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.....Some hours before........

Erina's POV

I am eating pieces of apple and reading a book. Today the result is suppose to be out. I didn't went there because I know mine will be good and I can collect it from online. But Eisha went to university with one of our friend who asked her to have coffee after that so they went to collect it.

I am enjoying but also having an uncomfortable and unknown feeling. But I shrugged it off and continued reading.

Wait what if Eisha's result doesn't comes out well then.......

Eh! that weirdo will still be here with her weirdness. I'm just over thinking.

Suddenly my phone buzzed as I ignored it and kept on reading. And the phone went silent. But it buzzed again as I irritatedly break my concentration from the book and received the call.

............

I'm running. Running, leaving everything. Without caring. I'm keep on running with my terrified, shocked, Trembling figure. The words from that keep on echoing on my ears only even though there are so many sounds of people talking, sirens of cars, etc.

.....some minutes ago....

[On the phone]

Unknown:
"Excuse me! Am I
Talking to miss Eisha's
Guardian?"

Erina:
"Yes ?"

Unknown:
"Please come
immediately at
The university miss
The girl just met with
Accident."

Erina:
"What!?!?!?"

Unknown:
"Yes please come here
We have informed the
Ambulance they will arrive
Soon. Do you need address
Or you know it?"

Erina:
"O-oh alright I'm
c-coming.
I kn-know the
A-address."

[End of the call]

.......Present.......

What have you done bitch? I hope this was a fake news!?!

I reached the place as I noticed a lot of people around and my heart started beating so fast. I started running again bumping with so many people, without caring I reached near the ambulance and passed the crowd pushing them aside I came in front to see Eisha's Body on the ground,

Laying

Bloods are soozing out

My hands immediately pulled towards my mouth covering it. I cried. I ran towards her body crying loudly holding her body tightly. I covered her in my arms. But Suddenly some people held me. I don't know who are they. I just know this is painful.

"Leave me! Let me go near her."I shouted and tried to jerk out of their hold.

" Miss please hold on yourself. She will be fine let the ambulance take her."

Then the hospital's people held the body and dragged it to the hospital. I wanted to go with them but they didn't allowed me because of my broken state.

"Aaaaaaahhh Eishaaaaaahh! How did these all happened?!?!?" I started banging my hands on the floor.

"Calm down please! Let's go and follow her." Suddenly a voice called me and I realize the person who was around me for this long.

Saewan.

"Yeah please! Take me to the hospital."I said in my crying state.

Then by his cycle. We rushed to the hospital and after reaching their I got out from the cycle and immediately ran inside. They followed me.

I ran, Ran towards the receptionist as she informed me where the body is taken. I reached there but until that the body was already taken inside. I let go all my hold on my body as it fell on the floor. I sat crying hard.

What was this? How did this happened? Why did this happened?

My mind just filled with negative thoughts. I just can't digest the fact that she just met with an accident. I should be positive. But still this doesn't feels right. How did this even happened?

Then I noticed Saewan and Rayan rushing towards me. I looked uptowards them and their eyes are wet, red and fluffy too.

Both of them sat in both sides of me. I covered my face on my palms wiping the tears. And looked at them again.

Suddenly Saewan hugged me. Whispering postive words, rubbing my Back as Rayan also hugged us. We all burst out together.

This was surprising but maybe crying your pain together makes you feel less hurt, less suffering. I felt warm and somehow as if I'm not alone in this terrible situation. We pulled out and wiped our tears and held our hands.

..........

Mom called and comforted me. Uncle and Dad asked how did this happened. But I couldn't answer them properly. Then the doctor also came out and asked for donating blood because the patient released a lot of blood. I wanted to give because from early age I have donated her even though it was for the one time when she had her dengue fever. But the doctor refused as my condition is already weak and this will cause me to get more weak. So Rayan's blood group matched as he donated. Time passed by and I started feeling dizzy. I felt my eyes getting heavy and without realizing I dozed off.

Author's POV

Erina dozed off on Saewan's shoulder. And he let him rest a while. Then a police cop arrived there and asked for Eisha's guardians.

"We need to investigate somethings." The lady cop said.

" what us there to investigate about? Ma'am?" Rayan asked standing up.

"We aren't yet sure this is an accident or suicide"

"What? How come it can be a suicide?"

" that will be clear after having a conversation with her guardian and herself too." The lady cop said pointing towards Erina and the Operation theater of Eisha too.

Rayan looked at Saewan as they remained a little silent because after all who knows them properly. Even though they can't believe Eisha attempting suicide but still how much they even know her?

"Well she knows her(Eisha) better than us so I guess we can't help you." Rayan said.

"Yeah! Fine Then let me know if she wakes up." she said and left as the boys nodded.

After so long Erina woke up to find herself laying her head on Saewan's shoulder as the boy is also sitting with his eyes closed. Erina remembered all the things and again burst out crying. Saewan woke up and immediately hugged to calm her down.

"Why these all happened Saewan? Why that bitch is like this!?"

"Its alright! Be positive Erina she will be all fine. Don't worry!" They pulled and wiped their eyes.

The doctor came out and informed them that the patient is fine now. She had lose so much blood and hurt her head. It took time for her treatment and she will stay senseless for some time but they can't say it properly when she will be awake.

They got allowed to go inside the room. They encircled her bed as both had crying messed face. Her head is bandaged, face is pale.

"How pale her face looks!" Saewan said as Erina again burst with tears making other 2 to hold her.

They were looking at her as the nurse asked for some medicines to buy. As Rayan excused himself to buy them and Saewan went to buy some food for them.

Erina sat on a chair near the bed and kept on crying.

They are like sisters from their diaper days. Losing each other is hard. Erina was always had a possessiveness for Eisha. After realizing this girl don't have mom, she started being protective. Anything happens to the girl makes her feel the worst and guilt. It is making her lonely after seeing her like this. She is only wishing her to wake up quickly and get healthy in a snap of finger.

She suddenly noticed her belongings on the side table so she absent mindedly opened it and found the file of her result. She opened it to know her result and she was taken a back by seeing her marks were really worst. She also found an application where contained suggestion of the faculty to change her major.

"How can her exam go this worst man! She studied really hard." She looked at the resting body.

She gulped a huge lump as she got a negetive thought.

Could this be a suicide attempt?

"Aye! No no this can't be stop Erina! Be strong! You have to be strong for your sista!"

She mumbles and held Eisha's palms on hers.

Eisha attempting suicide is unpredictable for Erina because her nature is not so weak nor depressed. She is so bubbly and strong inside. She is a little naive to understand the curse people gives under their breath. She can't attempt such thing more huge loss she have face but still she is doing good in her life then why now? Will she do it?

Suddenly an envelope slides down the file as Erina picked it up. Her eyes widen to see that. Now here doubts came to a 90% confirmed conclusion.

..........

Eisha woke up as her eyes lips all are pale. She looks sick and tired. Her father and Erina's family together came to visit her. Her father nagged a lot to take her home and make her rest a while at hometown and get back after the summer vacation. She and everyone refused and her family left for home.

The cops investigated about the situation and all. She replied that as an accident. An accident caused by falling from the 2nd floor of the building. She was standing beside the railing and slipped to fall on the ground. The cops trusted her.

The whole time after waking up she stayed quiet, just response. And voice is so low, so tired. There is a straight face with no emotions or expressions. That sort of upsets everyone that the bubbly bubble is not that bubbly anymore. No one dares to go on a deep conversation to give her cheering nature back to her. Her silence scares them.

2 days later......

Eisha is getting better but her head pains is still there as she hurted her knee bones with ankles too. Those are healing but not her silence, her scary silence. Saewan and Rayan after their classes stays beside them. Heizel and lily also helps Erina a lot with the necessary works.

"Here is the last one!" Erina said and fed her the last spoon of soup.

The soup which Eisha hates and disturbs a lot while eating, behaves like a stubborn kid to avoid it. Only Erina knows how many hit she got from her dad. But that childish ass suddenly stopped complaining and eating it silently.

"Was it good?" She asked her (Eisha) smilingly.

"Hm" she responded and later down as Erina just let out a sigh.

"Fine get some sleep!"

"Erina! Her these medicines are finish." Rayan said holding the empty packets.

"Oh umm could you get that for her?" She asked.

"Yeah sure!"

"Hey dude wait lemme come help you. We will bring some snacks too!"

"Okay." Saewan and Rayan left.

And they left.

Erina looked at Eisha. She sighed and decided to read a book. But then Eisha got up of her bed.

"What happened?! You need something?" Erina asked.

"No i wanna have a walk outside."

"Oh you will be alright?" Eisha nodded and left.

..........

Eisha's POV

I came out at the back yard of the hospital, kind of garden like place. I walked and walked to feel better but the more I breathe it feels heavy.

Why did u survived? I was about to escape. I was about to escape all these at last. But my bad luck!

Yes! I tried suicide. I was tired. I don't want to be any surgeon. I don't want to. Will this make me someone so low? I can't do both together. The balance doesn't happens. And I'm not perfect surgeon. I'm worst. I can't do simple things. My dad will feel so unlucky to have me. I know! The exams, marks, reports, and specially that letter of professor which advice me and my guardian to help me change the major, defines how useless I'm!

Letting out a heavy sigh which added with the cold breeze. I asked myself again why did I survived? I wanna die! Screaming inside loudly, a little drop of tear escaped my eyelids.

"You learned quite well acting. From where did you learned it?!" I flinched hearing the person behind me. I turned to realize my guess it right, its Erina.

"What are you talking about? What acting?" I said trying to act normal. She walked to stand beside me.

"You will lie about your suicide attempt as acting and I will believe it?!" She got me.

"No i didn't attempt any suicide!" Fuck this stuttering.

"Your stuttering leaves an evidence that you are lying!" She said as she chuckled a little at the beginning. "Erina please I'm so weak. Let's talk later." I said avoiding to get caught. But she suddenly pulled me in a hug.

"What happened Eisha? What is disturbing you? Don't keep it to yourself. Please tell me. Let's finds a way to solve it together?!" She cried engulfing me in her embrace as the tears escaped which were stucked in these eyelids for so long.

............

Sitting beside the small lake owned by the hospital. Cold breeze is blowing both are sitting on the bank looking on their reflection in water.

"I couldn't imagine you will choose suicide as a solution to the unknown problems inside your head, BITCH!" Erina said and looked up from the water towards Eisha.

"I'm sorry! But.........." A pause with a sigh. "I'm sorry" and she burst out in tears.

"Come on if there was so much in you, you could have talked it out!!!" Erina said as a tear left her eyes too seeing the younger ones burst.

" seriously!!!!" A deep yet shocked voice came from behind flinching both the girls badly as they turned to see the 2 boys.

"You lied to everyone??" Saewan almost yelled on Eisha.

"Ey! Sshh! Keep your voice low young man!" Erina said whispering with a irritating yell.

"Sorry but why would you do that?"

"This sounds unbelievable!" Rayan said totally can't get used to with the fact Eisha attempted suicide.

Eisha looked down, can't look into their eyes. Anxiety is taking over her. Her hands her sweaty because of the anxiety. She is panicked Inside that will this be a good decision to blurt out everything which is making her heart heavy?

"I know you might be feeling anxious to express openly what's disturbing you inside but just a suggestion that speaking it out will make you lighter. You right now just need a good listener and we are here to do that for you!" Rayan said showing a smile to her.

"Yes ofcourse man my ears are dying to listen and my heart is showing tantrums like a 5 y/o kid to help you get over the things which is disturbing you!" Saewan said in a little insisting way as the two of them sat down behind the girls.

"I don't wanna be a surgeon. I don't wanna make my career as a doctor." She said as they listened to her but moreover Erina looked at her with a total amazement.

"I have no passion or interest in it. I don't enjoy this. Rather I feel panic. I feel suffocated to study all those stuffs. The practical classes makes me anxious yet panic inside." She said it out in a fast pace and let out a huge sigh. Others silently listened her.

"I love my drawing. I love to draw. Its my passion. It makes me excited yet confident. It's my excitement and also my relaxation. I can draw all day long without any break but I can't be doctor or any expert one. I believe my career life in doctor or surgeon whatever you say will be in a great lose. But in drawing, I can give my everything on it. My heart starts to beat fast looking at other's works. So I wanna learn animation and would love to be a animator." She said and dipped her wet cheeks on her palms.

"Then why did you agreed with uncle and dad?" Erina asked.

"You know my whole life I just felt my dad is an unlucky person, he lost his love, my mom, then he had to go through a lot and a burden me, then I'm being the most stupid girl who can do nothing just draw. I'm not even good in my studies. And even after so hard work I did my best on that exam and got admission in this university, I gave him hopes that no he has a daughter who will make him proud in this world. But again I'm thinking these bullshit. I just wanted to make him proud. But I can't also live in that career."

"So this mess in your mind made you to do that? To leave us?" Erina said looking at her with a emotionally questioning expression.

"I'm sorry....... but this was not all. After the examination results and because of my failure reports, professor called me and gave me an application. Which says to change the major for your own good. And authorities won't also accept to let you study with this poor marks. I'm good for nothing was the only thing I thought and jumped off!" Eisha said letting out a uneven vibrating breath.

"And also you going on medical. I thought dad will feel more down to see how amazing you are doing for your family and I'm just a regret!" She added.

"You Mf!!!! Are you for real!!!!! Damn! Eisha just one conversation shit!......" She just irritatedly blurted out curses making other three confuse.

"You know I always thought I will just continue these studies until my college and I dreamed to be a fashion designer and study all about it from my university life. I was sure you will be against to study in medical so as you will ask uncle to get you in that course I will be asking the same too. But you stupid!!!" Erina said.

"You both are sure your dads will agree!?!" Rayan said blankly looking at them.

Erina's face turned down and she Realized that ofcourse her dad will not.

"You are right! After my brat like brother left my dad. he started expecting all the things from me. He wants even those which he expected from Eron. And that's what refrained me to ask dad. I don't want to be like that brat and go against my dad's will and that's why I never talked it with her too."Erina said and ran her palms on her face to head and brushed her hair in stress.

"That's what it is! You want to say it out openly to them but their over expectations just holds you back to be even have a normal conversation with them!" Saewan said as they looked at him in a little amazement that this boy can speak fact with a serious tone too.

.............

To be continued

Thanks for reading this chapter with patience. Sorry if you were expecting some funny, comedy and short chapter because this one doesn't match that expectation. But here are some deep things which I hope you can feel and relate. Some few chapters on forward will be like this so I hope you enjoy them and please I beg you to share your thoughts and opinions. Don't just be a silent reader I remain on the dark feeling like maybe I'm not doing good enough. If you even find any error let me know I would love to improve myself.

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