"Are you feeling the rush?
If so, then I think I know what's going on
And are we falling in love? Say yes or no
Yes or no, yes or no.”
….

“W-what?” I sputter.

“I said I love you, you idiot. Why do you always have to make everything weird?” She facepalms and shakes her head at me.

“Sorry…it was just a bit unexpected,” I say as my hands find themselves behind my neck. I run my palm against the nape of my neck softly as she stares at me.

“I love you too, Star,” I continue and my heart jumps as her face brightens. She advances with her arms open but I gesture for her to stop.

“Actually, there's some things I want to say to you that I've always wanted to say but I never got the chance to because…I kept pushing you away. Ever since the day at the café, when I turned around to look for the person who sang along to the song I was singing with this absolutely magical voice and saw you…I always knew that I'll love you.

“I'm not the kind of person who wants to get close to someone for…different reasons but when I met you that day, something in me moved. I wasn’t supposed to want to hang out with you after that day, I wasn't supposed to see you again. That was the number one rule in my life but there was just something that I didn't understand that was going on. As much as I knew that I wasn't supposed to see you again I couldn't just let you go.”

I take a deep breath before I go on and stick my hands in my pocket as Star watches me intently.

“I love hanging out with you. I'd say this in the simplest of ways, you make me happy. Anytime I get to hang out with you, I forget how unhappy I am and it's like for a moment everything is gonna be alright. You're an amazing girl. You're beautiful, smart, talented, kind, funny, brave, unique and most importantly you're very very stubborn.”

She laughs heartily and fake swats my arm.
“You know I'm glad you pointed that one out,” she says and I can see tears shimmering in her eyes.

“Of course, it's your most endearing quality.”

She smiles at me. “I feel the same way about you Jordan.” My heart warms. “Just replace the stubborn with annoyingness.”

I chuckle and shake my head at her. She steps forward and I open up my arms for an embrace but I'm surprised when I feel her soft, warm lips on mine.

My brain shuts off for a split second and I lose control of my entire body in that split second as I try to process what's going on.

Holy fuck, she's kissing me. We're kissing.

I suddenly get control back and I can now notice how hard my heart is pounding against my chest and how my senses have completely gone hay wire.

My hands suddenly develop a mind of their own and snakes under her sweatshirt. My thumb runs along the surface of the skin of her waist in an up and down motion as my lips move against hers with such an intensity and she trembles lightly.

In response to that her fingers pull on my hair gently but in a manner that I find so pleasing. My grip on her waist tightens and she pulls away from me, her fingers slowly leaving my probably messed up hair. I pull her back to me instinctively and our lips connect almost immediately.

The feeling of her lips against mine is so blissful. I can't seem to stop, I don't want to stop. I've always wanted to do this for a really long time and now that I get to do it, I'm gonna do it like it's going to be the last time.

Oh shit, I can't breathe.

I tilt my head to the side and deepen the kiss, my lips moving against hers harder and more passionately.

My eyes flutter open and we finally pull away when I sense that we both can't breathe. We pull away from each other entirely, our hands that were once roaming each other’s body now hanging idly, not really knowing where to be.

“Woah…” she murmurs as she runs her hands through her tangled hair.

We stand there, our chests heaving. We're staring at each other and she's staring at me in a way that makes me want to pull her in again but I refrain myself.

“You're such a good kisser,” she says and I can see the blush creeping up her cheeks.

I shrug. “I knew you wanted these cute lips after all.”

She laughs at the joke and rolls her eyes.
I'm just standing there not really knowing what to say or do. I don't want to leave yet. Not yet. But I know that I can't stand here doing nothing forever.

“Um, so…you should go,” she tells me and I give her a knowing smile. “I wouldn't want my aunt or uncle to come out here and start asking questions.”

“Right,” I say with a chuckle, still giddy. The feeling of euphoria that lasted throughout the kiss still hadn't particularly left me and the racing in my heart hasn't gone down much.

“Yeah, so I'll see you later?”

“Of course. See ya.” I give her a gentle smile alongside my salute and grip the handles of my backpack before walking off.

As I walk home, still reeling from everything, I make up my mind that I would never ever think twice about doing or having what I want and what makes me happy. I won't think about what could go wrong or what people will think.

I get to do this only once and no matter what I do I can't really change whatever’s going to happen so while I'm alive, I might as well just do what makes me happy.