I shift back into my human form and gaze around my oasis.  It is a small whirlpool like pond. It is fed by this beautiful waterfall that is surrounded by the thickest part of the forest on all sides and behind it, from what I can only determine to be the erosion of the water, is a small cave like hole.

I always keep a stash of supplies, including clothing which I change into upon my arrival.  One can never be too careful.  If by some miracle someone were to come upon me, even with all of my gifts, all they would find is a human boy. You see, I too can mask my scent just like an alpha.

When I am in need of quiet reflection, this is my church.  My place to just be me.  This is also my safe haven where all of my deepest and cherished thoughts are pondered upon.  I can freely think of Magnus in all his glory.  Honestly he should have been named magnificent.  He stands a proud six foot four.  He has the blondest hair that he keeps so closely cropped to his scalp that when he moves around it shimmers in the sun.  But for as light as his hair is, the rest of him is quite the contrast.  His eyes are black as night and he sports the perfect tan trully giving literal meaning to the word bronze God.

He too is a week shy of eighteen.  We were born on the same day although his is the only birth that was ever important.  I am sure that Magnus will have no problem choosing a mate since he is the future alpha.

You know of all the people in my pack, other than Nan, he is the only other person who treats me normal.  He talks to me like a normal person.  He does not demean me in any way and he is kind.  Well, this is what has happened the few times we have run into each other.

I think I feel the way I do for him because of the way he treats me.  But again, it can never be.  There have never been gay werewolves throughout our history although I have never believed that.  You see, the stories say that the omegas of ancient times were able to self lubricate and had the ability to become pregnant.  This was how they were bred or mated.  This only occurred with their true alpha mate and when they both went into heat, this was the only time an omega was fertile.  Although there was never a male alpha/omega pair, I am sure there were male omegas out there.

My heart goes out to our ancient omegas.  They never had a choice in anything.  They were forced to live with their packs, unable to disperse and even then they were always alone.  If the profecy is true, I would not blame an omega for hiding.  I would too, no matter my gifts.  But again, I do hide quite well now.

I am here today because I need some solace.  You see my Nan is not doing well and I fear losing her to old age.  Another burden of our curse.  We no longer live long lives.  We pretty much live a human life.  I am not sure if I can handle losing the only person who has been my salvation.  So I come here to leave my fears so when I return home, my Nan will not suspect how I am feeling.

As I am lazily dipping my feet mindlessly while quietly reflecting on my woes, I go on the alert as I hear the faintest sound miles aways but know instinctly that whoever made that sound was coming towards my hideout.  I slightly lift my head and take a sniff and suddenly every part of me stiffens with the familiar scent of my future alpha.  Damn!

What in the world is Magnus doing here.  I dip myself completely in the pool of water and swim into my cave.  I hide from him and I make sure to mask my scent and myself.  Yes, I can also hide myself from others.  The first time I did it was completely frightening.  I walked through the pack grounds and not a single soul knew I was there.  I thought they were playing a cruel joke on me.

I could have just left as he is still far enough away for me to have removed any proof of someone being here and made my escape but, I am curious.  No one has ever ventured to this part of the forest before and the fact that he of all people is coming here has peaked my interest.

So, I lie in wait for him to arrive and see what happens.  Within the next twenty minutes I hear his paws as they hit the earth and they start to slow down as he approaches the whirlpool.  He is such a regal looking wolf.  His fur is so black that it sometimes looks like hues of blue when certain lighting hits it.  He is so massive as well but then all alphas have the largest wolves when they shift.  He bends his head down to lap up some of the cool water and refresh himself and then, in the blink of an eye he shifts into his human form.

He completely takes my breath away with his perfect beauty.  It's crazy how to others this process is so quick but when I watch him shift, I see it all in slow motion.  I wonder if this is also something that only I can do.  It terrifies me sometimes.  All of these abilities and what it could all mean.  As always, my thoughts don't stray for too long away from Magnus and now that I have him in front of my eyes naked and now, wet in all his glory, my stomach starts to do sumersaults  and my breathing starts to pick up a bit.

He is in my pool running water over his magnificent body.  He dips himself completely and then he emerges and I watch, hypnotized, as the water trails down his bronze yet hairless body to caress his flawless eight pack and gather at the only hair that seems to appear on his body right below his belly button and trail down into the pool to lay around what I saw to be the biggest endowment I have ever seen.  I have no idea how trully big he can get because for now, it is just in stasis but the thought of seeing it in action...then BAM!  Something inside of me just awakens and I start to feel slightly hot and it takes all of my control to keep my scent masked, myself hidden and whatever is going on inside of me tamped down.

I watch him as he suddenly stills and starts to sniff the air and then stops.  He has this look of total confusion on his face.  He turns from my view as he too, I notice, is breathing a bit hard.  I watch him climb out of the pool and as he looks back as if searching for something, he quickly shifts and takes off.

I have not moved from my hideout for almost an hour because that is how long it takes me to finally get my breathing back to normal but I still feel slightly warm.  I quickly dive into my pool and just submerge myself to the bottom and just close my eyes and meditate until I feel myself come back to normal.  Breathing underwater, yet another gift I know no other wolf can do.  But right now, my only concern is what in the hell just happened to me!