My heart beats faster than prey in flight
I dont know how it started tonight
My head is full of demons
Snarling
Howling
All my doubt has come to life
Talking about all my fears
Is it just me or is it cold in here?
Where did all my courage go?
Im full of fear.
My heart pounding
My demons growling
I just want to scream
Cant scream it will let them on.
I cant yell
I will be told to hush.
So many things prying at my mind
Is this all by design?
Sending me closer to the knife.
What is my life
Am i suddenly truly losing my mind?
How long did this take me to realize?
His voice haunts me
I avoid where we once were
I confine myself to avoid it all
Thank god for this disease
I can avoid them all

My beasts i though were locked in a cage of forgetting all of the memories
Someone opened it
The beasts are upon me .
They nip at my heals
Tears are at the corners of my eyes
I cant let them try to find out my secrets.
I have to make another wall.
Stronger
Smile wider
Look like i mean it .
Cant let them catch on.
Why did he have to come back?
I have finally become happy.
I still hate my job
But seeing my loves face fixed it all.
School provided me with something to do.
Running my discord the best i can.
Helping my friend with his series filled the left over holes.

I know in the end i cannot fall.
With my love by my side I try to stand tall.
I will never be above it all