Mahnoor's POV.

I am mad at Burhan for not coming and seeing me even once in a day. He comes so seldom and for such a short stance that I feel like he never visited.

I am here crying all day,locked in this stupid guest room,the name guest room rages me! I am not a guest!

None of them are talking to me. I feel so isolated, they are avoiding me. I understand that we married without their consent but this is inhuman!

What they would like better,us in a haraam relationship!?

I only sit and cry,nothing changes,these situations and problems! I'm tired and exhausted of them all!

Basheera is with Burhan,they are talking to Burhan in the study room,why can't I be called. I feel so unwanted here.
Will I always be pushed at the side?

Enaya only enters with the food,keeps it and leaves.
She was the sweetest and most welcoming of them all and now she doesn't even respond to my existence!

I feel insulted all day, I shouldn't have ran away. I most likely regret it! My mum is so angry at me,she would certainly kill me! I know my mum,she is judgmental, all life she's only been judging people now that it's time the world would judge me,she would despise the very act of it! Perhaps I am going through all this to be taught her a lesson!

I look at my phone,only Masirah and Aabish are two people still showering consideration and love on me and all of the rest treat me so filled with hatred.

Aabish's texts tells me that they have not yet found out about this. Sometimes I want this to pause so I can breath and sometimes I want this all to be over at once!

Tomorrow would be the worst day of my life!
Why have they call uncle Umar! Can't we settled it within?

I don't know it didn't seem like this big of a mistake,but now it seems like the worst sin. I still would fight for him? I don't know.  Sometimes run low in my desire for him. As all this heavy emotions and disgust makes me feel like it is indeed a big mistake. I wonder if I would have been happy if I didn't marry him....I shook my head,there's no use of all these thoughts now. I couldn't sleep. I sweat again,this nervousness makes me jump off the building.

The next morning as usual,Enaya kept the breakfast and went away. In this house the only day I was talked to was the day I first came when Aunt asked what and how it all happened and since that day. They only answer my question and have subjected to me as a piece of furniture aside in a room.

Basheera only came yesterday and since,she only gives me rough looks and turns back.

I have never been treated this way,it feels horrible.  I Come from a good family, I did not do anything to hurt them,I was just loving.....

I cried a lot in the morning,then I stood up and went to the kitchen,'fight it out Mahnoor' I requested myself.

I was walking in the hallway when I saw Mawra,I grew nervous.
"Mahnoor!" She exclaimed.

As her face changed into a smile I felt sudden shock as Aabish sprang in my arms. Mawra left saying "oh please meet him first!"

He held me so tightly and so affectionately that my tears turn into sobs that I curbed hardly. I felt loved after days now. Someone's embrace after what felt like ages,I needed it so bad and so warmly and tightly that he enclosed me,I didn't wanted him to let go, and that is why I love Aabish. Though when he speaks his words won't mean what he says,he actions are always honest. Like how he yelled so vengefully that day his words were empty,I know he didn't mean them at all.
And now,not even Burhan holds me so affectionately.

"Oh Noor!" He exclaimed looking at me. I haven't been replying to his texts very actively perhaps he did miss me.

"Oops I hope your judgmental mum isn't around!" He said pulling completely away.

I smiled. First time in these two months genuinely.

"My mum and your dad should be jailed" he spoke cracking his fingers.

"My mum isn't that bad Aabish" I spoke lightly.

"We can discuss that later,like on the day of judgement!" He said sarcastically.

"Very funny" I threw my hands weakly at him.

"You're still sick? I'm sick too! Pinchy!" He said pinching my arm.

"Ouch Aabish!" I pushed him and we both laughed.

I wanted to cry cause I don't want to lose him,please my lord not him please not him,everybody but not him.

"Why did uncle called?" He asked. I just shook my head,he continued " Dad didn't come with us,good. But I came cause mum said Aunt would also be coming. I came for you Mahi,why have not returning my texts?"

He looks at me so much with consideration and worry that it overwhelms me.

"Take chocolates, I even bought DVDs, but I would be returning tonight. Sorry you won't have my company but--are you going to stay here?" He asked between his rant.

I saw his small wrapped gifts of chocolates and the little box. I kept adoring them and pleading inside 'please not him Allah,please keep him loving towards me'.

"Noor?" He snapped his fingers across my face.

"I don't know...aabish..will you always love me no matter what?" I asked resisting the tears.

"Are you getting married,all this stupid emotional spooky stuff is only spoke when girls are to be married" he grunted.

"You don't want me to be married?" I asked looking in his eyes.

"Not really,I mean I like being your best friend. What if your husband does not like me being around! Arghhh noir! Leave all this stupid drama for TV series! You ask me if I'd love you is it even a question Mahi! Of course you're my precious tiny lady!" He kissed my head and it made laugh but with tears now of sadness.

"Did you see how uglier Mawra is getting by every moon,are you stealing all her beauty?" He asked me grabbing my arms trying to make me laugh.

Burhan called me. "Yo!'' Aabish greeted him. He just nodded and walked away with Burhan.

"Your mum's here Mahnoor. I don't you to get out of the guest room I'll I ask you to. No matter who knocks,whoever says anything! You won't get out" he said,I turned to him. He wants to shield me from all this but we are fighting together.

"This is not your fight,it is ours!" I told him firmly.

"We are not fighting Mahnoor,I don't see this as a fight. We don't fight with family. This is only a matter on convincing our dears one's and asking for forgiveness. I would do that for us both,you've been through a lot,enough now" he said as he pushed me inside the room and locked it.

Hours passed by,I was suffocated with wild tortures inside me. I was fearing for Burhan. I love him what is so wrong with these people can't everyone get over it. I fear that Mehreen would get everybody have him divorce me. Then all kinds of other emotions and insecurities ruined me.

Two more hours passed by. I peeked from the window. I saw nothing. After a few minutes somebody undid the latch.

I walked out. At first I hesitated but then I thought what if Burhan backs off. I went outside from the back door I stood outside a glass window in the front lawn from where I could see the hall. I just saw Burhan standing in the middle humiliated and insulted. Everyone looked angry,our mothers were crying. So much destruction a love can cause?

I saw uncle's head down in shame like he was the one to blame. I saw all emotions rising like a high flame of a volcano and erupting and subsiding into tears on everyone's face. Disbelief was commonly approaching on each one's countenance.

I walked in my room and wiped my face,behaved like I didn't see that torturous sight. I don't want Burhan to be embarrassed that I saw him so.

It was late in the night. I walked out. I saw Burhan sleeping with his brother in the hall. I pity him. I went to the small living area but my steps halted at the voices coming from within. They were discussing about me and Burhan,mainly about me.

"How can she be so cruel?" Mawra's voice sounded spin disdain.

"Mercilessly she just walked over her life like mehreen's marriage didn't matter!" Aafiah interjected.

"How can a sister ruin her sister's life! She didn't even come here,settled in her new home!" Claimed another voice
.

Nobody has spoken yet in my favor,understood that I have married him only because I love Burhan, I never have fancied her ruin,why would I?

I ran towards the back lawn and in this small city space I find myself unable to hide. I saw Aabish sitting outside.

I don't want to face him. I cannot I turned away when I heard him "I wish so bad for it to be not you"

I cried closing my eyes tightly repeating to myself his words. Is wish the same Aabish.

"I wish so bad Noor for it to not be you!" He screamed.

I turned and walked to beside him sobbing.
I sat down and looked at him,his face recovered the light as he lifted it from his knees. His eyes bloodshot and his lips plump and swelled by his miserable condition,his face was wet his knees were wet,I didn't wanted him to be so broken yet he was broken. I couldn't see his state,he looked like he's been crying for hours. I hated myself for the first time.

He was sick,he couldn't breath and I was adding to hai ruins with my existence but in that moment I knew nothing,I wanted to hold him because I felt if nobody sees him he would cease to be.

"Please Aabish no,don't cry" I pulled him towards me and he adjusted into my arms weakly.

And he was as vulnerable as I was this morning,to be consoled.

"I loathe that woman! I curse her,I hate her! I want to hate her. Tell me it isn't you Noor. I don't want it to be you!" He spoke breathing and breaking between words.

"I'm sorry" I could only manage.

"No!" He pushed me "no! Tell me it isn't you! Tell me it is any other woman in the world but not you!"

"Please Aabish...please stop cr--"

"I won't able to hate you Noor" he said helplessly.

The emotions in his eyes made me hate myself. He loves me so much I never knew.

"Then don't hate me because I won't be able to live with your hate Aab--"

"I thought we were friends Noor,we would tell each other everything?" He said pulling away creasing his forehead and now I was worried for him.

"We are friends,look at me Aabish,I love you. I tired to tell you but i--"

"Even before the day of my sister's wedding you would have told me that you loved Burhan and I bring down the celebration at your feet,I swear on Imran. I would have stopped the wedding and married you to him,but you didn't tell me" he said in complete surprise not looking at me and speaking recklessly pushing me away.

"I didn't knew he loved me Ab--'

"I don't know if I'm more devastated because you have betrayed my trust or you have married my sister's husband" he said in a complete mental frenzy crying again kicking his feet.

I was afraid he would go mad.

"Aabish please you're scaring me! I love you please Aabish! Look at me" I grabbed his shirt.

"I'm not a bad woman Aabish,I only loved--" I said gelding firmly his head to look at me.

"You are a bad woman Mahnoor. You married a man you say you love but you didn't think about him or his family or yours; no surprise you wouldn't think about mine!" He threw me away.

"Aabish please don't go away please for once list--"
I pleased as he sharply turned and growled "I don't know why Mahnoor but I still myself love you and I despise that feeling I have in me for you. As I would perhaps continue to love you and I would never forgive you!"

He could not walk he kept limping and crying away. I saw the helplessness of love in his eyes that ached me. Even though he was angry of me,I was a bit relieved to see the love in his eyes yet available for me. I haven't completely lost him And I wish to recover him but lord never hears my prayers,I only couldn't have him as I prayed so immensely to only keep him towards me.