" I love you " { delete }

"Did you ever love me ?" { delete }

" was I just somebody you used to make yourself feel better " { delete }

well here's me making you feel better about yourself;
you're the most amazing person I've met in my life,
nobody could ever take your place.
I love you more than words can say { delete }

Yeah you fucked me over,
but I still think you're great,
I don't know if that says more about me or you,
I don't know if that makes me pathetic or kindhearted
I always saw the good in you { delete }

I know,
I didn't always act like you were important to me,
I'm sorry for that,
I'm sorry that I didn't shove it down your throat every god damn day that you were worth everything to me;
I'm sorry I held your mistakes against you.
I'm sorry that I didn't realize that you were struggling too { delete }

You're still the first person I want to tell everything to,
like did you hear who our ex-friend is hooking up with ?
Did you see her Instagram update ?
Did you see the car crash on road 23, { delete }

I know I said I'd leave but I really meant I'll be waiting for you to come back.
My friends said it's not permanent;
I can go back -
whenever I want, I know I can,
but I left for a reason,
it hurts so much that you don't want me back { delete }

I keep thinking that I can convince you to chose me, who wouldn't want someone that loves them this much ?
I want to shower you in so many compliments just so you realize what you lost, { delete }

But I also want you to know you're special,
I want you to know that somebody loves you,
even if they're far away,
I want you to know that you made my life better { delete }

But then I think,
where's my " I love you ",
where's my " thank you for existing "
where's my " you're special "
and
" I appreciate you "
and my " you're important to me "
why don't you value me ? { delete }

You told me that you'd always answer my texts messages,
probably even when you're asleep,
I can't believe someone so god damn perfect can do something so fucking ugly { delete }