I begin to question where we are going, but I keep my mouth shut. I don't want to ruin anything. We walk for about ten minutes and he leads me onto a catwalk that looks out to a shimmery sea. I laugh and look at him.
"What's going on?"
"Look onto the city and watch the lights fade."
"Huh?"
"Just look."
He looks at me to reassure me that he knew what he was talking about. I look out to the old buildings, and I notice that something seems to be happening. The lights in the buildings and houses start to fade until you could only see the lights from homecoming up in the sky. As I look up, I notice all the stars that are actually in the sky, and notice how all the purples, pinks, and blues blend together with the glowing stars.
"What?! This is just so incredible! Is this all for the dance?"
"Yeah, I don't really pay much attention to the dance, rather I come here to look at the heavens and their beauty."
So, for a while, we just stand and look at the sky, and I know that I've never seen anything this spectacular before. Just as our stargazing came to an end, Donovan grabs my hand.
"Y'know, we can still hear the music, a little. Do ya still wanna dance?"
"Yeah, I would really like that."
He pulls me very close and I just have to hug him.
"Thank you, for everything that you've done for me. It all means the world to me."
He hugs me back and puts his head on mine.
"Do ya wanna stay here? Fer good maybe?"
I pull back a little and put my hands on his shoulders.
"No one has ever made me feel more welcome to a place that I still hardly know. You talk to me, we love to be around each other. How could I not stay?"
We both hug each other as our feet teeter totter on the catwalk to the sound of the music. I feel so safe and a little tired, so I lay my head on his shoulder as he shields my arms from the chilly whisps of the night. Then, he stops moving and looks down to me.
"I've had such a great time tonight."
"Me too, Donovan."
As soon as the words leave my mouth, I feel it happening again, and I know it's not just me. Donovan is coming closer to me, but this time, I don't do anything about it. I want to, but my body is still and I can't move, and I'm not sure if I want to. He's only an inch from me and I have to close my eyes. I'm too nervous to see what comes next. Donovan brushes his hand against my cheek as I find myself slowly moving forward. Finally, our lips are touching and I put my hand on Donovan's cheek. This is really happening and I feel myself getting wrapped up in the moment. I swear, I open my eyes for a split second and the galaxy is swirling around us. Then I remember, this is not a fairytale. What am I doing? I get stiff and gently pulled back. I feel myself start to tremble and turn pale. We're both a little stiff, but he's still holding me.
"...Donovan, I-I'm so sorry."
"I-are ya okay?
I slowly break his grip and start shaking a little more.
"I-I'm..uuhh..."
I can feel the tears start to form in my eyes. I can't find my voice and I can only whisper.
"...I'm so sorry Donovan..."
As I turn to leave, the image sticks in my head, leaving Donovan abandoned on the catwalk, all alone, as I start to walk home. I softly sob to myself as I feel the guilt build up inside of me. I make it home and all I do is lay on my bed. Before I know it, I cry myself to sleep.