Warning: This chapter may result in varying emotions for everyone so please be prepared. 

AUTHOR'S POV  

Laurent has been trying to make the most of his time alone. His first day shooting the new ad was pleasant. The staff as well as the designer made him feel welcomed and he was definitely receiving star treatment. He's remained humble of course and he also talked to the designer who he thanked for choosing him. For a few hours he was able to mentally escape his internal torment and focus on something else which is what he was really looking forward to as he really needed a distraction. The first hour he was doing quite well...but when this job started to mimic jobs he's had with Larry he had to fight to keep his focus and so it wouldn't be obvious that he has a lot on his mind. What's worse is he can't think about Larry without thinking about Anthony. He wants so badly to get over this man and it's easier to shake him out of his mind when he's busy...but now that it's just him in this large suite surrounded by silence he simply can't help it. He's discovering that he's thinking about Anthony more than he's thinking about his husband. He loves Larry with everything in him and he never would have thought that anyone would have the ability to make him feel anything for anyone other than the man he's loved for as long as he can remember and always planned to love for the rest of the life. That's another reason why the deception he's harboring is so overwhelming for him...but Anthony is still heavily on his mind. In fact, he begins thinking about the last moment they were together and as much as he doesn't want to he can't help it. Now, he can't stop...

Anthony has just broken the heart wrenching news to Larry that they can't see each other anymore. While Anthony knew it was the best and the right decision he can't pretend that it didn't nearly split his heart in two to see that tear falling from Larry's eye when he finally had the strength to look up at him. His heart was actually splitting from the moment Larry saw Damien there then turned around with those saddened eyes eagerly wanting an explanation as to why he was there. Now it's silence again and more tears have found their way down Larry's face and it's getting tougher for Anthony to see. He really didn't want to hurt him...and if he's being completely honest with himself he didn't want to end this. He knows that it will never be ok to carry on an affair with a married man...but Larry. He's just floored by him and with him standing here so vulnerable it pains him so that he had to end it. These last several moments of silence have to break somehow and Anthony can only think of two words so he whispers in despair again, "I'm sorry". He's about to move from the spot he's been nearly frozen in to walk over to the door and open it so Larry can leave...but before he can move an inch Larry quickly stops him...

Larry: "No. Please. You can't do this to me". 

Anthony: *soft sigh* "Larry, you have to leave now", he whispers. 

Larry: "I don't want to leave and you don't want me to leave so please stop talking for this". 

Anthony: "You know we have to stop". 

Larry: "No we don't. Stop saying that", he whimpers. 

Anthony feels the gentle touch of Larry's hands on him while also hearing that sweet voice pleading to him and he would be lying if it said it isn't getting harder to resist. Larry attempts to kiss him again and Anthony fights so hard to resist those kisses by turning his head away...but Larry won't let him do that again. He stops him by taking a firm yet gentle hold of his face then plants those soft lips right on Anthony's who in between is still trying so hard to get him to leave...only his defenses are weakening and the more Larry pleads with feeling the sensation of those soft lips against his it's becoming increasingly difficult. He then feels Larry tugging at his pants so he quickly stops him as he whispers, "Larry. No". But, Larry ignores him because while that may have been what Anthony said, deep down he knows he didn't mean it. He's just trying to do what's right but this isn't what he wants at all. His removes his lips as he begins to lower himself to the ground and when Anthony looks down he sees Larry softly plant his knees on the floor. He looks up at him as he pulls Anthony's pants down as Anthony looks down at him...observing the tears staining Larry's face as fresh ones stream over them. He finds himself weak in the knees from how sweet he looks and the overall tenderness in his face. He then feels his heart twist at the state Larry was in only moments ago so he reaches one hand down to wipe those tears from his eyes. Now their sexual desire is peaking so Larry bites his lip as he gives Anthony's member a soft jack off. Anthony is also biting his lip indicating that all strength he attempted to use to end this has been thrown out the window and all he wants to feel now is Larry's mouth on him. The moment he does he throws his head back as a deep pant echos throughout his home. Larry's speed is quick and he's sucking Anthony like he never has before. It's so intense that Anthony's body jerks every few seconds and his abs contract. Larry is intently focused on giving him pleasure...and that he is. Anthony pants, moans, even cusses in a breathy manner into the atmosphere as Larry's mouth works him so good. Anthony's body begins trembling and the way Larry's been going on at it's no wonder that he's about to explode. Larry's insatiable appetite for the taste of this man has been his driving force in that strong suction he's had on him and now that sweet taste is shooting into his mouth...but he doesn't moan in reaction to it. He merely takes it all in as he looks up at Anthony who's belting out gasps at the powerful sensation. It's a thick substance...but it's sliding down Larry's throat effortlessly. Now Larry can't wait to feel this wood inside of him so he stands up and having grown accustomed to taking Anthony's hand and leading them to his bedroom he does exactly that...

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Larry was determined to prove to Anthony that he wasn't taking his attempt to end things between them. The fact that Anthony tried to do the noble thing considering the stakes involved was admirable but that nobility is also what makes it even more difficult to break away from him now. He knows that if Laurent ever finds out it can mean big trouble for their marriage...but he's too far in. He's never been as take charge before but when they enter the bedroom he goes to the nightstand to retrieve the protection which is normally what Anthony does. He places the condom in Anthony's hand and as he listens to the unraveling of it he applies some gentle sucking to Anthony's insanely hard member and when Anthony is ready to roll it on Larry stands up to remove his clothing. When the last garment is off he's about to place himself on his back when he's stopped by Anthony. He gives him a somewhat confused look but Anthony just gives him a sexy smirk in return then it is he who places himself on his back. His member is sticking straight up and all it's waiting for is to feel Larry sliding down on it to which Larry doesn't waste another moment placing his knees on the bed then straddling him. They both belt out a deep moan when Anthony slides right in and right away Larry's upper body bends over...his hands placed on each side of Anthony's head and he uses his hips to ride hard and strong. His sounds of ecstasy are loud but beautiful. His eyes are closed and Anthony is watching his face twist into various expressions revealing just how much he's in the moment along with the intense pleasure he's feeling. Larry's head tilts back exposing his neck so Anthony raises himself up to place kisses on it. The sensation causes Larry to bounce harder and now he's whimpering loudly into the atmosphere. Anthony goes back to resting his head against the pillow as he keeps his focus on the beautiful man riding him so brilliantly. In between he's whispering to Larry how good he feels and asking him how good it is. It's a heavily erotic moment and beads of thick sweat are dropping from Larry's face onto Anthony's chest. Larry continues the power riding when the last hard rise and slam causes him to stop abruptly...but it isn't due to releasing a powerful orgasm. He's just been going so hard and so strong due to Anthony feeling so good he has to stop to regain his strength. When Anthony takes notice he decides to give Larry rest but not by putting an end to this magical time. He simply wants to take charge so he gently flips them over and now with Larry on his back he's ready to do just that. He looks down into those rich eyes and without a word he merely kisses him softly then begins moving his hips at a slow paced rhythm prompting Larry to close his eyes. What was wild, crazy sex before has turned into the most gentle and beautiful love making. Larry has gone back to whimpering but they're much lighter. Although still as sweet and soothing to the ear as the louder ones he was just belting out. Kisses are exchanged with Anthony going the extra mile to plant some on Larry's cheek and neck. As he goes deeper he begins breathing huskily into Larry's ear...their sweaty cheeks pressed against each other as Larry trembles and shrieks underneath him. The moment comes where they have to release and the end to this couldn't have been topped off a better way than the two of them releasing as they cry out sweetly together. Anthony looks down into those eyes again and it's as if he never attempted to break away. He smiles warmly as Larry does the same. He then takes his thumb to gently caress his cheek before lowering his mouth to kiss him again...

Laurent is lying on his back with the faint sound of the TV on. The previous dead silence was too much to handle so he thought sound would help. But, it isn't helping at all. He tried to focus on the TV but ultimately fell back against the bed and every last second has been filled with thoughts of Anthony. Even now he can feel Anthony's hands on his skin...one gently grasping the back of his neck while the other rubs his back while he's riding him. The time Anthony took him gently against the wall...Laurent's arms in a surrender position as they rested at the sides of his head...his right cheek pressed onto that wall as his eyes closed. Then there are those sweeter moments where they engage in light but powerful kisses that nearly shake Laurent to his core. Each time he's been with Anthony it was like a brand new experience for him. Each moment bringing something different and totally amazing than the last. He finds himself shutting his eyes tightly every time he feels a kiss or touch. Even hearing the deep breathing coming from Anthony that are always in sync with his thrusts. Completely flustered he raises up from the bed and sits on the edge. He rests his elbows on his thighs as he takes one hand and runs them through his twists. It's not even the end of the first day and he can't stop his thoughts. Perhaps this is what people who battle addiction go through when trying to rid their bodies of the very thing that brings them harm...but also an overall feeling of pleasure. Going days without something having been used to then going cold turkey suddenly it's as if he's going through withdrawals. Anthony withdrawals. The anxiety, the feelings running through his body every time he thinks of a moment spent with him and not even just on a physical level. The times where they simply enjoy each other's company. Anthony's sense of humor is delightful and there is never a time where Laurent doesn't crack a smile or belt out a laugh when he's with him. That's another part of what's making this so difficult. He then thinks about Larry and that they too have had their times of laughter and love. Now it's all come crashing down and it feels as though a dagger has struck Laurent in the pit of his stomach because they aren't in that place right now. He's enjoying time and sex with someone else and if this is what day one is like for him he shudders to think about what the next three hold. He finally stands to his feet and heads for the balcony for some much needed fresh air. The wind hits his face and for a few seconds it's relaxing and it's seemingly doing the trick...but what he isn't prepared for and what completely takes him by surprise is when he bursts into tears. His nerves are so frazzled that he has to take a seat in the bistro chair and the second he does his elbows go back to resting on his thighs. Coming to the realization of something he drops his face in his hands to sob loudly...and uncontrollably...  

~song should be done now~

While Larry freshened up Anthony changed the sheets then waited for Larry to emerge so he can walk him to the door as he needs to get home before Laurent calls him and the last thing he wants is for Larry to lie to him again. He hears the bathroom door open and when a fresh faced Larry appears they smile at each other then Anthony stands up prepared to head for the front door but he's quickly stopped...

Larry: "I want to stay". 

Anthony: *soft sigh* "Babe you know you can't stay". 

Larry: "Yes I can. Laurent is away". 

Anthony: *looks confused* "Where did he go"?

Larry: "He got a modeling job so he will be away for four days". 

Anthony isn't sure whether to be relieved in a sense that Laurent is away because it means that he won't see him thus giving him a chance to do what he couldn't do with Larry or be low key upset that Laurent didn't tell him that he was going away. Maybe Laurent is feeling the same way about this situation and is purposely putting distance between them. He also knows that he and Larry are having trouble so this job could be serving the same purpose for them which is time away from each other that they need but in that case it would be for the betterment of their marriage. Of course if these affairs continue then it's merely just going out of town only to come back to the same issues. What's really odd is he isn't sure why he's experiencing such conflicting emotions and bothered by the fact that Laurent didn't tell him but he snaps out of it when he notices Larry looking confusingly at him...

Larry: "Are you oki"?

Anthony: *nods* "Yeah I'm fine. Sorry". 

Larry: "It's oki". *pause* "Can I stay with you"?

*brief pause*

Anthony: "Of course you can". 

Larry's eyes light up and Anthony can't help but smile at the level of excitement. Larry then takes a look at the time and it isn't terribly late but it is too late to cook something for dinner but they've certainly worked up an appetite. At least Larry has yet he's certain Anthony has too but will ask to be sure...

Larry: *smile* "Are you hungry"?

Anthony: *smile* "I could eat". 

Larry: "Oki. Then I'll order from my favorite restaurant. They have a lot of choices so whatever you're in the mood for I know they have". 

Anthony: "I'll take a steak with potatoes and green beans. If they have red velvet desserts I'll take a slice of cake". 

Larry: *smile* "I'll order it right now". 

Anthony: *smile* "Ok and I'm going to take a shower while you do that". 

Larry: "Oki. The food should be here soon". 

Anthony smiles and winks then heads for the bathroom while a giddy Larry takes off to order their dinner. His time in this shower is exactly what's needed and as he works up a good lather to begin a scrub down he's thinking how tonight went completely left field. Damien was someone who he really saw himself getting to know and having a relationship with. Extremely attractive, successful, very easy to spark up a conversation with and he even showed his humorous side. He was completely caught off guard by Larry showing up and it should go without saying that he was even more caught off guard with seeing how emotional he was. He had never heard such pleading and known anyone as persistent as Larry. He just wouldn't take no for an answer. It does make him feel good that Larry is so into him and who wouldn't want someone like Larry to feel so deeply for them. But, it's an honor to feel so deeply for Larry too. If he were to tell someone of all the qualities Larry has he would be talking forever which is without question a beautiful thing. He's finally admitting to himself as the hard stream of water splashes against him that he's feeling more for him than he thought. Then his mind shifts to Laurent and he's realizing his feelings for him are on the same level and he begins to internally beat himself up although he can't necessarily say that he regrets his feelings for either of them...but a part of him also wishes that he wouldn't have changed his mind at all about their tryst. Had he just stayed away he wouldn't be in such an intense situation and feeling as though he can't get out of it. Perhaps deep down he doesn't want to. Still, he never envisioned that he would be here. He's now hearing the faint sound of his doorbell and he's sure it's dinner being delivered so he rinses off the remaining soap so he can get dry and changed then join Larry...

When Anthony stepped into the living room he can see Larry setting everything up and he seems to have a little pep in his step along with a huge grin on his face which seemed to become wider from the moment Anthony told him he could stay. He smiles at the sight then stops dead in his tracks just to watch him. He also catches a glimpse of the table and the set up is perfect. Silverware is at each setting and the food is placed neatly on the plates. Larry turns around to go for the drinks when he sees Anthony standing there...

Larry: *smile* "Hey. How was your shower"?

Anthony: *smile* "Relaxing". *pause* "The table looks nice". 

Larry: *smile* "Thank you. Come sit down". 

Anthony nods then walks over to take his seat. Larry actually ordered more food than Anthony thought he would as there are also various appetizers in the center of the table that include bruschetta, premium mozzarella squares fried to a golden perfection with a thick tomato sauce topping and caprese...

Anthony: "Wow babe. You went all out". 

Larry: *smile* "I just wanted to make sure you have enough". 

Anthony: *smile* "That's really sweet. Thank you". 

Larry: "Welcome", he replies softly. 

Larry joins him and they enjoy this delicious dinner with conversation in between. They didn't discuss anything about what happened earlier. In this moment it's like it never happened as much as they're smiling and laughing together. Afterward Larry cleared the table and even took the liberty of washing the dishes while Anthony cleaned off the table and also dried the dishes before putting them away. They retreat to the bedroom and after such an eventful day it didn't take long for Larry to fall asleep cuddled right next to him. It took Anthony a while because he's still surprised that Larry is spending the night with him and also wants to be here every night Laurent is away. He's actually looking forward to spending this time with him although he is thinking about Laurent and he wonders if he's going to hear from him at all. It's been some days so more than likely he won't...and the mere thought of it is bothersome. He suddenly feels Larry move a little bit followed by his grip becoming a little tighter prompting a smile from Anthony. He drops a kiss to the top of Larry's head then closes his eyes to get some sleep...

~two days later~

Since Laurent's emotional episode his first night away he hasn't been able to stop thinking about Anthony. He's resisted the urge to call him and he was proud of himself for that...but this is far from an easy task. He and Larry haven't spoken at all. Their only interaction was through text where Laurent shared how well everything is going to which Larry replied that he's proud of him. Laurent was also informed that he needs to stay an extra day as one day had to be cut short due to some production issues. Needless to say that wasn't exactly the worse thing for Larry to find out as he has really enjoyed staying with Anthony. During their time together they've done things such as worked on more crossword puzzles and when Anthony had to work he came home to Larry's cooking which Anthony was floored by. That was just something else to love about him. Now Anthony is at his gym working but instead of being out on the floor interacting with his gym members and staff he's in his office with new clients that he's in the process of signing up for a membership after taking them on a tour of the facility. As he's discussing the different plan memberships he feels his phone go off in his pocket but of course he won't answer it being that he's currently with clients. He will just let the call go to voicemail. The moment he's finished he thanks them then welcomes them and as they stand up to leave his office he feels his phone goes off again. Now that he's alone he takes it out and looks at the screen. He instantly feels his heart drop into his stomach when he sees it's Laurent. Had he been calling when he was with Larry he isn't sure what he would've done but since he's alone he doesn't give the phone another opportunity to ring...

Anthony: "Hi". 

Laurent: "Hi", he replies softly. 

Anthony: "I haven't heard from you in a while". 

Laurent: "I know. I'm sorry. I've just been busy. I'm away on a business trip right now". 

Anthony won't make the mistake of informing Laurent that he already knows that so he just proceeds with this conversation as normal...

Anthony: "So how's it going"?

Laurent: "It's going oki". 

Silence suddenly falls and Anthony knew from the moment he heard Laurent's voice that something is wrong or he has something to say. Perhaps he's just unsure how to say it. Just as well as he knows Larry he knows Laurent too so he doesn't even need to ask what's wrong and in a soft voice...

Anthony: "Tell me what's on your mind". 

*brief pause*

Laurent: "I...I want you to come here". 

Anthony: "Where are you", he asks softly. 

Laurent: "I'm in Nice and I know you have to work but can you take time away? I really want to see you". 

Anthony hears that voice and he didn't think before a response can roll off of his tongue so he replies, "I'll be there". 

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A/N: So, just as Anthony's date with Damien went left field I know this chapter did as everyone was under the impression that Anthony broke it off with Larry. Larry just wasn't having it and now Laurent wants to see him too when he was supposed to be staying away from him. It seems like it's only getting messier from here and I know everyone is wondering when these affairs are going to come to the surface. I won't share exactly when and it won't take forever but please just trust me. Now Anthony has to tell Larry that he can't stay with him since he's going to see Laurent. What do you all think the excuse will be and how will Larry react? Sound off in the comments! Love you guys. :)