Stiles's Pov

I was in my room with my suitcase on the ground while my clothes and other items were on my bed.

I was packing for Bora Bora.

It's been a few days since Luke and I found out that we were going to Bora Bora with the others since we were going to be given a whole week off of school.

Today is Thursday.

Tomorrow is Friday.

Which means we were leaving tomorrow night.

I made sure to plan things carefully beforehand so that I was ready for the big day.

I asked my dad if I could go to Bora Bora with the others the day after finding out about it.

He was a little worried because he didn't like the idea of me going somewhere else without him.

But after thinking over it for some time he gave me permission to go.

He told me that as long as I promised to stay with the others, specifically Luke, the entire week we're there then he's fine.

And if I update him constantly and send photos for reassurance.

I agreed right away.

So right now I was packing my suitcase so that I was all ready for tomorrow.

I had everything I needed, I made sure of that, now I was just making sure it would be able to fit in my suitcase so that I didn't need to bring anymore bags.

We were only going to be in Bora Bora for a week after all.

I was currently folding some of my shirts, placing them into my suitcase, when I heard a knock at my door.

"Yeah?" I asked, glancing over at my door.

The door opened and dad stepped in.

"Hey, mischief, your friends are here" Dad told me.

"Which ones?" I asked.

"The ones from your old pack" Dad said.

"Great. Send them in" I told him.

Dad nodded and peeked his head out and said something and before I knew it Malia, Kira, Theo, Liam and Isaac entered my room.

Dad smiled and waved at us before leaving, making sure to close the door behind him.

"Hey, guys" I greeted my friends.

"Hey" all of them said in unison.

"What are you guys doing here?" I asked, curious.

"Well since online school finished a while ago and we didn't have a pack meeting or any missions we decided to come see you" Malia told me.

She and Kira sat down on the ground, their hands intertwined, while Theo and Liam sat on the chairs that were in my room.

Isaac sat on my desk and crossed his arms over my chest.

"Packing for Bora Bora?" Isaac asked, gesturing to my suitcase and the rest of my things.

Yeah, I told them about going to Bora Bora with the others.

It wasn't something I didn't really want to keep from them.

One way or another they're going to wonder why I'm not home for an entire week. Or in Beacon Hills at all.

Besides it's not a crime to go on vacation as far as I'm concerned.

"Yup" I nodded.

"You're leaving tomorrow night, right?" Kira asked.

"Yup" I nodded.

Malia huffed while crossing her arms over her chest, "man you're lucky to go on vacation. Meanwhile the rest of us are stuck here in order to take care of the supernatural bullshit like we always do".

"I know right. Sucks like hell" Theo nodded.

I laughed, "sorry guys. I wish I could be there to make things less interesting but that's not possible".

"Yeah and that's thanks to Scott and Derek" Liam scoffed.

I smiled softly at him and leaned over to ruffle his hair.

I felt bad having to leave them alone in Beacon Hills and leaving them alone to deal with Derek and Scott.

But at least I don't have to deal with them anymore.

I never truly realized just how annoying and demanding they were during pack meetings and missions.

I was really oblivious to it, huh?

Thank god I don't have to worry about that anymore.

"You know you guys can always decline to go to meetings or missions. It's not a crime" I told them.

"We know but we don't fancy dealing with Scott throwing tantrums or Derek's glares and insults" Theo rolled his eyes.

"Better to just get them over with" Liam added.

I hummed before nodding my head in understanding.

"Hey, just be glad Peter is there. At least he'll make things interesting and make sure to keep Scott and Derek in line" I shrugged.

"Hm, good point" Isaac nodded.

"He did say he would take us to the movies to have fun and get away from the others. So it won't be too bad" Kira smiled.

"Sounds fun" I smiled.

"Not as fun as going to Bora Bora" Malia huffed with an annoyed look plastered on her face.

I chuckled while Kira giggled and kissed her girlfriend on the cheek in a comforting manner.

"When are you coming back?" Liam asked.

"Next Sunday. We leave in the morning and come back either in the afternoon or at night" I told them.

"Well, we hope you have fun, tell us everything that happened and bring us back souvenirs" Isaac grinned.

I nodded, "sure thing".

He let out a cheer and high-fived Liam and Theo to which I playfully rolled my eyes.

"Also, is this trip going to be where you and your boyfriend finally do it?" Malia asked with a teasing grin.

My eyes widened in shock, I choked on my own spit and my cheeks turned red.

The boys burst out laughing while Kira looked at her girlfriend in shock before hitting her shoulder.

"Malia!" Kira yelled.

"What? I was just asking" Malia defended.

"Still, you don't ask stuff like that" Kira scolded her.

Malia huffed and crossed her arms over her chest.

I on the other hand stopped what I was doing and found myself sitting at the edge of my bed.

"Stiles?" Kira asked, frowning at me.

"You alright?" Isaac asked after he stopped laughing.

The room went silent as the others stared at me, confusion and worry in their eyes, while I tried to figure out what to say.

But I was also trying to snap out of my thoughts.

Because so far the only thing that was going through my mind was negative thoughts.

"I mean...I haven't really thought about Luke and I going further in our relationship. I mean, we hold hands, we kiss and we makeout but we've never had sex" I said.

"You guys never talked about it?" Isaac asked.

"We have and I told Luke I wasn't ready and he was fine with it. He doesn't want to force me to do it if I'm not ready" I said.

"That's good" Kira smiled.

"Yeah, not alot of guys are patient like that" Theo said.

"I know but..." I trailed off, unsure of what to say.

"But what?" Liam asked, tilting his head.

"I think I'm ready to do it" I shrugged.

"You think or you know? Because those are two different things" Malia said.

"I-I don't know" I sighed.

"Stiles, don't force yourself to have sex with Luke if you're not ready" Kira softly said.

"But what if he gets angry at me? What if one day he wants to go further but I'm still not ready? What if we argue and he ends things between us because I can't give him what he wants?" I asked.

Derek always wanted us to go further but I told him no.

He always got angry when I told him no and we argued because of it.

I don't want the same thing to happen with Luke.

"Stiles, where is this coming from?" Isaac asked, frowning.

I sighed while looking down at my hands.

"It's just...when Derek and I were still together we never went beyond making out. I always told him I wasn't ready while he said it was fine I always knew he was angry. One time when we were making out on his bed he tried unbuttoning my shirt but I stopped him, telling him I didn't want to go further. He got pissed off and the argument was bad that he told me to leave" I explained.

Even before finding out that Derek never loved me, that he was only dating me out of pity, I wondered if he only liked my body.

That another reason he was dating me was because he wanted to get in my pants.

I'm still a virgin after all.

"Even now that I'm with Luke and he treats me better than Derek ever did I still don't know if I want to go further. As much as I love Luke I don't know if I'm ready to lose my virginity to him" I explained.

Before Derek, before Luke, I never really thought about dating and I never even thought about having meaningless sex.

It might sound stupid but I always wanted to lose my virginity to someone special.

I always thought it was Derek but we already know how things ended up between us.

But I'm glad things ended the way they did because I almost made the mistake of losing my virginity to him.

And he never even gave a damn about me.

Even now that I'm with Luke I'm worried about losing it.

I'm still scared.

It's stupid, isn't it?

God, I just know it is.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned to see Malia sitting next to me with a look of understanding in her eyes.

"I get it. Being in a relationship is scary but so is having sex and losing your virginity to someone. Because you never know if that person is the one for you or if they're just using you and going to leave once they've gotten what they wanted. Trust me, I felt that way before when Kira and I first started dating" Malia explained.

I looked at Kira, who offered me a small smile and nod, before looking back at Malia.

"I was still getting used to living as a human but managing a relationship with someone I really liked was another struggle. I was scared of screwing up the one good thing in my life. But Kira was always patient with me and always ready to help me whenever I needed it. It took a while but when we were ready to go further it was amazing and not only did I feel loved I felt safe. I still do" Malia smiled.

The two girls glanced at each other, smiling lovingly, before looking back at me.

"Your relationship with Derek was shit because he was shit. That much is obvious. And I know you were heartbroken at first but you should be glad that you never had sex with him. It's obvious he didn't love you, care for you let alone respect you. He's not the one for you, never was, and you definitely would've felt nothing but regret had you lost your virginity to him" Malia said.

She's right.

Despite how things ended between us I'm glad I never lost my virginity to him.

That would've been one of my biggest regrets.

Especially with how Derek treated me and there's no way I would've been happy to have lost it to someone like him.

"Now that you're with Luke I know you're happy with him. Happier than you ever were with Derek. He's had his eyes set on your since day one and he made it clear that you were, still are, the only one he wanted. It took a while but he finally got you and he's never going to let you go. I also know that you're never going to let him go. He loves you and you love him. Not only that but he's patient and I know that, unlike Derek, he wouldn't get pissed at you for not wanting to have sex, especially if you're not ready" Malia said.

Theo nodded, "she's right. The guy loves you, cares for you and respects you. If you say you aren't ready to have sex then it's as simple as that".

"He loves you, Stiles. He would never make you have sex with him if you're uncomfortable" Liam smiled.

"Agreed" Kira nodded.

"Even if he did I would kick his ass" Isaac grinned.

I laughed at that before shaking my head in amusement

No doubt he would do that.

"Yeah, you guys are right" I nodded.

"Of course we are. We're always right" Theo grinned while wrapping an arm around Liam's shoulders.

Liam rolled his eyes and nudged Theo but the small smile on his face indicated that he wasn't annoyed by his words.

I laughed at the two of them while Malia patted my back before she stood up and made her way over to Kira.

"Great, now that you're feeling better hurry up and pack" Malia said.

"Yeah. Your dad ordered pizza and is trying to find a movie for us to watch" Isaac added.

I smiled and nodded.

I got up from my bed and went back to packing while feeling lighter than before.