-october fourteenth

"i think you should stop chasing him."

"but he's been a little nicer to me."

taehyung sighed, turning off the television screen showing some parody of a scary movie.

"that's sad, jimin."

"you say that as if it was equivalent to someone making you handmade cookies, or buying you roses, or something."

"people are nicer to strangers than jungkook is to you on a good day."

"but it's progress-"

"it's not."

"why can't you just get over it?"

because he's the first person i've ever fell in love with.

"if i told you a secret, would you maybe consider getting over him?"

"what?"

why would something like that make me get over jungkook?

"there's someone who really likes you."

"someone who would actually selflessly love you if you gave them the chance."

"who?"

whoever it is, i'm thankful.

yet, i'm also sorry.

because i'll never feel the same way.

"namjoon."

"he likes me?"

why me?

"a lot."

"at least give him a chance?"

"i'm really worried about what this crush is doing to you."

"namjoon would be good for you, jimin."

"alright, i'll give him a chance."

but my heart is already reserved.

reserved for a person who may possibly never claim it.

but i'll wait.

until i can't wait anymore.

-october fourteenth