well i tried to make new friends for once

keyword: tried

didn't work out :/

they think im annoying

im just a little kid to them

isn't that what i am after all?

im just a little kid

an annoying little kid who doesn't have feelings

at least that's what they think i am

i am more mature than anyone my age

im growing up faster than them because ive witnessed how tough the world can be

and possible in ways they haven't

all i ask for is more than one friend

one more friend who loves me for who i am

i guess that's too much to ask, huh?

i suppose so :/

see,

ive lost friends and made them

i should be used to this by now

but im not

i still get hurt

i still don't understand why

why don't they like me?

am i not enough?

why am i not enough?

will i ever be enough?

what do i have to do to be enough?

WHY AM I NOT PERFECT?

questions.

questions i am too afraid to answer.

cause i know the replies will blow me down.

i just don't know what's wrong with me.

what's wrong with me?

why don't they like me?

why doesn't anyone like me?

questions i don't have the answer to.

i fear that i will also never get those answers.

which i won't.

i just know it.

im just so confused.

i try so hard to be liked by everyone.

i show interest in them.

i show interest in the things they love.

i show affection every time i can

yet, they don't do the same

they think of me poorly

and i don't know why they do

i don't want them too

i don't want to keep crying

i don't want to keep hurting.

but it continues.

sadly