people want to help me with my problems but how the fuck are you going to help this fucking dumbass woth the dumbest mother fucking fear ever? you cant. im tired of this bs,, i just want to relax,, this weekend was supposed to be relaxing and yet it isnt. i always ruin shit and i know the next thing thats going to happen is a god damn breakup,, i know its coming soon. i can just feel it,, its all my fault again. im really fucking done with this little game of tag,,, i just want it to shut the fuck up,, i cant feel comfortable anymore and thats my damn mistake. on discord its fucking hell,,, on the server no one really cares about my existence but everyone elses,,, their all friends and im the lonely kid looking in,, when i say i feel like ending it? oh everyone in the server stope talking until im done then they resume. someone else says that? oh you got one or two people going to help them out. what the fuck do i do???? they dont talk to me honestly. its tiring,, really tiring,, i cant have peace can i? i cant relax either right?? fucken hell,,, im tired,, no more games just relaxation is i want,,