"I don't know if I can get you to believe me, but I think Regulus would trust me."

"I don't think so"

"I'm sorry about Sirius. He's still kind of shocked and traumazied about Regulus's death. I'm sorry, but you're both lying to youselfs when you think that he's alive"

"Is he...?"

James nodded.

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Once again, it was a morning. James, Sirius and I had talked about how I could remain in hiding for as long as possible. We would still remain in hiding, but Sirius's and my cousin, Narcissa aka Cissy, had showed up. I sat once again at my familiar windowsill, and wondered what they could possibly be talking about.

Maybe Narcissa was sent by Voldemort to try to ask Sirius about me. Or maybe she decided to escape from her soon-to-be husband. I conclued that it wouldn't be too dangerous to try to get James's invisibility cloak. So I silently went into my room and from there to James's bedroom. I took the cloak from on top of James's bed. I put it over myself, so now other people weren't able to see me. I silently walked downstairs to the livingroom where the others were talking.

"Narcissa, why are you here?" James asked her. I walked right next to them. "I want to know where Regulus is, because I'm giving birth to Lucius's son in few monts, and I want him to be the godfather" Narcissa said. I smiled, but it hurt me that I couldn't say a word.

"Mhm. Well Cissy, let me be honest with you. I'm suprised that there isn't any deatheaters knocking on the door right now. So why would I trust you? Tell me some good reasons" Sirius said looking Narcissa in the eyes. I hate it how life is a surviving game, where you never know for sure who to trust with your life. I wasn't sure myself when I came here and asked Sirius to take me live with him.

"I don't know if I can get you to believe me, but I think Regulus would trust me" Narcissa said. "I don't think so" Sirius said. "I'm sorry about Sirius. He's still kind of shocked and traumazied about Regulus's death. I'm sorry, but you're both lying to yourselves when you think he's alive" James said.

Narcissa gasped and her face went pale. Her eyes were wide and she quickly put her hands over his mouth. Tears started dropping from her eyes. They were shiny and medium sized. Sirius didn't show any emotions. I was sad, but also knew that I couldn't do anything about it. I smiled sadly at her, even though I knew she couldn't see me. "Is he...?" She asked with her voice, which had suddenly turned to weak and fragile.

James nodded. She didn't want to say out loud the word. It was too big for her. It had too much meaning for her to hold. I knew her good enough to say that. She sniffed and closed her eyes. She put her head in her hands and put his hands on top of his knees. "Oh my god. This can't be true. No, not him" Narcissa muttered.

I ran quietly to her, but stopped before I had even began. Something was stopping me. I believed it to be my self-preservation instinct. So I let her cry all alone.

She left the house soon after. I went to put the invisibility cloak back and walked back downstairs acting like I didn't know anything. Sirius and James were sharing thoughts at the living room. I walked to them and sat on the couch Narcissa had just sat on. "What did she say?" I asked. Sirius glared at me. "Don't act like you wouldn't know. You were here!" Sirius said.

"How did you know?" I asked confused. "I smelled you!" Sirius said. "How?" I asked. "It comes with being a dog as animagi. I had to put spells on you for your own safety! You maybe wondered why you couldn't move? Well, that's because I put a spell that forces you to stand still and tells me when you're trying to move! God damn it, Regulus! I fucking knew you would come. You idiot can't help but try to comfort her! You don't even understand how dangerous that is!" Sirius shouted to me. He had stood up and looked me in the eyes with anger and a hint of fear in his eyes.

My eyes widened. "Sirius, I'm sorry. I don't know why I thought she would be trustworthy for sure. I'm sorry. I-" I said. I was shaking a bit, because I was trying to hold back tears. I didn't like loud sounds at all. They reminded me of my parents who were abusive. James stood up too amd tried to relax Sirius. "Bro chill. Let him breathe. You both need to breathe! He has gone through a lot and so have you. Chill. Breath with me. In, 3....2....1.... and out. 3....2....1... in, 3....2...1.... out...."

I breathed with them. I felt hopeful. We will survive this!