'The chill of winter's embrace she feels slowly seeping through her bones . . . '

The falling snow turns into freezing rain by the time you reach the hospital. The paramedic had called the hospital on the way to inform them of your arrival. Your doctors are waiting for you, and they immediately take you for an emergency C-section to deliver the baby. Namjoon is allowed by your side and never lets go of your hand.

They are prepping you for the C-section when you have another contraction. You feel your heart beating like it's somersaulting. In gasping breath, you manage to say through a shiver, "Jooni, chill... so, so cold..." All you can do now is gasp for breath and feel cold as darkness closes in on you.

A drape placed at your upper chest blocks his view of the surgical staff as they do the C-section, allowing him to be beside you, holding your hand, his face close to yours, whispering words of encouragement and love.

"Hana, Hana?" calls Namjoon, scared as he watches your lips turning blue and your eyes begin to glaze over.

He shouts to the staff in the operating room, "She can't breathe! Help her! She can't breathe!"

One of the nurses comes and pulls Namjoon away. He fights her, trying to get back to you. Suddenly, he is stunned in place when he hears a building hum followed by the doctor yelling, "Clear!" then a dull thump as you body reacts to the heart defibrillator's shock. He can't move, stuck in a state of paralyzing panic, and the nurse pulls him from the surgical suite.

He snaps out of it, screaming,  "NoooOOooo, Hanaaa, NOOOoooo!!" as the nurse leads him out of the operating room door.

His heart-rending cries can be heard all over the unit and in the waiting room, where his family, Jin, Yoongi, J-Hope, and the maknae line were waiting.

They were about to burst from the room when the nurse and another staff member opened the door to the waiting room, leading Namjoon in.

They surround him as the nurse and security leave the room. None of the staff is untouched by the grief Mr. Kim is suffering.

His brothers of the heart huddled with him, all crying for their leader, their brother, their friend, and for you, and the little life you carried. After a while, they got Namjoon to lie on the couch in the waiting room. He was exhausted.

Through his strained voice from sobbing, he heartbrokenly tells them, "She couldn't breathe... her heart stopped."

Jimin wipes Namjoon's face of tears, and he squeezes Jimin's hands in his, telling Jimin, "Losing her...my Hana, I won't be able to come back from this," sobs Namjoon.

They look around at each other, sensing that Namjoon has already given up the will to live, and their hearts are torn completely in two.

Yoongi crouches in front of him, placing a hand on each shoulder, and sternly tells him, "Don't you ever, ever give up! Do you hear me, Joon!?"

Unnoticed by the others, a nurse opened the door just enough to get Jin's attention and motioned for him to come with her. A few minutes later, they all turn when they hear the door open again, and Jin is clearing his throat as he walks in with a nurse behind him.

He stops after a few steps and turns to the nurse. She hands him something before leaving, and when he turns back around, tears are running down his face. He looks at the little wrapped bundle in his arms and then at Namjoon, but his feet won't move. Namjoon sits up, wiping his face, staring at Jin, and the others move aside as Jin begins to walk towards him. The silence in the room was deafening.

Jin holds the little bundle toward Namjoon, and with a teary smile, Jin places the little bundle in Namjoon's arms.

"You have a daughter, Jooni," says Jin before he steps back to be with the others.

Namjoon buries his face next to hers, swaddled in the pink, blue, and white striped blanket, sobbing with joy of having her, mixed with tears of deep sorrow.

Namjoon looks up at Yoongi with such grief that Yoongi's chin quivers as he fights back his own tears. 

Namjoon, in such distress, cries to Yoongi, "I can't live without Hana. I can't do this without..." he is interrupted by Yoongi.

Yoongi firmly cups Namjoon's face in his hands, looking him directly in the eyes, and firmly tells him, "But you have to! You have a reason you have to!" 

Yoongi tenderly moves the blanket away from the baby's face. "She... is why you have to."

Everyone in the room remains silent and steps away, arms around each other, to give Namjoon a little space.

With tears in his eyes, Namjoon lifts his head and looks at Yoongi, saying, "You're right, hyung. I can't give up." He then looks down at his newborn daughter and says, "She needs me."

He always wanted to be a daddy, but not like this, not without you. He holds his daughter close and weeps.

Yoongi hugs him, and the others gather around close, their arms on each other's shoulders. And in the center of their brotherly bond, a baby girl becomes the center of their world.