CHAPTER TWELVE
For the past three weeks, random rogue attacks have occurred but nothing that really did any real harm to the pack or made any sense as well. Even with this going on it has still been the best three weeks of my life.
Magnus and I have gone no further than kissing and petting because he wants us to really get to know each other and be so comfortable with each other that when the time comes to give of ourselves to each other, it will be like second nature. This alone could have made me fall in love with him but he does so much more.
We have had secret rendezvous and the one thing I have learned about Magnus is that he seems to be a hopeless romantic. He is so kind, sweet and generous towards me that I fall deeper in love with him every single day. I know that I cannot live without him.
With that being said, I have realized that I have to let my Nan know that first, I am gay and secondly that Magnus is my mate. I am quite nauseous at the idea of this conversation. The doubt that enters my mind as to whether she will accept me terrifies me.
Here I find myself in the kitchen early this Saturday morning waiting for my Nan to come down. I cannot put this conversation off any longer because Alpha Paden is determined to have our get together before an official announcement is made regarding mine and Magnus mating. I am not sure which makes me more nervous, the dinner with my Nan and Alpha Paden or the whole pack knowing.
Well none of that will come to fruition if I don't get this conversation over with my Nan. My heartbeat begins to quicken as I hear her moving around upstairs and I know it will only be a matter of time before she comes down.
I feel nauseous and suddenly need to hear Magnus voice. I need him to sooth my worries away.
Mag? I send through our mind link. Hey baby what's wrong? I can feel your anxiety. Do you need me to come to you? I try to be strong and say, No not really. I just needed to hear your voice. I am waiting for Nan to come down. I plan on telling her about us and me today. I am just a bit scared I guess.
I hear him sigh and then he says, Your Nan is one of the best women I know and she loves you above all others Fin. Baby there is no way anything you say to her will change that but if you need me to come, all you have to do is ask okay.
Okay, thanks Mag. I love you. Then I hear him say right before I close the link, Oh baby, I love you too. Good luck!
"Finis dear, are you down here?" I can hear her getting closer and my breathing is becoming more labored as I try to control the overwhelming emotions of despair that come over me at the thought of this woman not accepting me once I reveal myself to her. She walks into the kitchen and I turn around but cannot seem to make eye contact with her. I am so scared and before we can proceed any further we both jump as someone begins to pound on our front door.
My Nan immediately goes to our front door with a confused look on he face and opens it and before she can say anything I feel his arms surround me and soft words sooth me to my very core. I wrap my arms around his neck and just nuzzle my face into his chest and just breath him in and out slowly trying to calm myself.
As I slowly start to slip away into a complete sense of calm we both become startled as we hear my Nan's throat clearing. "Well now, as happy as I am at seeing you two together like this, why am I only just finding this out now?" She looks upset with me.
I go to open my mouth but then Magnus says, "I don't mean any disrespect but Finis is my mate and I could not let him deal with this on his own. My wolf simply would not allow it and I am sorry Fin because I know I said I would stay away." "No it is quite alright because without you here I am not sure I would have been able to say anything. Thank you so much for looking out for me!", I say to him while looking lovingly into his eyes.
"Okay! It seems that we have some things to discuss the three of us so let's sit down and I will start breakfast.", Nan says. Magnus pulls out a chair from the kitchen table, sits down and then pulls me down onto his laps and gives me this look that says in no uncertain terms will he be dissuaded otherwise. That is fine by me because I really need his closeness right now.
While my Nan is going around the kitchen preparing the meal, Magnus is gently running his hand up and down my spine. I really am sorry for barging in the way I did but baby, I felt your anguish and I could not sit by and do nothing. My wolf was going crazy. I heard him send through the link. It's okay. Really. You have to know how soothing your presence is for me right now and I must have been out of my mind thinking I could do this alone.
I am not sure there is really anything to worry about. She seems to be okay with it. He responds to me. I look over at her and then get up to help her put all of the dishes on the table. She looks over at me with unconditional love and caresses my cheek with her hand and says to me, "Sweetness, it really does not matter what you are, who you love. Nothing and no one could ever make me love you any less. You are my Finis and nothing will change that. With that being said, I do want to hear how this all came about!"
The tears start rolling down my face as total relief hits me at knowing that nothing will change between myself and the most important woman in my life. She just pulls me down and wraps her little arms around me and shows me her acceptance. I feel Magnus at my back rubbing me into calmness and then he says, "Come, let's sit down and eat and let your Nan know about us and the plans that we still have to make with my father."
A look of pure fear comes across my face as I look behind me at Magnus and then I hear Nan say, "Wait, are you telling me that Alpha Paden knows?" Oh crap...
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