Ok so I'm literally in bed typing this up lol at 12:44 in the morning. I fucked up my sleeping schedule lol.

This is like a spur of the moment kind of decision. Nothing lead me to have to make this. I just thought you guys deserve an explanation.

Even tho no one asked for it lol.

I haven't been posting. For A LONG ASS TIME. You may have seen me read A LOT OF BTS BOOKS SINCE I ADD THEM IN MY LISTS.

LIKE GODDAMN. IVE GONE THROUGH 3 LISTS ALREADY WITH 200 MAX LISTINGS.

I'm crazy 😂😂

Anywayyyy. I won't be back into writing until the end of November.

I finish my last HSC exam on the 11 of November.

Then I have formal on the 14th of November. Still haven't bought my shoes.

Then I need to re apply to universities (if I need to) and upload passport stuff and birth certificates. Idk.

Then I think I'm going for a road trip with the gals. Idk if that's confirmed yet.

Might procrastinate with roblox lol.

But I deffs will be back into writing towards the end of November. If I feel like it. Maybe. Idk lol. Sorry.

I've been writing a lot the past couple of weeks. Even tho I should be studying. I DIDNT STUDY AT ALL AND I HAVE TWO DAYS BEFORE MY EXAMS START LOL.

I HAVE NO MOTIVATION LEFT TO STUDY SO MIGHT AS WELL JUST FAIL AND GO THROUGH TAFE IDK.

I really didn't study. Do I regret it?? Nope. I'm not even panicking like everyone else. Is that bad?? I don't think that's normal. ANYWAY.

I might explain what's going on with these so called writing I've been going on. I'll try to make it short. Ik people have short attention spans and that no one will read this lol.

First off, the ones I'm working on are marked by a star or question marks. Most of these have been roughly drafted out in my idea notebook.

I just go with the flow when I'm writing. But I'm trying to change that and actually have some sort of plan.

This Town:
I had an idea to like start a song series. I'm starting with this song first for Yoongi cause I've gone through a lot of writing for it already.

This would be the first post before the other books. There's no specific order.

Jin and Taehyung might have a song story planned out briefly for them. Very roughly in my idea book tho.

Jungkooks song story is Ghost (again, briefly written down in my idea book).

I only have thought about the beginning and the end of the story, which always seems to be my problem.

I can never think of legitimate chapters to bring out the story. That's why I do so well with oneshots. It's shorter and easier for me.

BTS Oneshot:
I need to change a lot of shit in that book. It's not doing well like I thought it might. It's actually doing really bad.

I've gone through some of the oneshots and they are TERRIBLE. Might delete most of them cause idk what the hell my going 16 year old self was thinking.

I do have more ideas for the oneshots tho. Just to get the time to write them out.

So the thing is, I'm trying to give equal amounts of chapter for each member. That's really hard when Yoongi is my bias lol.

I changed from Jungkook to Jimin to Namjoon and now Yoongi. I LOVE ALL MY BOYS AND THEY ARE FUCKING PRECIOUS TO ME.

Renewed Me:
I made a promise and I broke that promise lol.

I said I would read through and fix up the book but I was too lazy to do it. I might do that in November too. After the formal actually.

Find me:
Ok this one is tricky. I started writing this book while I was going through a hybrid phase. I have no clue where that came from.

I realised there wasn't much x hybrid!Readers out there and wanted to write one. It's hard. So dang hard.

I'm trying to be original and ITS A VERY ANGSTY BOOK. I don't know if I'll finish this book.

The ending is kinda blurry to me, I'm not sure how to end it. Two endings maybe??

ITS A DEPRESSING BOOK AND A BIT CONFUSING CAUSE IDK WHAT TO WRITE UGH.

Character Oneshot:
Is also doing terrible. Meh I'll just keep uploading if I have any ideas.

Dear Life:
Ok. I've been planning to write this one for a year now actually. I've been sitting on this idea for such a long time.

Now that I've started writing, I kinda ran out of ideas. Again, there's hardly any child!BTS x Mum!Reader books out there for inspiration.

Wanted to try being original. This idea originally wasn't going to be a fan fiction. I had already written a prologue for it but soon deleted it and changed it to BTS.

It was actually going to be an original piece with two children, a boy and a girl who weren't related at all and the obstacles of trusting new people and parenthood.

I've had this short phase of me wanting to own an orphanage and just look after children. I kinda wanted that to be my job but dreams die ya know.

So I guess I'm projecting that into this book and trying to figure out what it would be like adopting and looking after these kids at such a young age along side your own issues.

I've forgotten what I was going to write next lol.
Oh yeah, I'm actually planning to adopt kids of my own when I get older. But I need to do more research on that.

Like am I allowed to adopt as a single parent or do I need a partner?? Cause this girl ain't getting married either or getting a boyfriend. Going that single life.

Prank Gone Wrong:
This one is just all over the place. I had an idea for it, but there wasn't enough content so I smushed other ideas into it to bring out more chapters.

I hope it doesn't get confusing. Might have to change the name of the book and the beginning 😭

Renewed Again:
I made another promise and broke that one too. Well not a promise promise actually.

I did say that IF I get ideas again, I might upload. I hate the way I used to write back then with my Jelsa books. I want to change it.

But I don't have it in my heart to delete it cause I did work a lot on them.

Lost and Found:
Garbage. Absolute trash. Like me lol.

My first ever book that I posted on wattpad and it's shit. How the hell did I get 56 chapters on that garbage.

I kinda want to take the idea from this book and re write it. Would be hard to do cause this book is literally copyrighting Maria V Snyder.

What is wrong with me. I have her characters named in there. Omg. My young dumb self should've looked up copyright.

I might do something with this book or I won't. Might probably just end up like dusty ideas stored up for no reason like the many other books I have lol

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So there's my explanation. It's long. Very long. I know no one is gonna read it. But yeah.

Long story short. Might start writing again at the end of November.

Watch me fail my HSC exams and get a Mystery mark (ATAR is below 20%) lol. That's how I know I failed life.

B14zeB14ck out! Bye!!