Mae's P. O. V

      I woke up the next morning with a severe headache and went to the bathroom to bath. When I came out, I wiped my body with the towel I came with and wore a short and a big black t-shirt and slipped my legs into my red palm. I vowed that last night is the last time I will try to change myself for anyone and I intend keeping that promise. I grabbed my back and hung it on one shoulder and left the room to search for Nate so we can start leaving.

       When I got outside I saw the girl I hung out with yesterday. She waved at me and I went to meet her.

     "I didn't see you last night. Hope all is well?",she asked and I nodded.

     "I feel better. I wasn't myself last night so I had to sleep it off."I explained and she nodded.

      "Okay then. You look good now I see why he likes you",she said and I was shocked.

      "Who? Nate?",I asked in excitement.

    "No, my elder brother Leonardo", she said and I rolled my eyes in disappointment.

      "Ohhhhh",I tried not to sound disappointed.

       "I am Trina",she stretched forth her hand and I shaked it.

     "I will really love it if you could say hi to him",she asked and I nodded. There will be no harm in seeing my secret admirer, right?.

       We pass five to six hut before entering a hut. When I got in, the inside was decorated with beautiful paintings. One got my eyes,'Demonites ain't that bad'. I looked at the bed and saw two guys sitting on a big sized bed.

      "We will excuse you guys",Trina said and left the room with one of the guys sitting on the bed.

           "Hi",he stood up and walked in front of me.

     He was quite tall and dark skinned. He had a neatly packed long hair. He wore only a short, his packs very much visible. He had an earring worn on his left ear and tattoo on his body. He had this bad boy aroma written all over him. I faced the paintings and pointed at the one concerning Demonites.

      "This is the first time I am seeing some thing like this in a wizards room",I said backing him.

      "How many wizards room have you entered?", I can hear him walking close to me.

      "None actually. It is strange. I am used to Witches/ wizards hating Demonites. ",I turned to face him.

      "And who said I don't hate them. I just feel they are not that bad",he smirked and I looked back at the pictures. I was stupid to think he won't hate us, like every wizard does.

      "Did you draw all this?", I asked referring to all the other drawing.

       I saw drawings of some random people, animals, places and two paintings caught my attention. One is of Demonia, the entrance of Demonia to be precise and the second one is of the girl I killed at a party. I spurned and faced him.

       "Where is this?",I pointed at Demonia.

       "Demonia, that's where Demonites live",he answered and I furrowed my eyebrow.

      "How do you know Demonia? Have you been there?",I asked.

       "No, but I have had visions of that place. I keep seeing the shapeshifter taking her last breath",he said and I moved backwards

       "Shapeshifter?", I asked.

   "People say she has a red hair and a tattoo of a fox. She is the strongest Demonite alive, she owns the power of any gifted she transforms to. Just one act of love, sent her to the gods. And the one responsible for her death is not far from her. I don't know why I keep seeing her in my dreams, her face isn't that clear.",he explained and I found that hard to believe. I can't die, Grandpa won't agree to that.

       "If I knew who she was,I will advise her to be careful. All the gifted are after her. People thinks she is a myth, why some thinks she will be good for scaring off their enemies. No one is to be trusted ...... not even family.",he ended and I looked at the ground. Maybe he is right, no one is to be trusted.

            "I need to leave. Nate will be waiting for me. It was nice meeting you",I said and left his room hurriedly.

        No, no, no, I can't die. Grandpa won't agree to it. It not possible. I couldn't take the news I just heard. I never for once thought about me dying. How will my mom react to her dad watch his granddaughter and her only daughter die at an early age? I can't imagine how life will be for my family without me. Josh will feel lonely just like Avery and Reneta will. And Nate......will he ever miss me if I die or will he be angry I didn't die sooner? Why do you need to ask? He will be glad....no one to object his marriage to Valerie. No one to annoy and piss him off. Nate won't be the only who won't miss me, Angel will throw a party in excitement. She will be happy, no one to annoy or be envious of. And ma, she will be so devastated and heartbroken. She will never remain the same and my ex- Ryder.....let's just say I don't know and sincerely I don't care. How will life be without me alive? I-

      "You okay?", Nate asked and I looked at him, his hands were holding me firm and then I realized I bumped into him.

        "I am fine. Can we leave now?",I pulled away from him and walked past him.

       "Can we talk?",he asked and I halted.

     "Not now. I am really not in the mood. Right now I need to sleep and pray everything that happened in the last month, especially yesterday and today was a dream",I felt myself getting sick.

      "Ouch.... I really-"

      "Can we leave? I really don't want to upset anyone",I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I never meant to annoy him or make him feel bad, I really want to apologise but if I do we will have to talk about yesterday and sincerely speaking, I never want to talk about yesterday. I have accepted my fate, he can never be mine. The world won't permit it.

       "Can you at least say bye to Granny?",he asked and I faced him.

       He still look handsome as ever. His eyes held secret and pain. He wore a grey short and a black tank top with a black palm. His pink lips....damn, I imagined how his lips will taste or feel on mine. I looked at his muscle and thought, how did I never notice how handsome he was. He had just a tattoo on his arm, I couldn't make out what it said. I began to wonder how it will feel like, if I knew he liked me even if it is not as much as I love him...will the excitement be more than I expected? What if maybe, just maybe he becomes mine and he loves me just as much as I love him, he will be so broken hearted if I finally die. His heart will forever be shattered and I can't bear that. So it is better I say away from him and maybe everyone that loves me, so when I finally die they won't miss me that much.

      " Tell her, I am not feeling too well. I will come around to see her. Please let's just go", I said and teleported myself to his car.

        I waited for some minutes before he came and joined me. The drive home was silent and sometimes I felt him stare at me but maybe I imagined it. Immediately we got home, I got out of his car and entered the house and my room without saying a word. I was trying so hard to fight the tears but it felt impossible. I just laid on the bed facing the ceiling.

     I heard a knock on the door and I ignored it, the person push the door open and entered, I looked at the door and saw Josh. He locked the door and walked towards me, I stood up and ran to hug him. I am tired of acting strong, everyone thinks I am strong but deep down I am weak. Everyone expect something from me, it is either stay hidden, be a doctor, be a perfect daughter, a legend, a myth, an obedient daughter/sister/niece, a good friend, a bad ass or a strong shapeshifter....no one has ever asked me what I want and sincerely speaking, I am not sure anymore.

      "What did he do to you? I swear-"

     "It is not his fault. He did nothing, I was the one who fell for him.", I sobbed.

       "Josh, what if I never make it back alive on this journey. What if I die just so you all can be safe? Will you miss me? Will you be happy without me?",I asked as I hugged him tight.

     "You are not going anywhere, I promise. Peter, Kelvin,Kelvis, Ralph, Red, Rita, Jay and I will never let them get you",he assured me and I pulled away. He doesn't get it, if I don't give myself up they will never release my ma.

       "What ever happens, never forget me and always remember I love you so much. More than I let out",I raised my legs a little and kissed his cheek.

     I wiped my tears and said a little spell so it won't be noticeable I was crying. I put few clothes and shoes in my traveling bag and zipped it. I grabbed the bag and left the room and went downstairs.

        "Are you okay?", Ralph asked and I nodded and walked past him to the door and left the house. They don't need a soothsayer to tell them I am not myself..... it is evident in my actions.

     I got into Josh's car and sat down. Josh got into the car with Mil and Jack. Jack sat at the back seat while Mil and Josh sat at the front seat. I didn't sit in Jay, Pete or Nate's car because I don't want to answer questions I don't have an answer to.

        Jack pushed me to his chest and I rested my head there and drifted into a deep sleep. When I woke up I was on the plane sitting beside Nate, my head rested on his shoulder.

         "How did-"

      "You were asleep, Jack didn't want to wake you up so I just carried you to the plane instead.",he explained and I nodded.

      "Are we-"

     "These is Miles private plane",he explained and I nodded.

        "I am sorry about yesterday.",he apologized and I removed my eyes from him and looked out the plane window.

      "We will have to talk about it eventually. I just wish you won't ignore me. I really didn't mean to snub you. I really wanted to spend more time with you, I am sorry it didn't work out for us.",his voice held pain, I was silent. There is nothing to talk about really.

       "Mae-"

    "I have heard you. We will have to talk about this someday but today is not the day. ",I said.

        He rested his head on my shoulder and intertwined our fingers. I sat there frozen, my stomach knotted in excitement. I wanted to move away or ask him to stay away from me but I couldn't. My heart won't let me. It seems I can't stay away from him even if I wanted.

        "I wish things were different.",he said and a tear dropped from my eyes, I wiped it off quickly before my siblings or Nate notice it.

      "I promise to make it up to you. And this time you will have me all to yourself, no interruptions. But that will be after we find your mom. Just you and I.",he promised and I tried so hard to control the tears that threatened to fall.

      I stood up and ran to the toilet and locked the door. I sat on the floor and cried. Is he trying to play with my emotions? He is betrothed to Valerie, why give me hope? Doesn't he know I love him. Doesn't he know it hurts  that he has been betrothed all this while and I never knew about it, he allowed me to fall deeply in love with him. He is planning a future date when I might not survive it. I really don't want them to be hurt. I really do love them, so I can't imagine leaving them behind, in pain. Not been able to be his before I die hurts even more. I wish things would work out differently. I wish I never knew I was going to die, it would have been easier. I won't be paranoid or scared. For the first time in my life, I am terrified.
     I wish I didn't have to die yet. Not until my family is happy.