Exotic

It has been a week since I have been out the hospital. My aunt is still here because she insists that I talk to a therapist for the sakes of my sanity. I really didn't want to but I was willing to do so because I felt like I wasn't myself anymore. So much shit was happening around me I couldn't stand close my eyes. That is how serious everything was. Que, Andie and Sharee had been my support system along the way. I was blessed to have them. Sheldon finally got back to me about the note that was left on my car the day of the trial. It appears that whoever was behind it wore leather gloves. They intended to make it difficult for police to come up with any leads. I had just completed my morning anger management class and it went okay. Now I was sitting in the waiting area of Dr. Sentell's office. I looked around and felt like the walls were gonna cave in. I hated being here because I already knew how it was gonna go. I looked at my Aunt and down at my phone. I was so ready for this to be over with. No sooner than that thought crossed my mind a lady came out and called my name.

"Exotic Chambers."

I sighed getting up as my Aunt gently squeezed my arm.

"Hello Miss Chambers.

"Hello."

I followed the lady in silence and prayed silently that this would not turn out bad. We entered a room that had a large desk with two chairs in front of it. Then there was a chaise lounge off to the side.

"Have a seat in one of these chairs and Dr. Sentell will be with you momentarily." She smiled warmly at me walking out the door closing it.

I ran my hands through my wavy hair as I bounced my right leg up and down. I was so nervous and anxious. This is why I didn't like having to talk to someone that I didn't know about my life. I know this is supposed to help me, but I really wish that it was a better way.

It seemed as seconds turned into minutes and minutes turned into hours before the doctor walked in. I took a moment to look at him. He was a white middle aged man that was dressed casually but very nice. He smiled warmly at me as he stepped in the room closing the door behind him.

"Hi Miss Chambers. I am Dr. Sentell." He said shaking my hand.

"Hi." Was my simple reply.

He took a seat behind his desk and placed his glasses on. He opened the folder that he had in his hand when he first came in. I assumed that it was information in that folder about me. I watched him closely as he scanned the contents within that folder.

"So Miss Chambers, tell me why you are here." He said looking directly at me as he folded his hands on top of his desk.

"I'm only here because it was recommended and because I really had no choice. If it were left up to me I wouldn't be here." I said not cracking a smile as I stared at him.

Apparently he wasn't expecting that because he seemed to be at a lost for words. I just smirked and started looking at the different paintings on the wall while he tried to figure out his next approach.

"What's bothering you Exotic? Why are you always angry?"

I turned my head and looked at him as I narrowed my eyes at him. I could see where this was about to go real fast.

"You wanna know what's bothering me? What's bothering me is all these dumb mothafucka's that keep coming at me trying to scare me or make me go away. What's bothering me is all the bullshit, lies, pain, and heartbreak that I have had to endure." I paused as I felt tears stream down my face.

"I'm angry because that's the only defense mechanism that I know. I use anger to hide the hurt and the pain of my past. I hate being reminded of my past, but it always rears its ugly head." I said while wiping the tears from my face.

Dr. Sentell passed me a box of kleenex and I mumbled a weak thanks.

"Exotic this is how I want you to be in all of our sessions. I want you to be open and not hold back on what you feel or think. This helps me to know what tactics to use to get you talk to me about what you keep buried deep within. I am not here to cast judgement. I am only here to help you heal. Will you allow me to do that?"

I nodded and he started taking notes. I looked down at my phone and I had an incoming text from Ja.

*MyBoo*: Hey baby. I remembered that you had your first therapy session and I just wanted to wish you luck and to tell you that I love you and I am always here for you.

I smiled and as soon as I get out of here I am going straight to him. I couldn't do nothing but smile because I loved him too and I couldn't believe that he finally said it.

"Okay Exotic today I just wanted you to open the box and vent a little. You didn't hold back and that is what I like to see. Schedule and appointment with my secretary for next week." He said standing from his seat.

He shook my hand and smiled at me as I walked out the door. I made and appointment for next Monday and went back out to the waiting area to get my aunt. She looked up and smiled as she stood. She wrapped her arm around my waist.

"So baby girl how did it feel to open up a lil?"

"I mean all I did was kinda vent but I know as I continue the sessions things are going to be pulled out of me that I really don't want." I said looking up at my aunt.

"Well you know you got me here every step of the way and I am not leaving until I see you through this. I want you to have true happiness, not temporary happiness that you have been portraying to your friends and boyfriend."

I sighed because my aunt knew me so well and she was right. I looked happy and protrayed being happy, but deep down I was not happy. I was on a emotional rollercoaster on the inside and it was taking a toll on me. I mean I hadn't even been back to the dance studio since a few weeks ago. I know my girls were missing me, but I had to get me all the way right before I could give my all to dance.

"Auntie, thanks for coming and being by my side through all this."

"Oh sweetie no need for thanks, because I want to see that spark back in your eyes. I love you and want what's best for you, just as I know my sister would too.

I smiled and hugged my aunt tight.

"Oh Auntie can you drop me off at Ja's house?"

She looked at me as we got in the car with a raised eyebrow. I already knew what she was thinking. I took a moment to stare at her because it was just like I was looking at my mom. My aunt had long black hair and the same brown skin that my mom and I had. She had the slim curvy figure  and she didn't look a day over thirty.

"Okay Exotic, but let him know I still plan on talking with him real soon oh and don't make me a great aunt yet, because I am still young, sexy and too fly for words."

We both busted out laughing and I was so glad and thankful that I had her here with me. I think that opening up isn't so bad after all.

Jacquees

I had just got home from the studio and was relaxin watching tv in my living room. I was laid back thinking about Exotic. I really hope that this therapy really helps her because I want her to get better. I love this girl so damn much until it almost scares me shitless. I started flipping channels when I heard my door bell. I rose up sticking my hands inside my royal blue basketball shorts as I walked to the door. I opened the door and Exotic stood there looking beautiful in a black strapeless maxi dress. She had on some black flat sandals that had black jewels on them. Her hair was wavy, falling down around her bare shoulders.

I stepped aside and let her in. As she walked in the living room I couldn't help but to turn and stare at her ass as she walked. I had to lick my lips because it had been a lil minute since I was up in that. Hell I think the last time was when Marcell bitch ass came to her house and got fucked up in the process. Damn that makes me wonder where the hell he at. I hope his ass ain't doing nothing stupid because he already know what time it is.

I finally shut the door and got out of my thoughts. I walked over and sat by Exotic. Damn she smelled so good.

"I got your text earlier." She said smiling hella hard.

"I hope you know I meant what I said. I do love you." I said looking deep in her eyes.

"Any I love you too!"

I brought her face close to mines and kissed her gently at first but when I felt those soft juicy lips I went in. I fisted her hair as I slipped my tongue in her mouth. She wrapped her arms around my neck as she played with my dreads. I leaned her back on the sofa, spreading her legs as I pushed her dress up. I never broke the kiss as I reached underneath her dress and pulled her black thong off.

"Ja wait!" She said pushing me up.

I rose up and looked at her like she was crazy.

"What's wrong Exotic?"

She didn't say anything. She smiled and straddled me as she kissed me on my neck. She pulled my tank off, throwing it across the room. I smirked and let her do her thing. For the rest of the afternoon we fucked like rabbits, shit probably more than rabbits.

I just hope that things stay in chill mode and Exotic will open up so she can truly be happy.