I have started so many projects yet never finish them. I blame time but that is only an excuse. I get so excited when new ideas come to mind but they slip away before I can finish them or even start them.

I get on this train called life hoping to get somewhere but end up in this endless loop. Weather it be for my books, games, and even relationships.

I have lost so much. I have lost people I thought to be my friends. Those that I thought would be there with me til the end. This has brought on a fear that I don't think will ever mend. My heart has been broke and tears shed, more than anyone can comprehend.

Yes, these things have made me strong yet it is all in the wrong ways. I have seen these people change and leave, which is leaving me alone and sad.

I hate when people leave, and always think it is because of me. Due to this fear, I can't comprehend. I don't want them to leave, I don't want them to hate me.

I don't mean to be a bother. I don't mean to seem rude. But I can not help when I get attached. I warn people what happens and how I act. They say they don't mind or can handle it, but here is the facts.

My fear of their leaving becomes a reality. When they realize they can't.