, though in a way it was better to not drag this conversation right? I mean I was over at Alex's to meet his boyfriend, not on another of my many late calls with Blake...

"Nothing, really. Just wanted to annoy you a bit as always! We'll talk another time alright. Bye Lexi" he simply told me, his tone making this final.

I barely had time to say goodbye as he hung up on me.

Alright that was weird...

I just stood there and stared at my cellphone...

I didn't like this, I really didn't...