Empty. Hollow. Nothing. Worthless.
Heartless. Cold. Rude. Stupid. Ugly.

 
These words runs thought my mind every night. Taunting me. Telling me your nothing and you'll stay like that forever. It's hard to drown those thoughts down cause they'll just keep coming. And it never gets better. I'm just so lost in my own mind. Words can't described how I feel every day and night. My friends try to help but ends up hurting me. Backstabbing me when I did everything for them and wasted my time and effort. I'm sick and tried of it. I just want someone to talk to. Someone who understands my level of pain and hurt. Someone who wouldn't leave me and pretend I was something in their life. Someone who really cares. That's all I wish for but is that to hard to ask in this world. Cause I'm done with suffering and taking the blame for things that I know I never did. I just want to be happy and free from my thoughts even if it's for a second. That's better then nothing. Cause when people say those words in your face, it kills your mood. Esteem and confidences washes away. That wall that you build and tear torn just to let people in with have to be build up all over again and again and again. Cause people love testing your loyalty and patiences with them. Like what's the whole point of doing that.

Did I not do the right thing for you only to have you yell at me for trying. That makes no sense in the world for anyone to do that. Cause that's rude.