contains VERY TRIGGERING STUFF. If you don't like that, please leave. For your own risk and safety... this had to be spoken. If you are very triggering, I recommend watching the video above and not reading this.

Hey guys..

Pretty scary title, amirite?

...

I want to thank you all... for being such generous people.

And...

Over the past weekend many many things have happened...

Most of them in Orlando..

And im terrified.

I get triggered by everything. Almost everything scares me now. Im scared, im terrified. And I shouldn't be. Everyones gone. The shootings are absolutely awful. I do not respect our residents being shot down.

I hate it

Christina Grimmie was amazing, I watched her on The Voice. I replay her videos and songs over ane over again till I fall asleep.

Everythings tumbling apart

I go to downtown Orlando to see people crying, others giving speechs, most of them huddling their children like there is no tomorrow. I am even scared when my mom takes me outside. Im always scared. I cover up my windows and stay in my room. I lock it everytime I hear the front door open. Shit, my family came up with a special knocking code because of everything. I do sign language to my brothers when we are in public, mostly because I want to talk about everything thats going on.

Im just gonna say this right now

I fucked up my arm.

I was scared, I had a breakdown, and I know Wolf or Dogma didn't see it cause I took it down. I was scared all of you would leave me.

I ruined my year streak, and im sorry. Im better now but it wasn't many. It was only about ten very large cuts. And im scared that these cuts will go bigger. I wont do it again, and if I do I'll tell you guys. So you all can help me survive.

So..

All im asking is..

For you all to be safe

To care for each other

To live as an equal community.

And if you cant do that then leave.

If you do not like "equality", then just leave.

We all are equal. No matter shape or size or color.

We are equal

We are all human

Cut me open, you'll see red

Cut another person open, you'll also see red

We are all the same.

not in any way are we different.

With love, narwhal powers, gay llama pride and many wishes for you to be safe- Wings