AJ

I started to put up my basketball gear. Placing it it in my bag. I looked at my phone and noticed the missed call and voicemail from Sam.

"Babe I know your in practice but I went to Jaya's house and...just come to the hospital off the avenue when you finish,"She cried.

Shit.I replayed the voicemail 8 times before I actually moved to go. Since I didn't drive to school, I would have to catch a ride with my mama.

Walking to her office I noticed how she was packing shit up and was getting ready to leave.

"Mama can you-"

"Hurry and get in the car Avery,"She simply said.

Running to the car I started it up and got in. This shit was crazy man. How in the hell did J get in the hospital?

My mama sped down the two way road until we finally got there. Leaving my phone and shit in the car I went inside.

Sam was standing crying beside Ms.Croelan. I grabbed her and hugged her. She continued to sob.

"Ma' what's happened?"I asked her.

"I went to her house like you told me to...uh the lights were off and I f-ou-found her cut and us-i-using cocaine,"She cried.

Damn man. I would never see J doing that, ocaine especially. I just wonder why though.

"Family of Jaya Croelan?"The nurse said.

They had to be here for a little while. Sam said as soon as she got out of school and it was 7 going on 8.

"That's us,"Ms.Croelan said.

Ty (QUICK BACKSTORY: Jy, one of AJ's sisters, is Ty's daughter, which makes Jaya and Jy step-sisters.) as well as his daughter Jasmine were here. I loved that little girl. She was cool and everything thought of her as my sibling. We got this big ass happy family. Shit we might as well be the next generation. Family messed the hell up.

"Well Jaya is doing fine. We had a chance to flush the drugs out of her system. We bandaged her cuts. She's one lucky girl we lost her but she came back,"The nurse said.

Sam cried in my arms. Ms.Croelan just stared. Ty held Jasmine and my mama shook the nurse hand.

"Can we see her?"My mama asked.

"Of course, only 4 people at a time though. It's room 246. Make a left and go straight and it's at the end to your right.

"You four can go, Sam and I will visit in a minute,"I said.

Damn everybody was a hysterical wreck. They left us alone and I put Sam in a waiting chair. She just continued to cry.

"Why would she do this AJ? I can't believe it,"Sam cried.

I rubbed her head, "Babe shit changes in people, and you ca-"

"Where she at bro?"B shouted walking into the hospital.

"Man her mama and Ty visiting her. Give them time we get to go in a minute."

He was pissed as fuck. I mean I was too, but you shouldn't be furious. These things we can't control.
About 15 minutes later Ms.Croelan, Jasmine, my mama, and Ty came out and let us go in.

The walk down the hallway was dead silent. No one said anything probably cause we were all scared as shit. I opened the door too the room and saw Jaya sitting there crying. Sam ran in and hugged her.

"I love you,"Sam said.

"Thank you for being here for me you guys. I've been going through so much an-"

"WHY THE FUCK YOU OUT HERE TRYING TO KILL YOURSELF JAYA?"B yelled.

I sucked my teeth. Sam looked at him.

"Brian this is not the time to scream and yell at her,"Sam calmly said.

"Man you wouldn't know shit! She can't be out here trying to commit suicide! Why the fuck you doing this shit?"He calm down just a little.

"Brian I'm o-"

"Nah that ain't what I want to hear! Why the fuck you trying to kill yourself b-"

"It's time for you to go buddy,"I said.

I grabbed his arm and dragged him out of the room.

"Is you out of your mind? This is a lady we are talking about!"I shouted.

"Man fuck this shit! You don't know what the hell going on."

"On some real shit man, she did it because of you. This abusive ass relationship you holding with her ain't doing shit but weakening her. Sam told her to let you go and she said no. You got a true rider, but keep treating her like shit and you won't have nothing! That girl love you for real and you call her all types of names. Would you say that shit to yo mama? Would you call your mother a hoe, bitch, slut, trick? I don't think so. Man straighten it up for real. Until then stay away from her,"I said. He looked at me with angry eyes like did you really just say that. "Bye Brian."

I walked back into the room and Jaya was crying along with Sam. Emotional girls, but they my girls so I don't mind.

"I have something to tell y'all,"Jaya said.

"What happened?"We asked.

"Truth is, Brian gave me the cocaine. He said it was good, and I tried it and it was. I found out I was pregnant with his baby, and he told me to kill myself,"Jaya cried.

I clenched my fist, "This son of a fucking bitch."

I stood up. I popped my knuckles, and was about to walk out the door before Jaya called me back.

"Please don't for the baby sake, can you guys leave so I can have a moment alone with him?"Jaya asked.

"Hell no,"Sam and I said.

Jaya pleaded with us until I finally gave in. Sure enough B was outside the door waiting for us. I grabbed him by his shirt and pulled him up.

"Try some shit like this again. Crippled or not I will kill yo ass,"I gritted.

Throwing him on the ground I continued down the hall way.

Fuck everything man.

JAYA

"Baby I'm sorry-"

"Brian, I want to forgive you but...you told me to kill myself. Do you know how hurt I am? I would do anything for you."

This relationship with me and Brian isn't always the best. There is times where we have the best of the world and then the times the world fell on my shoulders.

Brian is probably one of the coolest guys I know. He just seems to change so much within a short period of time.

"Jaya I don't know what to say! You know I love you its just being raised with a abusive father and I can't c-"

"You made me become a addict to cocaine at 16. You made me a mother at the age of 16. I don't understand how that's love,"I cried into my arms.

He pulled me in for a hug.

"Whatever happens I'm going to be here to help you and the baby. Don't give up on me, and I won't give up on you."

"To late the baby is gone,"I pushed him off of me and hit him with the machine beside me.

This felt so great. Revenge for everything.

"Don't hit me up either, get the fuck out!"I shouted.

He coughed and nodded leaving.

At least he gon.

SAM

Today was another day at school. My day was already not going great. No good morning text from Bae. No smell of breakfast. No morning sunshine.

Everything was filled with stupid shit. Like I wake up to rain, the smell of burning bacon, and no text from AJ.

Although I did get a text from my best friend. Thank god.

From:Bes Fran❤️❤️
Received at:6:39 am

Get cho ass up 👆🏾and don't worry about me😒 love you bestie❤️

I smiled widely and decided this day would only be how I said it would be.

So positive words. Positive words.

Getting in the shower, I let the hot water run down my body. Thoughts just ran through my head. How would you feel it your best friend tried to commit suicide because of a nigga? I mean we all know already.

Even her mama know. I mean we all literally all know. It's so sad because she always takes up for him.

She was constantly taking up for him. She always said he just needs some help. He does but not from my J.

I got out the shower and did some more hygiene and put on my clothes. I put on my white ripped jeans and a pink sweatshirt, along with my pink timb's. AJ bought me these timbs.I clipped his gold chain that I borrowed/stole.

I threw on my backpack and threw my hair in a half bun and some hair down.

With that I was out the door. I took my granny car to get some Starbucks because I seriously needed it.

"I been popping like a 40
In the story baby
Your body on my body baby,"I sung.

I pulled up at the drive through and placed my order for a iced coffee. It was actually pretty good too. Once there I pulled off.

"THE HOTLIGHT!"I shouted.

I pulled into Krispy creme and got 2 dozen donuts. For me of course not anyone else hell. I arrived at school and took my box of donuts, coffee, and backpack inside. Taking the shit out of my locker I walked to first period.

"Sam,"Mrs.Smith said.

I turned around and noticed her. She had a eyebrow raised at my dozen donuts.

"Oh girl I ain't forget about you,"I said.

Handing her a box of donuts. She laughed and shook her head.

"Sam, your late the bell ring 15 minutes ago."

I turned around and saw the whole class laughing at me. I wasn't mad at them. I was mad I was late.

"I'm sorry Ms.Kugler I had lost track of time at kr-"

"You know you have detention Samantha."

I snatched my donuts back and walked back to my seat. The assignment was on the board so I wasn't tripping.

Reading Aj's little article made me easily write a paper on Mrs.Smith. Even though I was mad as shit I still wrote the paper.

Once then I realized we had to write about our worst memory. Well let's start.

February 1st
Street side

Dear diary,
This is a touchy subject for me but why not get it over with. When I was younger my father died and everything .Leaving just my mother and I.
Well money was tight so we ended up at my dad's friends house. I call him uncle because that is what he is to me. Everything started going good until my mom started catching some feelings for him. It was one thing holding him back and I can't say what it is but I promise to tell you later.
One day I came home from school and saw my uncle with his hands around my mother's neck. Strangling her half to death. Something took over me on that day being only 10 years old I couldn't do much. I did manage to get his hands off her neck though. I blacked out and that was my worst memory, seeing I almost lost my other parent.

Until next time...

~Sam

Tears streamed down my eyes. It's a touchy subject and only one person knows about it. Yes that would be my best friend.

Looking around I noticed I was the only one finished. I arrived 15 minutes late and I finished first. Taking out my phone I put my head in my book and just started to listen to my music which calmed me down.

Lord be by my side.

AJ

I looked at Sam as she walked past me in the hallway. She didn't even come eat lunch with me.

Ya boy was swagged out just for her. I had on my 'Fuck the police' shirt, some black jeans, black timb's, hell even had on a belt, had a bandana in one of my belt loops.

Gun was in my car because school ain't expelling me, Which I drove my car to school yes .Just so I could pick her up and take her to the drive in movie they having tonight.

To:Bae❤️
Sent at:Feb 1st,12:34pm,2016

Ma' you good? I haven't heard from you all day man. Text a nigga back. I wanna take you somewhere after school.

Put my phone back in my pocket and walked to my next class man. I'm done with this shit.

Last class period...

"AJ detention,"Mrs.Smith said.

I woke up startled. The fuck I fell asleep.

"Oh I'm sorry Ms.Kugler,"I said sitting up.

Well there goes my day. Placing my books on my desk I started to write about Mrs.Smith. It was pretty easy though since I knew her personally. Once done I started my worst memory ever. Shit this bought to go bad.

Feb 1st
Worst memory

Journal,
Man my worst memory is shit. I mean I'm scarred for damn life with this shit on my chest. Well let me get to the story.
Bout two,almost three years ago my best friend had gotten hit by a car.  All in front of me man. We were playing and shit and the car came and ran him over without hesitation. Then the same shit happened to my younger cousin. Experiencing that shit more that once hurt like hell. The slim chance of B living and the death of my younger cousin hurt my heart. Needless to say I was scarred. Walking in the road scares the shit out of me.
I know it ain't a good story but it ain't supposed to be.

-AJ

I closed the notebook and noticed I had a FaceTime call from Sam. I picked it up and saw her drinking water.

"Sam,"I said

The class was already loud so no point in whispering.

"Babe tell coach that I need to rest,"She shouted.

She did look rough. Her hair was started to get bad so may need a blowout. She was sweating like crazy.
Coach worked that ass out.

I sucked my teeth "Babe you got 20 more mi-"

"Hell no! Mr.Coach!"She shouted.

"Sam."

"Yes, um, I'm going to sit out the rest of this tim-"

"Carver, you know how I feel about phones out during class,"He held out his hand.

She shook her head violently.

"Hell no! You don't pay the bill. When I see you pay my phone bill you ca-"

"Back in the day we di-"

"OK I GET IT YOU OLD NIGGA! Damn."

I busted out laughing. Sam gon get her ass beat.

"Carver I would ha-"

"Already got detention. Now I'm going to sit my petite ass right here and wait until class is over.Give me a damn zero. I give this many fucks,"She held up the middle finger and coach stomped off.

"Sam you ca-"

"Bye AJ"

She hung up the phone.

Welp.