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Part 1

Khushi was sitting in the bus looking outside. Her tears were continuously flowing from her eyes. Finally everything came to an end. Her every hope, every pain, every misery, every longing and wait, came to an end today..But was not is expected? Did not Khushi know that it would happen one day, then why? Then why her foolish heart waves the dream? Now Khushi can feel only one feeling.. that is EMPTYNESS.....

Khushi never felt this much broken when she lost her parents, she never felt this much alone when she lived away from her home, and she definitely did not felt pain when she got divorced..Yes, Khushi got divorced officially last week itself, after leading a facade of married life. Actually Khushi herself took the decision to end everything, to end her marriage which had occurred almost one year back, precisely 11 months back. Now when, she looked back, she curse herself for whatever happened in her life, in her impulsiveness to get back to a certain someone, she spoil her own life, spoil her families reputation and also dishonoured the family who accepted her as their daughter in law and definitely she is sorry for the man, who was her husband for last few months, other than the social status there was no connection between them. But in last 2 months she found out a friend within him and it was he, who gave her strength to come back here.. To come back Delhi after her divorce, to face her past...

But alas....

In all that turmoil, after all that humiliation she felt and after all the heart wrenching events she had gone through since last one year and few months, when a certain someone with his dark brown orbs came in her life, still Khushi is stuck in that moment.. That particular one moment...

That magical moment...

That moment which was magical, in which Khushi was spellbound and so lost in the charm of THE ASR, that she forgot about her limit. She forgot that ASR was already in a relationship with Lavanya Kashyap, she forgot that he is THE ASR, king of fashion world, where as she is Khushi Kumari Gupta, the middle class orphan...

He is everything which a woman want..

But ..

She is nothing which a man ever dreamed off.

But still Khushi Kumari Gupta dare to see the dream in her open eyes and as a return she just crumbled down in ashes, in the very hand of the same man, who force her to drawn into his brown magical eyes at the same time pushed her into the reality, show Khushi her actual place in his life...

Was Khushi was the one at fault?? Was not ASR took the first step towards her in locking her into those captivating eyes.

Khushi closed her eyes to control her emotions, her tears had long stopped but the agony she felt is overwhelming. It's been one year, exactly one year, for that dreadful night.

Exactly one year ago, Khushi felt the overwhelming joy and her heart were filled with love for that egoistic, arrogant man, the mighty ASR. And that very night Khushi also faced the greatest humiliation in her life...

Khushi wonder remembering the irony of the situation, irrespective of all that hurt and humiliation, still Khushi is stuck in that magical moment.

That magical moment that happened almost one year ago, on Diwali night...

On that dazy, drowsy night, when she was so much drawn into those brown, honey sugar orbs that she was about to give in her desire, she had forgot that ASR , the mighty ASR was never her, he was already in a live in relationship with Someone of HIS STANDARD...

Then, why she on that night saw the raw desire in Arnav's eyes? Was it only lust?? Was ASR only lusted over her? Was not for a single second, ASR felt any soft corner for her?

Something?

Anything?

Though Khushi Gupta always knew the answer but her stupid heart expected something different and probably that was the reason she had tears in her eyes on that night when ASR brutally declared that he is going to marry Lavanya, Holding Lavanya's hand , just after sharing that so intimate moment with her...

Khushi will not deny that Arnav declaration broke her heart, it bring back her into reality with a brutal slap.

But still she was okay with her, was not it suppose to happen? It was Khushi's fault that she forgot about the reality but she did not regret it..

But what broke Khushi into pieces was that acid like tongue of Arnav Singh Raizada, that venomous words of ASR which not only broke her heart into pieces but put a question mark on her self-respect and dignity..

" Apne cheese iha uha chodne ki adat hai tumhari, jaise apne payal meri room mei chod ke ayi thi, tumhari payal mery paas thi iska koi galat matlab mat nikal lena,yeh mat sochna ki ek aamir admi tumhare payal ko apni sine se lagake baitha tha...mujhs iss sab se koi pharak nehi padta...it does mean nothing..." [You have the habit of putting your things here and there, just like you left your anklet in my room. Your anklet was with me, but don't make any conclusion out of it. Don't think that a rich man kept your anklet with him, attaching his heart, it was by chance.. It does not mean anything to me.. YOU MEAN NOTHING TO ME, either...]

"Koi matlab nehi tha?"[ It does not mean anything?]

"Sayad tumhari liye hoga..tumhe to laga tumhari zindegi ban gayi.. mere liye uss baat ki ya tumhari koi ahmeeyat nehi hai..." [ May be it was important for you, because you thought your life has been settled. For me, that moment or you, does not mean anything. ]

The impact of those words was so grave that Khushi literally felt disgusted about herself.. Why? Why she stoop so low? Why she had to gave in her desire? Why?

But deep down reality was something different. Khushi and probably Arnav too knew Khushi was not at all in fault that day. Because it was not Khushi who took the first step but it was Arnav who crossed the line first. Khushi was not committed to anyone that time, Her virgin heart had the right to get attracted to anyone, to fall in love with someone which actually happened. But Arnav all along knew that he was in a relationship with Lavanya still he crossed the limit. If for one second, it is accepted that, no one controls one's heart and whom he would fall for then, Arnav too was not at fault.

Khushi never accused or held Arnav guilty for having a desire for her momentarily, being in a relationship with Lavanya but it was his words and the way he put all the blame on her burn her heart and entire existence.

The way one years ago, Arnav Singh Raizada choose to leave her burning, choose to accuse her for that magical moment, choose to put the entire blame on her to escape the situation like a coward make her feel disgusted about herself and about the moment.

The moment ASR declared his marriage with Lavanya breaking her heart into pieces was the moment when Khushi's ever so jovial self started to take few steps back. Still while returning back from RM that night Khushi thought about the whole situation and just kept that moment sealed in her heart to cherish, she did not blame Arnav till then because she knew it was ought to be happen..

But then, ASR came to drop her home and make her whole world upside down.. Khushi remembered she felt shivered, what if that night Aman Mathur did not called? What if they truly had kissed? Then ? Then what happened?

She was sure about one thing, if they would had kissed that night, Arnav would have insulted her like the same way probably more by calling her names too...

And she thanked her devi mayaa and Aman Mathur to prevent her dignity to be crushed that night. Yes, Khushi is hurt, she felt betrayed, she felt humiliated but at least her self-respect was saved in the nick of moment.

And she cannot thank enough her almighty for that.

But that night was the turning point of Khushi Gupta's life. Khushi still remember when she was too broken to feel anything how her Amma and Buaji asked her about an alliance which came through one of their neighbour from Lacknow.

Khushi was not in her senses. The Khushi Gupta who always spread happiness in everyone's life and who never thought wrong about anyone, suddenly thought to take a sweet revenge.. She not only agreed for the alliance but told her family that she want to get married soon.. She had put one condition that her in law should let her do study.

And surprisingly the family agreed for all her conditions and soon she got engaged with Rajveer Malhotra, the only heir of The Malhotra family, who were a well known playboy. Surprisingly Khushi's family were not so agree for the alliance when they learnt about the rumors, besides Khushi was suppose to leave Delhi and have to get settled in Mumbai.

But on the other hand Khushi surprisingly told everyone that, she liked Rajveer and want to say yes in that alliance. When Payal ask her about is she sure or not, Khushi's answer stomped Payal and later on probably the entire family.

Khushi chuckle remembering her conversation with her sister, "Of course I am sure jiji. I too want a secure and happy life. So, marrying a rich boy is the best option. It feels good jiji when a rich boy and his family accepting me without any fuss, why not take the opportunity?" It was so unlike her, so unlike Khushi..

A shocked Payal asked Khushi cupping her face that, "Was anything happened in RM? Anjali ji had called few times and asking about you, She said she wanted to talk with you regarding something personal. But you denied every time. Why you are behaving so odd after the Diwali night?"

Though Khushi got alarmed hearing it from Payal but she had learnt to musk her real feelings after that cursed night. So, putting a brought smile in her face she said, " Oh no jiji... I am actually so much happy... I finally did a job successfully. Because of my training, Lavanyaji was accepted by the family and finally the two lovers can have their happily ever after." Only Khushi knew how much she felt stabbed within while uttering and imagining Lavanya with ASR.. After all those insult and humiliation, still her heart beats for the man, who is nothing like Prince charming but a 'Beast' itself.

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It's true, Love is blind and girl like her who fall head over heels in love are always a fool... Khushi Chuckled a little while few drops o tears flowed from her eyes.

But Khushi knew she too did few grave mistakes in past one year.. The first step of that mistake was being agreed for Marrying Rajveer. In the dire need of giving back the invisible slap to ASR, she get ready for the marriage. After that Diwali night Khushi left Delhi and came to Lacknow.

Khushi still remember how adamantly she demanded her family to invite the Raizada family in her marriage. While her family members were straight denied but she was adamant. And finally bending down before her wish, Garima and Buaji came to Delhi and invited the Raizada. From them, Khushi got to know that the family members were a little bit shock, even Anjali asked , " Khushiji herself agreed for this marriage?" But afterwards they all promised that they will attend Khushi's marriage and a day before her marriage the whole Raizada clan came to Lacknow and stayed in Sheeshmahal.

And an unexpected event occurred the night before her marriage which still provides shiver in her spine........

Khushi did have the information regarding the arrival of the Raizada's and shocking news was Arnav Singh Raizada and Anjali Jha wanted to meet her. But Khushi straightway denied it. Because somewhere she was scared about the result of the meeting, what if her "I don't care" attitude and " I have moved on" facade will dissolve if she face them.

Then the night came, Khushi was sitting in her balcony looking at the stars, wanted to gather herself for the last time, before she totally lost her sanity.

She was so engrossed in her thought that Khushi missed when someone sneaked in her room through the balcony. It was when she felt a rough pull on her hands and was pinned in the wall, she realized an intruder was there. Before she could shout in panic, her hazel orbs meets with his brown caramel eyes. That eyes, which had anger, frustration,  accusation  but immense pain and regret too.

To be Contd.....

Author note:

Happy Diwali to my Lovely Readers and Friends..

My First TS on Arshi...

My take on the " Memorable Diwali track" from Original IPKKND1.

Hope You will like it.

Waiting for your precious opinion..

Next Part will be coming soon...

Love,

Mamree

26.10.2019