Walking back downstairs she found Abigail

"Stevie, are you alright?" She said worried

"I'm fine," Stevie smiled softly

"Honey, what happened to your hair?"

"Lisa....but it's okay."

"What did she do?" Abigail said angrily

"I was feeding David...my son."

"So...what was the problem with that?"

"She's legally his mother."

"You were just giving him a bottle Stevie"

"I breastfeed him."

"Shit..." she said blowing out

"I just miss him. I didn't mean to!"

"Well did he latch alright?"

"Perfectly," Stevie smiled

"Then that tells you he knows your his mother"

"He remembers me."

"You are probably who he remembers when he's hungry" she smiled

"He's gotten so big!"

"I would love to meet him"

"He's coming to see me tomorrow!"

"Just be careful alright? Don't expect Lindsey to turn up to much"

"I haven't. But I think something changed tonight. He's softer."

"Softer?" Abigail questioned

"Kind."

"What was he doing when you walked in?"

"You don't want to know...."

"What was he doing...?"

"I don't want to talk about it..."

"Stevie...?"

"Please."

"Was he fucking her?" Abigail asked bluntly

"Abigail, yes."

"And you think he's changed? You were supposed to be getting married today! You know, I phoned him earlier to ask where he was...and he said 'fucking his fiancé' then said he'd be by tomorrow because he was busy Today..."

"Abigail, please!" Stevie yelled

"I'm looking out for you Stevie! Honey, you deserve a lot more than that!"

"This conversation is over!"

"Stevie...what if she gets pregnant?" She said worried

"Abigail, shut up!"

"I'm just saying its a possibility! I will kill him!"

Stevie refused to speak to her for he rest of the ride

Before they got out of the car at the centre Abigail turned to Stevie and held her hand

"I'm sorry Stevie...I just...I saw this happen to my parents, and it mentally killed my mom...I don't want to see you the same way"

"I appreciate that," Stevie squeezed her hand

Once inside Stevie went back to her room, and sat on the bed

"He does love me," Stevie told herself

Staring at the phone she didn't know if she should call or not...

Stevie decided against it, she didn't want to annoy him

Trying to sleep for a few hours, she realised she wouldn't be able to unless she called him

She picked up the phone, dialing his number

"Hello?...Lindsey stop!" The woman giggled

"Wrong number," Stevie hung up

Within seconds her phone started to ring

"Hello?" She answered tearfully

"Steph?"

"Go to hell."

"How could you still be with her after what she did to me?" She asked crying

"Steph, just chill out. I will see you tomorrow."

"How can I, when I just heard that?"

"It was just fun. She doesn't mean anything."

"What were you doing?" She demanded to know

"Nothing! We were just playing around!"

"Your playing around with the woman that yanked your girlfriends hair out..."

"Look, I'm sorry baby. I'll tell her to leave."

"Try not to goodbye fuck her to hard" she said tearful and angry

"Stevie, calm down."

"I'm so stupid..." she cried

"You are not! I'm the stupid one!"

"Why would you want me? When you can have her...she's thin, and beautiful...and I'm...I'm not..."

"You are! Stephanie, I'm sorry!"

"I'm so ugly now...I have bald patches, marks on my arms...Lindsey... stay with her okay..." she sobbed hard

"I will not! I am on my way!" He hung up

Stevie practically fell off the bed she was crying so much

Less than twenty minutes Lindsey barged into her room, "Stevie, I love you!"

Stevie was still on the floor

"Honey," he scooped her up into his arms

"Say something, Stevie"

"Why did you come?"

"Because I love you..."

"You love Lisa. I'm just a joke!"

"You aren't! And I can love both of you!" He realised as soon as he said it, that it probably wasn't the best thing to say

"Fuck you! Go to hell!" Stevie slapped at him

"Stop doing that!" He screamed

"Why do you love hurting me? Can't you see that I love you!"

"I love you too!" He told her

"You love Lisa too! She's not crazy!"

"No she's not...neither are you!"

"But you wouldn't have a baby with me..."

"Please don't start this again..."

"I want a baby with you! Is that a crime?!"

"No its not, but..."

"Are you using protection with her?" Stevie interrupted

"Yes, there is no way in hell I'm having a child with her."

"Every single time?"

"Yes."

"I swear to God if she comes back and says she's pregnant..."

"She's not."

"Why would that be so bad anyway? You love her"

"You're making me angry," he warned

"Oh I'm sorry! I forgot your fucking innocent"

"Jesus Christ! I love you! What do you want me to do?!"

"Give me a baby!"

"Fine!" He opened his pants

"What are you doing?"

"Giving you what you want!"

"Not like this..."

"Then like what?"

"Like a normal couple! I don't want you to make me feel like some cheap whore"

"Look, we'll move to Phoenix and stay with your parents. I'll get a job and we can get married. We've been through a lot lately and I don't have the clearest mind at the moment."

"Answer me honestly, do you want a baby with me?" She asked

"Yes."

"I feel like your lying..." she looked away

Lindsey kneeled in front of her and placed his hand on her stomach, "I want this."

She looked down at him with tears in her eyes

"Do you believe me?"

"I don't know..." she covered her face

Lindsey backed away, "How can this work if you don't trust me?"

"You need to understand from my place here..."

"I'm trying to prove to you that I want you."

"One minuet your nice to me, the next your horrible, then you leave me, then you love me but have sex with someone else"

"I'm serious this time! I'll move away from all of my bad habits!"

"Why did you leave me in the first place? You left me in that hospital to rot..."

"I hated seeing you like that. I figured that if I acted like I didn't care then eventually I wouldn't care..."

"I thought I was going to die! And you left me there! You left my daughter!"

"I'm sorry! I run away from my responsibilities, I always have..." he cried

"I still had our baby in me..." she remembered painfully

"I know. I don't know why I act so heartless. I do love you...and that baby."

Stevie broke down in tears, she hadn't spoken about it since it happened

"Please, give me one last chance."

"I don't know anymore...I'm tired"

"Please, baby."

"What if I lose it again?"

"I'll take care of you so nothing will happen!"

"I'm scared..."

"We can do this."

"Okay..." she nodded, placing a hand to her stomach

"Thank you baby."

"Don't make me regret this!"

"You won't!"

"Abigail has someone that you might want to see..." he added

"Who?" Stevie asked curiously

"Well he's small, and a little chubby"

"David?!" She jumped up happily

"He's at the front desk" he smiled and then was dragged out the room

Stevie ran down the hallway and took David into her arms, crying as she kissed all over his face

"Oh baby, mommy's missed out on so much!"

"I think he's missed you!" Speaking of the way David clung to her

"God, I've missed him too, so very much"

David laid his head on her shoulder

"Oh Linds, look at him" she placed her cheek on his head

"You're so beautiful holding him."

"I feel so maternal...please let him call me mommy...?"

"Of course!"

"Thank you, so much!" She grabbed his neck and kissed him

"You don't have to thank me!"

Stevie put her mouth by his ear and rubbed her nose against his face

"Linds...take me home..."

"Whatever you want!"

"That's what I want"

"Then we'll go," he kissed her head

Stevie went back to her room to get her things, taking David with her of course

Abigail wrote down Stevie's progress, ensuring her release.

Lindsey made his way to Stevie's room, and stood in the doorway, secretly watching her with David

"Sweet boy," she sang softly

He smiled watching her lift him in the air and make noises and faces at him

"Mommy missed you so much!" She cooed as David giggled

"Ah, was that a giggle? Did my big boy just giggle?" She rubbed her nose against his head, then noticed Lindsey

"Hey baby," Stevie smiled at him

"Hey yourself! You look happy"

"I'm so happy!"

"You ready to go?"

"Yes!"

"Then let's go!"

Stevie grabbed her bag and held David against her

"Are you going to put him down at all?" Lindsey joked

"Never again!"

Laughing and getting everyone in the car, Lindsey drove away from the center

Stevie closed her eyes in relief

"Where we going? My place, or Phoenix?" Lindsey asked

"Phoenix...."

"As you wish!" Stevie settled down with David, for the drive back to her parents

It was nightfall when they reached her parents house, running in to see Evie

"Evie, baby?" Stevie called out

Evie bolted down the stairs and jumped into her mother's arms

"Mommy!" She squealed, hugging her mother tighter, she then noticed Lindsey in the door way

"Hi, baby..." he said

"Hi, Lindsey" she replied

"It's daddy now."

Evie shook her head, with tears in her eyes

"No, Lindsey"

"I love you."

"Mommy, make him go away"

"We'll sort it in the morning."

"No, Evie...it's daddy" he tried to take her from Stevie

"No!" She screeched

"Baby, it's me"

"Mommy!" Evie clung to her

"Lindsey, step away!" Stevie scolded

Lindsey backed off, "I'll go put our things in the room." He walked upstairs

"Evie, why are you doing that to Daddy?"

"He's not my Daddy."

"Yes he is, he loves you very much"

"He said he wasn't my Daddy."

"He was upset baby! You know he is your daddy"

"He doesn't love me!"

"He does! Baby, what did he say to you in the hospital that day?"

"That he wasn't my daddy..."

"what else? Don't be afraid to tell me sweet"

"He didn't love me..."

"Anything else?"

"No."

"Are you lying to me Evie Buckingham?"

"No."

"Okay baby...you going to go see daddy?"

"Yes."

"Go on up then sweetie!"

Evie ran upstairs and jumped into bed with Lindsey.

"Daddy?" She whispered

"Hey!"

"I'm sorry daddy" she climbed on his chest

"It's alright, baby," he held her against him, kissing her head

"Are you really my daddy?"

"Yes!"

"Did you put me in mommy's belly?"

"Yes." He didn't want to tell her the truth

"Good!" She snuggled up to him more

"I love you, Evie."

"I love you too, my sweet!"

Stevie came into the bedroom, climbing into bed with both of them

"I see your little girl came back..." she smiled

"She sure did," Lindsey smiled

"I'm sorry she was like that" Stevie said playing with his hair

"It's understandable."

"I know...' Lindsey checked she was asleep before speaking again

"She asked if I put her in your belly..."

"You might as well have."

"Well I wasn't going to tell her an abuser and rapist..." Stevie stopped him with a hand to the mouth, she could see he was getting very angry

"Shh, it's over now."

He breathed out and tried to blink his tears away

Stevie kissed his lips softly, "You've made me forget all about him."

"Is he not still in your mind...look what he was going to make me do...look what I was going to do..."

"Shh."

Lindsey was starting to hyperventilate

Stevie gently moved Evie and straddled his waist, "Lindsey, breathe."

Lindsey looked up at the ceiling and attempted to try and breath right

Stevie kissed him tightly

"Stevie, get off me..."

Stevie rolled off of him

Throwing the covers off he ran to the bathroom and she heard him throwing up

"Linds?"

Walking into the bathroom, she saw him continously retching

"Honey?" She kneeled next to him

"Sorry..." he coughed and threw up again

"You don't have to be sorry!"

"This is embarrassing..."

"Don't let it be. You can't help it!"

Finally finishing, he laid down on the tiled floor, feeling the coolness on his cheek

"I'll take care of you."

"It's him...he makes me sick!" Lindsey said whilst curling into a ball

"Don't let him!"

"I'm just struggling not to see it every time I look at you..." he told her truthfully

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't want to upset you...I have dreams about it most nights..."

"Really?"

She saw Lindsey nod his head softly

"What can I do to help you?"

"Nothing..."

"Come to bed. I'll help you."

"Okay..." he got up from the floor and quickly brushed his teeth

Stevie scooted Evie into the middle and they laid on each side of her, "Dream of Evie and our new baby."

Lindsey closed his eyes and pictured what Stevie had spoken of, soon falling into a slumber

A few hours later Stevie awoke to whimpering

She sat up, "Lindsey?"

She looked over to him and he was clutching the pillow so much his nails were digging into his hand and he was bleeding

"Linds," she shook him gently

"No...get off her...stop...leave her alone" he thrashed about, sweating

Stevie moved Evie away from him, "Lindsey!" She whispered louder

"Don't make me do it...Steph, I'm so sorry...don't hate me..." he continued to talk

"Mommy, what's wrong with daddy?" Evie asked scared

"Evie, go get in bed with Grandma," the little girl ran out. "Lindsey!" She shook him

He must of been in a deep sleep because he just wouldn't wake up

She eventually slapped him in the face out of shear desperation

Bolting up right he gasped loudly

"Lindsey," she held his face in her hands

Looking into her eyes, she saw that his looked spooked

"Baby..." she soothed

"Steph," he panted

"Calm down, your here with me!"

He pulled her tightly against him, she could feel him trembling beneath her

He pulled her tightly against him, she could feel him trembling beneath her

"Baby, you were talking..."

Lindsey just shook his head and buried it into her chest

"Was it him?" She asked rubbing the back of his head

She felt him nod against her

"Linds...you need to talk to me, you didn't see yourself...you scared Evie"

"I'm sorry," he cried

"Oh honey...don't cry..."

"I love you!"

"I love you to, always! Now what was going on in here...?" She touched his forehead

"I was helpless, I couldn't save you!"

"Save me?" She asked puzzled

"From him...."

"Is that what you dream of every night? You said don't make me do it, don't hate me...what did that mean?" She continued to sooth his head

"He made me touch you...."

"You love me, that's okay baby"

"You didn't want it...you said no...but he made me anyway!"

"It's okay Lindsey...it's all okay"

"You know I would never do that to you!"

"I could forgive you, even if he made you do that"

Lindsey laid back, pulling her with him, still keeping a tight grip on her

"I love you, I always have, and I always will" she told him

"I love you too, baby."

"Would this make you feel better?" Stevie asked and took his hand, moving it between them both

She could feel Lindsey's breathing deepen, indicating that he was getting aroused.

"Take what you want, baby..." she whispered in his ear

He rolled them over, quickly going down on her

"Yes, Linds..." she hissed

He seemed a lot gentler than normal, taking his time and paying attention to every single spot

Stevie took more pleasure in his slow gentle movements

She felt him kiss up her body paying more attention to her breasts and neck

"I like it hard...but this is beautiful..." she said in a breathy tone

"I'll do whatever you want me to, baby," Lindsey told her

"Just start off slow, and I'll tell you as we go"

Lindsey nodded taking himself in his hand and running the tip up and down her entrance

Stevie wiggled her hips, she didn't remember the last time he was this gentle, and she loved it

"Are you ready?" He whispered against her lips

"Mmhmm" she answered nodding

She felt him slowly slide in, laying against her as he did so

Wrapping her arms around his shoulders, she slowly moved her hips to match his

"You like that?"

"I love that..."

Lindsey groaned hearing her response, laying his head against her chest and laying his weight on her

He took her hips and kneaded her skin

"God, you are so beautiful I could cry"

"I hate seeing you cry," Stevie told him

"I just...I don't deserve you..."

"You do, so much!"

"Not after everything I've done to you..."

"Shh," she shook her head, holding him against her

"I'm so sorry..." he broke down in her arms

"Lindsey, please."

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry..." he repeated, she'd never seen him like this, ever

"Lindsey," she rolled him off of her

He pulled his arms up and buried his head into the pillow

"Please go talk to someone."

"I'm talking to you"

"Professionally."

"No...I won't do that"

"You need to."

"No, Stevie, that's final"

She faced her back to him and pulled the blanket over her

"Hey..." he tried to carry on touching her but she pushed him away

"Don't touch me!"

"Stephanie..."

"You are not touching me until you get your shit together."

"My shit is together!"

"Goodnight, Lindsey."

"Don't do that!"

She pulled the blanket over her head.

"Fine..." just to be a child, he snatched the blanket up that was covering her

"Fuck you," she growled

"I was trying to! Then you got all moody!"

"Grow up!"

"Whatever!" He spat back

Stevie curled up and didn't reply

"I'm going home" he said and closed the door

Stevie pulled the blanket back over her, picking at the skin on her arms as her anxiety took over

Lindsey walked to David's room and placed him into his carry seat, putting a hat on him to protect from the cold night

He walked back by Stevie's room to reach the stairs and heard her whimpering

He debated on whether to go in and check on her, or just pick David up and leave

He noticed her cry, it was of pain not tears

Picking David's seat up, he opened the door to her room and looked in

All that he could see was her body shape under the blanket

"Stevie?" He asked into the room

"Go away."

"Why did you sound in pain?"

"I'm fine."

"Don't lie to me"

"Go home."

"Fine...I've got David"

"Let me feed him."

"Stevie, he's fine, he's only just been fed"

"He won't be able to eat for a while."

"I've got bottles, he's fine for a bit

"Fine."

"I'm sorry you can't cope with my emotions and mood swings"

"Jesus Christ, Lindsey! You're not pregnant!"

"Alright, you don't need to be rude"

"Really?!" She sat up, "You brought me down here to marry me and start a family but you're leaving me!"

"Calm down for goodness sake!" He told her

He noticed the wounds on her arms

"What have you been doing?" He stormed over to her

"It doesn't matter. Just leave."

"Stephanie?"

"Go!"

"No! What have you been doing?"

"What does it look like?!"

"It looks like you aren't coping being out of that place!"

"I was better! When you love me and are kind I'm all better!"

"I do love you! I always love you!"

"Then why are you leaving me?"

"I'm going to get some fucking clothes!"

"That's not what you said!"

"I said I was going home, you made it clear you don't care what for"

"I thought you were leaving me!"

"I want to get you pregnant with my child, why would I leave you?!"

"When have we ever made sense?!"

"Never! God, do we even match at all?" He said sadly

"I don't know..."

"No...I don't either"

"But we love each other, we just can't be petty and run away."

"I just feel like that's all were ever going to be and do"

"We have to try harder."

"Look, I need to get going"

"Please hurry back."

"Okay..."

Stevie kissed him softly and bent down to rub David's belly

Lindsey was silent as he left for his apartment, to much going on in his head

Stevie laid back down in bed, feeling numb

She hoped with everything in her that he would be back