"What...?" he sat down from shock

"I can't do this anymore. I can't keep going in circles," Stevie shook her head

"Steph, don't leave me...I can't survive without you..." he looked at her

"Aren't you tired of this? Aren't you tired of going back and forth?"

"Yeah, but I love you enough that it's bearable..."

"I can't take it anymore."

"Please don't do this, look I can get David back, we can have this baby, we can be a family"

"We'd just find something else to fight about. We hate each other just as much as we love each other."

"I don't hate you...not one bit..." he wiped his cheek

"Lindsey...it's time to let each other go."

"I can't...don't take my family away" he cried

"I'm sorry, baby. I can't do this to myself anymore."

"How...how am I supposed to see my daughter from California?" He played with the sleeve of his jacket

"Holidays and you can call anytime that you'd like...I'm not that cruel."

"I need my child and my girlfriend with me all the time, not high days and holidays"

"I'm sorry, Lindsey. I need to do what's best for me.... it's not good for Evie to see us fighting."

"But she couldn't cope with not having me here, she wouldn't eat...and David was so attached to you"

"Then buy a place down here."

"But I need to be able to love you...to touch you..." he got up and ran his hands down the length of her arms

Stevie stepped back from him, "Lindsey I love you, but we're done."

"You don't mean that..." he walked her backwards until she hit the wall, stroking her cheeks softly

"I do, we can't be together anymore. You need to go to California."

"All your things are still at our place, you could come back when things are okay"

"No," she shook her head, "throw them out, I have all that I need here."

"Apart from me..." he said

"Lindsey! I don't know how to tell you anymore clearly! We are over!"

"I almost went to jail to protect you! Does that not mean anything to you?"

"Of course it does! I want to end things before it gets to the point where I can't stand the sight of you!"

"Are you close at the minuet?" He was heartbroken

"No, but I really need for you to go."

"Keep the baby, I'll send money"

"Mom and Dad will take care of me until I can get a job. You need to take care of David."

"But I need to take care of you and my baby"

"No you don't."

"I do, I helped make them, and I want to be a good dad"

"I appreciate that, but I have to make sure that you can feed and take care of David."

"I don't even know if I'll ever have him back..."

"You will."

"I needed your support"

"You said you could do it by yourself" she reminded him

"I lied."

"Lindsey I know this is hard, but you have to go."

"I don't want to go!" He cried

"Get out." Stevie said firmly and pointed to the door

"Please?" He physically got on his knees in front of her and held her hips, placing his face against her stomach

"Go get David, come back here and see Evie. You have to prove to me that you are going to change for me."

"Okay! I will, I promise"

"Now go."

"Can I kiss you?"

"Yes," she helped him to his feet. Blocking her in to the wall once more, he lifted one of her legs around him, then latched his mouth down onto hers. Stevie pulled away momentarily, "Don't let this turn into anymore more that a kiss." He didn't answer her, he just kissed her once again

Stevie wrapped her arms around his neck and ran her fingers through his hair.

Leaving her mouth, he trailed kisses up and down her neck

"Lindsey, I can't."

"Yes you can, baby" he squeezed her thigh

"Lindsey, stop."

"I love you!" He kissed her mouth once again

"Lindsey if you can't control your self then stop," she pushed against his chest

He stopped, dropped his forehead to hers slowely, then lowered her leg back down

"I can't have sex with you."

"Why not? You were going to earlier"

"That was before I made my decision. No sex until I can see the new Lindsey."

"What about the new Stevie hmm?" He asked

"Don't get an attitude with me." She warned

"I'm not, but it's not just me that needs to change"

"I know that! I am working on myself!"

"Really? You clearly don't think I'm doing the same"

"This is what I'm talking about, we can't stop fighting."

"I'm trying to be a good person! But Stevie, first you went back to Jimmy, then I lost the woman I loved, to giving birth to our son, then I lost him too! I'm struggling with reality here!"

"Stop yelling?" She grabbed at her hair

"My heart is broken! I've had so much loss! I've failed you, Evie, David, Jen! Heck I've even managed to fail someone that hasn't been born yet!"

"You haven't failed anyone of us! Please just go get David!"

"I might just let him go too, I'm sure there's a couple out there that can do a hell of a lot better job at taking care of him than me! Jen would be sick with disappointment in me right now!"  He flung the bedroom door open

"Don't you dare give up on him! Lindsey, he is your son!"

"He deserves someone better than me! You all do"

"That attitude isn't going to get you anywhere."

"Look where it's got me so far!"

"Three kids."

"Really? Ones gone and the other one I'm hardly going to see"

"Lindsey I don't know what to tell you. Nothing is going to change unless you want it to." She threw her hands up

"It doesn't matter...nothing does anymore, goodbye Stephanie..."

"Goodbye Lindsey."

"Thank you for doing what you said and sticking by me no matter what..." he headed along the hallway

"You're welcome. Don't forget to say goodbye to Evie."

"I was being sarcastic" he said and headed to Evie's room

"I know."

Knocking gently Lindsey walked in, Evie was putting clothes into a little bag

"Baby, what are you doing" Lindsey asked

"I'm going home with you," she said simply

Lindsey approached her, stopping her and crouching down

"You aren't allowed sweetheart" he played with her hair

"What?" Her lip quivered

"You have to stay here and take care of Mommy and the baby while I'm away."

"I want to come home with you daddy..."

"This is your home now, baby"

"When will I see you again?"

"I don't know Evie, but just in case it's not for an incredibly long, long time...just know that you have daddy's heart okay?" He was openly crying in front of her

"Don't be sad, Daddy!" She wrapped her arms around his neck

"I'm leaving my big girl, of course I'm sad" he held her so tight

"Why can't you stay then?" She placed her tiny hands on his cheeks

"Because mommy's tired of fighting with me, I'm not the easiest person to love"

"I'm mad at Mommy now! We always split up because of her!"

"No, no baby, don't be mad at mommy, this is my fault not hers okay?"

"How?" She cocked her head

"Because...I'm not good at letting people near me, I have a habit of pushing them away, and I don't mean to, ever"

"Don't push me away! Please!"

"Never my sweet girl, your my prized possession"

"Good, I love you!"

"I love you too! Can you do me once last favour?"

"Yes?"

"When your brother or sister gets here, I want you to tell them all about me okay? And all the things we used to do...how much I loved you all..." Lindsey was a mess, and he didn't know Stevie could hear everything he was saying

"I can do that," Evie nodded

"Good girl! I need to go now"

"Bye bye, Daddy," she kissed his cheek, wrapping her arms around him

"I love you, so much!" He kissed her head and stood up

"Don't forget me."

"Impossible!" He left the room before he broke down and took her with him

"Lindsey call soon. Evie gets depressed when she doesn't hear from you," Stevie said softly

"I don't think I'll be able to for a while..."

"Okay...." she nodded

"Saying goodbye was hard enough..."

"I understand."

"I'll ask the same thing of you as I did her, tell that baby about me! Don't let them think that because they won't know what I look like that I don't love them"

"So you're not coming back?"

Lindsey shook his head, tears falling

"I want more than you'll let me have"

"All I wanted was for you to get David and come back here"

"You said we were over Steph, and you told me to stay in California and not come back"

"If you proved to me that you could change then we could be a family."

"Deep down, you don't think I can, and that's the barrier"

"Whatever you say," she sighed and walked into her room

On the side she found a neatly wrapped box, with her name on it

Stevie sat down on the bed and slowly unwrapped the box

Inside she found a photo frame, it had pictures of them all on, with the name 'The Buckinghams' at the top, there was a photo of them all together, Lindsey with Evie and Stevie with David, and there was also a gap, that was half pink half blue with a question mark on it

Stevie smiled softly and held it to her chest, feeling the tears rolling down her cheeks, he had obviously hand made this

"Lindsey!" She needed him, placing the frame down and running from the room, down the stairs

"Lindsey? Mom, quick, where's Lindsey?" Barbara looked at her sadly

"He's already gone Tee..."

"Gone?" Her heart shattered

"Yeah, he just left now, he said you told him to go?" Barbara asked

"I did, but I needed to thank him for something."

"I did, but I needed to thank him for something"

"He might still be out there honey"

Stevie left her mother and ran to the front yard

She saw Lindsey opening the door and putting a leg inside the car, ready to get in

"Lindsey! Wait!" She ran to him

Lindsey said nothing, just stood where he was looking at her

She hugged him tightly, "Thank you for the picture."

"Shit, I was supposed to pick that up" he said cursing himself

"It's beautiful."

"I was planning on giving it to you after we had made love...I was planning, on asking you to keep the baby during it, hence the pink and blue square" he looked away

"Go get David and come straight back here to me."

"Are you being serious...?" He stood open mouthed

"Yes, we need to have a serious conversation about us."

"Okay, I can do that"

"I love you, Lindsey."

"I love you too, Stephanie"

She kissed him softly and pulled away from him, "Tell David that I love him."

"Of course I will!"

"Bye, Linds." She kissed him once more

"Bye, I'll hope to see you soon"

Stevie smiled and watched as he got him car and drove away

She hoped it wouldn't be months before she could see him again

Stevie said a tiny prayer for both of her boys and made her way into the house

Hours later, Lindsey was finally back at his apartment

Once he got inside he said a tiny prayer for both of his girls

Walking into his bedroom was hard, Stevie's pyjamas were still under the pillow, all her wash stuff was in the bathroom and there was a lipstick on the side with the cap off, from where she'd been using it then left quickly

Lindsey laid down on the bed and held her pillow against him, inhaling her scent

He couldn't wait to get back to her and Evie

His apartment was way too quiet, missing the laughter of Evie when Stevie would chase her around...he even missed David's cries in the middle of the night.

Rolling over he grabbed the phone from the side of the bed and dialed the number

"Hello?" Stevie answered sleepily

"Hey..."

"Did you make it safely?" He could hear her shuffling

"Yeah...it's so quiet here..." he said

"I miss you already, I'm so lonely."

"I know! I miss you too, so much!"

"Promise me that you will go tomorrow and see about David."

"I will! I'll go and see what's going on, and then I'll call you..."

"Please do. I've been so worried about him."

"He's your baby, I wouldn't expect any less" he told her

"God, I love you." She began to her emotional

"Oh baby, I love you too!"

"Please hurry back to me because I want you so badly."

"Your telling me? I think I need you even more than usual because we almost...you know...!"

"I would suggest something but Evie is right next to me. She wanted to sleep with me tonight."

"I guess I'll just have to do it when I get off the phone, by myself..." he said

"I'm sorry baby."

"Wait, wasn't your mom crazy and installed a phone in the bathroom?" He teased

He could hear Stevie chuckle, "Yes."

"Soooo... you know..." he suggested and caused her to laugh some more

"I'll call you back when I get in there."

Stevie carefully slipped out of bed, not waking Evie and walked to the bathroom, closing and locking the door behind her.

Picking up the phone she dialed Lindsey's number, him picking up after one ring

"That was quick," Stevie chuckled

"Well I'm needy, I'm not going to lie" he chuckled

"Trust me, you aren't the only one."

"So what are you wearing?" They both laughed

"Are you seriously starting with that?" She asked

"Yes, I wanna know."

"I'm wearing that black silk nighty, with the lace top"

"The one I got you when we moved to Cali?" She could hear his voice lower

"Yeah that one! Your favourite one!"

"Do you have underwear on?"

"Yes, the little baby blue pair you gave to me for valentines day..."

"And you just happen to be wearing my favorite everything tonight?"

"Also...I may or may not have taken your aftershave with me when I left..."

"Really?"

"Yeah, if I sprayed it on my pillow, I'd think you were there..."

"Baby, I'd really like to continue this conversation, but I've had a hard on for the past thirty minutes." Lindsey chuckled

"Well that's a nice thing to say, to the mother of your three children..." she laughed

"You know I love you."

"I know, baby..."

"Linds...are you touching yourself already...?" She asked seductively

"I might be." He growled

"Talk to me, baby" she said

"I wish you were here."

"What would I be doing?"

"I can think of a few things....one which involved you on your knees."

"Mmm" she ran her hands over her chest, and then south

"When I get back to Arizona....you won't be able to walk for days."

"God, I will welcome that...everytime I move I'll think of you..."

"Baby I'm getting close."

"It's going to be my hand stroking you soon...and it's going to feel so good"

"God I don't doubt you baby."

"Linds...help me too..."

She could hear Lindsey groaning and panting on the other end of the phone

"Stephanie, are you listening to me?"

"Mmhm," she panted with anticipation

She sat still and waited for what is next words would be

"Feel how wet you are for me."

Stevie slipped her hand inside her underwear and groaned

"I'm so wet" she breathed

"How wet."

"I'm struggling to keep my finger on it..." she heard him grunt

"I'm coming," he grunted

"That's it, come for me..." she said

"Oh god baby, I am."

"Lindsey, I love you!"

"I love you too."

"Do you feel better now?" She asked once he'd calmed down

"Much...now let's take care of you."

"Please do...I need it after hearing you..."

"Tell me what you're doing right now."

"Right now, I'm sat on the shower floor"

"Are you playing with yourself?"

"Mhhmm" she moaned a little louder

"Tell me how."

"I'm gently rubbing my clit, just like you do it..."

"Do it harder, I wanna hear you."

She did as he asked and pushed harder with her finger, feeling more pleasure as she squealed a little

"Lindsey..."

"Yes, baby. Slip in with two fingers."

Slowely moving her hand down a little further she slid two fingers into herself, almost dropping the phone as she arched and moaned

"That's it."

"Lindsey...oh my god, that feels so good..."

"Do it faster."

Stevie made her fingers speed up, until she could hardly breath

"Linds...I...I can't...!"

"Let go baby."

She squeezed her legs together as she jolted and shook, covering her mouth, dropping the phone in the process

"Baby?" Lindsey called out

Stevie's vision and breathing had been completely knocked off balance, and Lindsey was a little worried he couldn't hear her

"Steph?!" He said a little louder

Stevie suddenly realised she'd dropped the phone, picking it up she held it weakly

"Linds..."

"Are you alright?"

"I can't move..."

"Do I need to call your mother?"

"Lindsey, if she comes into the bathroom and finds me like this!"

"What are we supposed to do?"

"Well you can't do anything, your over five hundred miles away"

"Just relax for a minute."

"My legs feel like jelly" she giggled

"Crawl to bed then."

"I locked the bathroom door..."

"Baby," he laughed, "I don't know what to tell you."

"I'll be alright...you can hang up if your busy" she told him

"I'm not busy, sweetheart." Lindsey chuckled

"You sure? You haven't got some other girlfriend there?" She joked

"Not a chance."

It was quiet for a moment and he heard a small sniff

"Lindsey..." Stevie suddenly sobbed loudly

"What's wrong, Stephanie?"

"I need you..."

"I need you too, I'll be back as soon as I can."

"That's to long" she cried some more

"It's the best I can do, honey."

"I'm coming to you..." she said quickly

"Baby, you can't! Jimmy is still lurking around!"

"I'll be careful, I promise! I'm coming to you!" She begged

"Stephanie...I wouldn't forgive myself if something happened."

"Nothing will happen"

"Please be careful..." she could hear him blow a kiss through the phone

"I will, I promise you!" She blew one back and hung up

Stevie slowly stood up, her legs still trembling and walked into the bedroom

Evie was still asleep, so she started to get some clothes out and place them in a bag

Barbara walked in half asleep, "Tee, where are you going?"

"I'm going to Lindsey"

"Why?"

"Because I miss him"

"Please be careful, Tee. Let Evie stay here."

"I was actually going to ask if you'd look after her"

"Of course."

Stevie went back to packing and Evie woke up

"Mommy?"

"Baby, I'm going to see daddy" she told her daughter

"Can I go?"

"No sweetheart, I can't take you, Jimmy is still around"

"I...I don't want him to hurt me again..."

"What...?" Stevie stopped what she was doing suddenly

"Hurt you? What are you talking about?" Stevie turned to her

"Nothing mommy"

Stevie kneeled down in front of her, "Baby, you need to tell me."

"When we lived with him, and you used to go to work, he used to pull me around by my wrist...and before we left the last time, he hit me round my head..."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"He told me if I told you, he would hurt me worse"

"Baby, i would have protected you! Daddy wouldn't have let anyone hurt you!"

"He hit me because of daddy"

"I won't let him touch you again."

"Mom?!" Stevie shouted

"Yes, Tee?" Barbara walked in

"Can you take Evie with you for a minuet please?"

"Yes," picking the little girl up

Stevie raced to the phone and once more dialed Lindsey's number

"Hello?"!

"Lindsey, Jimmy hit Evie..." she wasted no time

"What?" He gritted

"He hit her round the head...she just told me!"

Stevie immediately heard the dial tone, knowing that Lindsey was on his way to do something terrible to Jimmy.

"No, no, no...he's going to jeopardise David!" She panicked, trying to call again

There was no answer each time she called

Back in California, Jimmy was watching TV on his couch, suddenly he heard a knock on his door

With out thinking he opened the door, being met with Lindsey fist

"What the fuck!" Jimmy held his obviously broken nose

"You hurt Evie!" Lindsey screamed, tackling him to the floor and wailing on him

"So the little brat snitched!" Jimmy chuckled

"You will NOT talk about my daughter like that!"

"Your daughter? I'm pretty sure the last time I checked I put her in Stevie, not you!" Jimmy took a shot and punched Lindsey straight in the face

"I'm more of a father to her than you will ever be!"

"But in the back of your mind you'll always know she's mine"

"And you think that bothers me?"

"What about the new one?" Jimmy smiled

"How do you know about that?"

"Didn't she tell you? She came to me first, thinking it was mine"

"What?"

"She thought the baby was mine, so she came to me" Jimmy knew he had struck gold

"She wouldn't do that. She's not even that far along!"

"Have you asked how far she is?" Lindsey was silent

"I didn't think so" Jimmy added

"The baby isn't yours, and neither is Evie."

"You just can't handle the fact, that you can't get Stevie pregnant can you?

Lindsey completely lost his temper and began to beat Jimmy

"I'm glad you made the most of your son, you won't get him after this!" Lindsey suddenly stopped

"I'm not finished with you," Lindsey said and walked back out the door

Lindsey got back to his apartment and tended to his split knuckles and lip. He was fuming

How could Stevie lie to him?!

He decided he was going to go to bed, his head was swimming .