I didn't lose you,
You lost me..

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Avni

My sleep got distracted sniffing a stench spread around my room unpleasantly. Removing my left arm over my eyes I slowly pulled my body upward to sit up on the bed.
Rubbing my eyes with the backside of my palm to get a clear vision I roamed my gaze around the room to find out the source the stench was coming from. My eyes finally stopped and fell on the lower portion of the closed balcony door.

I took a glance at sleeping Arya beside me. He is in sound sleep. I carefully pulled the duvet over his body close to his neck, covered him properly and then I jolted down my body out of the bed.

"Who the hell is smoking outside my room" gritting my teeth I ambled silently to close the balcony door.

"Excuse me" I just almost spatted being extremely irritated at the person who is standing back facing me and I immediately close the door behind so that Arya doesn't wake up from his sleep getting heard my voice.

Getting my irritated voice into his ears when the person turned his face slightly got flinched by my tone behind, I lost my words gaping at him..

Neil.

He was leaning against the balcony railing facing the lawn veiw outside.

"Ummm... hii" Turning his waist around he greeted me with a soft smile.

What did I just see!!!

Neil khanna is smiling.
And that is looking at me!!

"Am I really awake!! or this is a part of my another nightmare" the only thought came into my mind that exact moment.

My eyes widened before I immediately made my face straight snapping my forehead slightly. And then my eyes fell on his right hand that was holding a burning cigratte between his two fingers..

"When did he started smoking!!!" I tried to remember if I had ever seen him smoking before.

"Anyways that's not my concern.." My inner self screamed. I pulled myself back from those disgusting thought coming inside my brain.

I came here!!!

Here!!

Why did I come here by the way!!

Shit I forgot..

Wait what the hell is he doing here outside my room!!

May be he has chosen this place to fulfill his smoking desire.

Hollycrap..

Pondering in my head all these I turned my face to leave being disappointed by my poor memory but before I could step back inside my room, I felt a tug on my sweat pant left limb. I brought my eyes down and saw Arya standing closer to me clutching the fabric of my trouser..his height is hardly level to my waist.

"Who is he Mom!!" With a drowsy tone he asked, rubbed the sleep away his eyes. He looked up at me then threw his gaze over Neil.

"None" saying this in a stern tone I immediately took him on my arm and stepped in , shut the door with a loud thud.

*******

Neil

So Avni Mehta is Juhi my one and only cousin's one of the closest friends, in this country.

Even my Mom and Bebe knows Mrs. Neela Mehta, her Mom, who they got extremely surprised seeing her here. And later I also got introduced while settling in the hallway having our dinner before we leave for our respective rooms..

So my favourite sweets is Mehta Sweets that is Avni Mehta..

Crap What the hell you talking Neil!!

Iii mean that's her family venture run by her Mom Mrs. Neela Mehta.

Shit..

Irony of fate, two..

Interesting!!!

I smirked pulling upward the duvet over my chest, laid beside my cousin Dev, with whom I have to share this room throughout the ceremony which has been allotted to both of us because of being the house crowded by the bunches of guests.

Thank god he doesn't snore or I would have kicked him out of this room.

I so hate this concept sharing rooms with any other person. That always happens during this chaotic Indian Wedding ceremonies.
To be rational about all this consequences I tried to convince Bebe leaving me in India but being a typical Indian Punjabi Family they brought me along with them in this mess..

"We will have blast Tillu" Mom had said excitedly when we were about to land in this place.

"To hell with these functions..to hell with this family get together..To hell with this having blast..."I put my right elbow on my eyes to grab some peaceful sleep.

However now these things has become too trival for me after seeing Avni in this house, because observing her gesture towards me through our encounter for a tiny clock hour , I can bet there will be much more intimidating and daunting things than this are coming on my way from tomorrow onwards...

I sighed heavily...

*******

It was 8pm, flipping my eyes opened I looked at my pH screen to see the time. Then I realised I forgot to charge my ph last night before going to sleep. And now the screen indicating low battery.
I immediately got up from my bed and moved towards my sling bag to take out the charger that I kept inside yesterday.
Putting it into charging and taking out a sigratte and lighter from my jeans pocket that was hung by me last night while changing something into comfortable on the rack behind the door.
I opened the slide door and stepped outside my room to the attached balony and stood leaning against the railing around there, fired up my cigar.

I have just hardly dragged two sips off it facing the view outside, within few seconds next I flinched, heard the sound of a door open behind me.
I heard a female voice "Excuse me!!" It was an expression of scowl.

I turned my face slightly to my right and my eyes fell on Avni who is standing behind few steps away staring at me. Her jaw dropped and she bit her lips not to let out a loud gasp.

She wore a hodded greyish green sweatshirt pairing with same sweat trousher.

Her eyes widenend before she could have say anything more I greeted her with a simple hi followed by a unpretentious smile..

Yes I smiled , because I don't believe there is any point in keep carrying those long back silly baggages between us throughout our entire life that had occurred by us been immature in past.

Okay it was because of my immaturity..

She kept staring at me blinking her eyeslids few times nervously.

She looked mature and reserved than the image I recalled I have seen her last.
That innocent Avni has somewhere got constrained underneath some layers of responsibilities and
obviously huge duties she has gained being into motherhood at this age. I guess.

She is not that simple looking meek girl anymore. Instead she is a grown up woman now. She is a mother and may be has been proved as a perfect wife.

I exhaled.

Seems for a while she got lost somewhere and then immediately I saw her brought down the gaze on my hand and her eyes paused there for few seconds. Averting her gaze being thoughtful she turned her face to leave but instantly stopped looking down somewhere.
Following her gaze I saw that cute lil kid clutching her knee fabric stood almost sticking to her body.

Rubbing his eyes cutely he asked her in a drowsy tone "Who is he Mom.."

"Mom!!!"

"So she is married..as I thought" I sighed.

That cute kid staring at me curiously flipping his big eye lashes then averted his eyes upward at Avni, waiting for his Mom to respond.

I blinked my eyes in respond smiling slightly at him.

"None" replying this sternly she immediately took him in her arms and went inside that room she had stepped here and slumped the door on my face..

But that lil kid sent me a cute smile with his cheeks all red. My forehead crinkled looking him blush. I smiled too.
Watching me staring at him he hide his face pressing it on his Mom's shoulder, before they disappeared off my sight.

I turned back my face to the lawn, threw the half burnt cigratte inside a trash at the corner
Heaving a deep sigh I stood holding the railing tightly for few minutes, gaped blankly afar nowhere later I headed to my room.

My heart stiffened, that word rang repeatedly in my head since she said it "None"

I'm no one to her.

A hard lump formed inside my throat and I gulped it down in remorse.

*******

Avni

After letting Arya complete his morning necessities, including giving him a warm bath, I told him to go downstairs to the hallway and have his breakfast where few guests have arrived already. But he denied saying me to come down fast to join him having his breakfast. So not involving into any convo further with Arya, without wasting the time I quickly moved inside the attached washroom to have done my morning chores.

I wore a simple peach Punjabi suit embroidered all over with white Pista green thread. Some more suit of different style and colours separately for the occasion Mom has brought for me.

Just now I had bath, so my hair is wet and I have to kept them open. Applying some moisturizing over my body and face I hydrated my lips with a light reddish lipbalm. Falling the matching pista green dupatta over my chest I exited the room.

******

I was helping Arya holding his glass to take sips from his milk, my eyes fell on a lady on my right sitting in the centre chair smiling at both of us in between having her breakfast.

Excluding some youngsters, almost most of the guests have gathered in the hall area having their breakfast. Some are sitting on the couch,some went to the lawn area whereas some of us gathered around the breakfast table.
Few minutes before when I stepped down here looking for Arya, Mamma has introduced me with Mrs. Sweta Khanna her mother in law Mrs. Harleen Khanna. And later Mr. Prakash Khanna was introduced by Bubbly Aunty.

Meanwhile I got to know from Mumma that they are very humble people and the regular customer turned close people of her. And I can surly say that these people has know everything about me.
That I have figured out by their prominent gestures towards me and Arya.

They seems nice people. Much different than their illtempered snobbish son Neil Khanna.
Yess they are his family. Juhi just now asked them about Neil to that lady calling her Bebe.

She said me to call her Bebe but the moment I heard she is his granny. I have lost my all interest mingling with them further. Moreover I'm least bothered anymore to build any such kind of attachment with these people apart from a formal one. so I let a simple smile and got back busy feeding Arya.

"Mom what is his name" Arya pointed his fingers straight on someone raising his eyes upward towards the stairs.

Following his finger I saw Neil coming down the stairs staring at me.

I immediately bring down his stretched arm "How many times I have said you baby you shouldn't point your fingers like that at anyone...it's a bad manners"

Lowering his gaze Arya pouted but paused by that lady or I would call her Mrs.Sweta Khanna.
She replied happily to Arya saying that he is Neil, her Son..

Arya chuckled covering his mouth with his palm to stop his laughter and that made shook his shoulder. His gaze averted down to his food.

I furrowed my eyes looking at him thinking that what could he found so funny in this.

May be he has understood raising his eyes back at my questionable face.

"Neil means.... blue!!!" He said removing his hands from his mouth and then again giggled shaking his shoulder.

Arya sometimes acts too naughty, mostly when he feels very happy. And he feels happy when he gets surrounded by people around him. He is too adorable, and charming kind of kid.He loves to make friends, and do mingle with people really fast. He like making friends.
Arya has a captivating persona, people like his company. However at the same time he can be very tough if he doesn't like you for some reasons. But mostly he is sweet to all.

I glared at him and gestured him through my eyes to behave but cut off by Mrs.Harleen.

"Neil means champion beta" She said caressing on Arya's cheeks lovingly smiling at him.

"Oooh sorry" Arya lowered his face.

"Champion in arrogancy" murmuring this inwardly I suppressed my laughter biting my inner cheeks and then I realised Neil took that empty seat opposite and sat facing straight to me.

Hollyshit..

I was having my breakfast avoiding him scrolling my pH screen, Arya pulled my arm slightly.

I turned my eyes at him confusingly and saw he is motioning me through his naughty gaze to come closer. Creasing my forehead I lowered my face close to him.

"Neil is handsome Mom, I like him" Arya flushed his face whispering into my ear and smiled cutely staring at Neil who is busy having his breakfast talking to his Papa on some random topics.

And I know this face.

I instantly turned my eyes at Arya nervously blinking them few times then my eyes accidentally landed on Neil, who is now busy browsing his pH.

I heaved a deep apprehensive sigh..

Arya always do these things whenever he figure out a guy near about my age. He Instantly starts shipping them with his Mom and always end up gaining a toughest glare from me.
Even didn't he missed my Doctor Dr.Chris when he first saw me talking to him over call.
Thank god he haven't said anything stupid to him when I took Arya first time to visit my doctor in his clinic. Or it will be so embarassing for both of us to proceed our conversation further.
Although he knows that we shouldn't say those things openly but you can't say anything surely about kids, exactly when,what, how they would react the next moment, no body can assume.
They are so unpredictable.

Mamma has input all these crazy things inside his brain. I know.
She wants to see me settled in my life as every other mother does. But I'm happy with my lil angel and I don't need any other person's appearance in our small beautiful life.
Araya wants me to see with a guy. Once he told me that he wants someone to call Dadda.

His Dadda.

And his two biggest Dreams are, First is to become an Astronaut joining NASA and another one is to see me getting married.

And he has said this to almost my all close people.he also added, that day he will dance on those Punjabi songs from his favourite lists.

Awwweee my baabby!!!

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