hot chocolate lingers on my tongue

as the day draws to a rapid close

it is silent

too silent

faint buzzing rings in my ears despite this

i can feel my chest becoming hollow 

filled with no weight at all

and i miss him

i am scared of it

scared of losing detail

i can not remember the sound of his voice

but i know it is smooth and soft

and it is the only thing that can keep me both calm and agitated

i will never see him again

and although that thought has been through my stupid head one hundred times

it has yet to register