I cannot sit in silence
These voices won't leave me
They eat me

D

estroy me

Why is it so difficult to write these words

I can't find the right words

Please

Words are not good enough
I

wish I could show you
But I can't

I won't

I cannot do that to you

Put you through my misery

They won't leave me

Stay lurking there in the shadows
W

ait for me

Patiently

They won't let me sleep
L

et me eat
Let me be

Am I not good enough?

Why am I not good enough?
Why do I have to pretend?
Why don't I meet your expectations?

I know you wish for another

Trust me

I do too
I

don't like me as well

What's new?

Such a pity to need validation
P

athetic
Hypocrite
I'm just not good enough

Far from it

Do I have a purpose?

Give me one
A

t least then I will want to survive.

Let me die

This crushing feeling won't go away
I

t presses down

Down so hard

'til i can't breathe no more
'

til i can't feel no more

I crumble

Like a lost cause
L

ike a flower withering
Like waves crashing

I hear the crickets sound

I hear those screeching howls

I can hear the stars glowing

I can see the wind flowing

I feel the lone tear drop fall

Down