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49.) "I actually thought you were different." "I am different." "How." "I'm not leaving you."

TW: Lin pulling an Alexander

None of my relationships ever worked out. It usually ended up like this.

My old boyfriend Dean broke up with me because another women caught his eye and he was extremely honest with how pretty she was and how I wasn't.

"Y/N I'm sorry I'm breaking up with you."

"What why."

"There's this girl, Veronica. She is honestly really pretty."

"And I'm not!"

"Sorry but yeah."

Yeah that was my first breakup and it didn't end well. I trapped myself in my room for five months. My next breakup was handled better.

Tim broke up with me because he was moving out with another women. It's always other women.

"Y/N did you get all the boxes down."

"Yeah."

"Why aren't they down here."

"When you said down I thought throw them down the window. There on the side of the sidewalk, probably stolen if they aren't there."

"Crazy bitch."

"Thanks for the compliment."

My now boyfriend Max is abusive, a alcoholic, drug addict, and he acts so possessive. Today he dragged me out of the house to a coffee shop. He sat me, or more like shoved me into a seat. He beat me so much one touch can leave a bruise.

"Your not getting anything." He told me. When he went to get the coffee and man showed up in the cafe. He had really pretty eyes, but he looked sleep deprived. His brown hair was in a messy ponytail. He had a gray sweatshirt on and saggy jeans. My thoughts were cut off by my stomach grumbling. I haven't eaten in a couple of months. It's been almost a full year and I haven't eaten anything. If I even tried sneaking a crumb I would get beaten then raped. Yes raped. Out of the corner of my eye I saw the same man walking towards me. He tapped me in the shoulder.

"Excuse me Miss, can I sit here." He gestured to the seat next to me. I nod slowly. I'm still looking down at my lap, my hands were still trembling from the beating I got his morning. Then a memory out showed up in my head. Max used to invite guys to our house and make me pleasure them. They were married men. They were married, drunk men. They were married, drunk, very horny men with children. If I made one wrong move I get beaten. That's what happened this morning. Turns out I didn't pleasure one of the guys last night. Yes one of the guys. There was like ten people there at a time. I felt tears rolling down my cheeks. Once my warm tears hit my bruised cheek I winced.

"Hey are you ok." The man whispered. I nod a little bit start shaking my head. He lifts my chin and removes the strand of hair covering my eye. Once he sees my face he gasps. This is what usually happens. Watch he's gonna leave. I thought. He just stares at me then embraces me. I have never had affection like this in all my life. He let me cry into his shoulder.

"I know this a little weird. You don't even know my name. I'm Lin Manuel-Miranda." He whispers. A smile tugs at my lips. I haven't smiled in months. This is the best thing I've ever experienced. We just sit there embraced in each other's arms.

"Do you want to go outside and talk...." he asked waiting for my name. I pull away.

"I'm Y/N and yes please." He stands up and takes my hand and pulls me outside.

"So Y/N are you ok." He asked. He touches my arm and wince loudly. "Oh I'm sorry I never meant to hurt you." I shake my head.

"It's ok. I'm used to getting hurt." I whispered. He looked at me with pity and sorrow. "I know an abused girl shouldn't be part of your problems. I'll leave now." He shakes his head vigorously.

"No it's fine. Who ever abuses you should be fined with hurting such a beautiful creation." I blush lightly, I noticed so does he.

"Um, my boyfriend Max, he's been with me for 9 months. A-at first h-he wa-was amazing but that only lasted for two days. He pays men to have sex with me against my will. I never wanted to pleasure those men. I never wanted to be a home wrecker. He hurts me if I do something wrong. If I try stealing food or even try to drink water I get beaten then- then..." I stop. He looks at me with concern filling his eyes. His beautiful brown eyes. Tears have started flowing again.

"You don't have to continue."

"I want to." I pause for air. "He rapes me. He only uses me for pleasure. It's even worse when he's high or drunk. I'm scared." He embraces me again. I wince quietly at his arms touching mine. I wish I could stay like this. I don't want to go home.

"Y/N WHO THE F*UCK IS THIS!" Lin is pulled off me. Max pushed me to the ground, anger filled his eyes. "Your in for it when you get home." He grabs my hair and try's to pull me with him, but a sudden force pulled me into them. I was gently placed on the ground. I watched Lin run over to Max and pound him in the stomach knocking the air out of Max. He ran back to me.

"Y/N let's get away from here." He gently grabbed my trembling hand. When he pulled me up I almost fell back down. Lin picked me up and placed me in the backseat of his car.
"What is your address. Your picking up your stuff and moving with me." He says loudly. I jump back at his outburst. "Oh Y/N no I'm sorry. I'm just really angry at the prick." I smile softly.

"It's ok. It's the Guardian Apartment Complex. It's the first building."

Once we arrive at my apartment I get my clothes, which isn't many. My family photo, my last thing of them. My locket my grandma gave me and a couple of dollars. I also took a couple of Max's food. I stuff it all in my backpack and run out the door like Max was standing right in front of me. When Lin sees the backpack on me he's shocked.

"That's all you got." I sit next in the passenger seat.

"Yeah."

"I can buy you something's before we go to my house." I sigh.

"No it's ok for now."

"Ok just tell me if you need anything. My house is two hours away from here so it will be long." I nod. When he starts driving he puts on musicals. One song comes on, Times are Hard for Dreamers. I was trying so hard not to sing along with Phillipa and Lin but it didn't work.

"They say times are hard for dreamers but who knows maybe they are..." I sing quietly. The song suddenly shuts off. Lin looks at me with awe.

"Your voice is so beautiful." He says, he looks almost speechless. I only said one line and he's already in awe of me. What is this man doing to me.

"Thank you." I whisper then blush darker than I already was.

"Not as beautiful as you." He breaths.

"What was that." He snaps his head at me and answers immediately.

"N-nothing." He stutters. I giggle.

"Ok." I lean my head in the side of the car and drift of to sleep.

LIN P.O.V

I look over at Y/N who is peacefully sleeping. Her hair isn't blocking all those beautiful features of her that makes me fall for her even more. We just met and I think I'm in love. I look back at the road and all I can think about is her eyes. Those beautiful, E/C eyes. I can't believe such a sweet innocent girl like Y/N can put up for a prick who doesn't let her eat that long. Almost suddenly we are at my house.

Y/N P.O.V

"Your a bitch you know that." Max throw as me into a wall. I start full on sobbing.

"Please, stop." I choke out. He chuckles mischievously over me.

"Now it's gonna be really bad whore." I slammed onto a bed.

"Y/N!" Is being screamed all over. One final Y/N wakes me up.

I look up, my heart pounding, tears running down my face. I look at Lin and he looks like he was crying.

"L-Lin. Are you ok." He nods. "Did I make you cry." He shakes his head vigorously. He leans in and embraces me.

"No Y/N it wasn't you. I promise I'm never going to hurt you ever." He whispered.

A Couple Days Later

I shoot out of my bed, I screamed about before falling back into my soaked pillow cover. These damn nightmares can't and won't leave me alone. My door slams open and the lights flicker on. Lin is standing in the doorway and when he sees I'm awake he jumps on the bed, cradling me in his arms. He pulls me into his chest.

"Is it the nightmares again." I nod. He squeezes my waist tighter causing me to let out another sob. He instantly let's go of my waist seeing my pain. "I'm sorry Y/N I don't mean to hurt you." His voice cracks at the last sentence. Soon he starts crying a little. I hug him. When we pull away I look down in embarrassment. This happens every night, I'm sick of it. Lin lifts my chin and moves a piece of hair away from my eye. He leans in slowly an places a soft kiss on my lips. I was hesitant to respond but instantly felt at peace. I snaked my arms around his neck. His hand roamed my hair. I move my hand to his chest, he moves his hands to my waist and pulls me closer. When we pull away he jumps out of the bed and turns off the light. He climbs back in bed with me and lays me down. He quickly pecks the corner off my mouth before we both fell asleep.

Three Years Later

Another stressful day at work is all I need. Lin and I have been happily married for two year as but recently he's been really distant with me. So now I'm stressed and my husband doesn't care about me. I open my door rather aggressively then see heels on the ground. I see a bra and underwear also spread on the ground. I walk into my bedroom to see Lin and another girl in our bed. They were sleeping. Thank god I didn't wake them up. I guess Lin starts the list of ex- husbands. I knew he was to good to be true. Once I saw that scene I chuckled lightly. It's really funny how I thought he loved me. How do I know, Lin was sleeping with a smile with his arms wrapped around that brown haired dark skinned women. I wrote Lin a note.

My dearest, Lin,
         You never did keep your promise of never hurting me. I will do you and your mistress a favor and leave. I can't believe I thought you were different. Goodbye Lin Manuel- Miranda. I hope life serves you well. I will drop off the divorce papers tonight to do us both a favor.
          Love, Y/N

I grabbed my purse and ran out the door.

LIN P.O.V

I woke up next to Jasmine. I can't believe I keep doing this. I hop off the bed.

"Lin, baby what's wrong." She whispers.

"I can't keep doing this to Y/N." She grabbed my collar.

"Stay.." She sang. I pushed her off me.

"That doesn't work. Get put of my house." She wraps her robe around her naked body.

"Fine but I know your gonna want be back." She walked out of the room and I heard the front door slam. I left the bedroom when she left. I saw a note on the fridge in Y/Ns hand writing.

My dearest, Lin,
         You never did keep your promise of never hurting me. I will do you and your mistress a favor and leave. I can't believe I thought you were different. Goodbye Lin Manuel- Miranda. I hope life serves you well. I will drop off the divorce papers tonight to do us both a favor.
          Love, Y/N

I read that note over and over. She left, she found out.

Oh shit.

I start crying that all the ink on the paper mix together. Now it's just a black stain. I grab my keys.

I need to find my precious angel of a wife.

Y/N P.O.V

I got it the cafe me and Lin first met at. I sit at the table that we first talked at. Why am I here if this reminds me all of him, I don't know. I know he cheated but I still love him. I love him with all my heart. I feel arms wrap around me.

"Y/N dear, oh thank GOD I found you." I realize that voice, it's Lin. I push away from his embrace. I run outside but Lin catches me before I can run across the street.

"Let go Lin." He embraces me. I try to fight it but end up stopping it.

"I thought you left forever." He whispers.

"I wanted to."

"Why."

"I actually thought you were different." I yell, it hurts my throats because I started crying a bit. I turn around to face him.

"I am different." He says getting closer.

"How." I sass. This man will be he death of me.

"I'm not leaving you." He embraces me again. He not gonna leave,

HES NOT GONNA LEAVE.

That's never happened before. I'm happy about it. Nobody wanted to forgive me ever. All that matters is me and Lin and no one else.

"Lin..."  He cuts me off.

"Y/N I never meant to hurt you."

"Lin..."

"I love you with all my heart. I don't want to get a divorce."

"Lin..."

"Please come back..." He keeps rambling on so the only way to shut him up was smashing my lips into his. He didn't take any time to respond. I pull away.

"Please come home." I smile.

"Of course."

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