I felt so dizzy,
My head kept spinning,
And more than once I felt like I'd pass out.

I sat in the shade,
Like a few friends advised.
At the top of the bleachers,
With my fear of heights so great.

Anxiety clouded my mind,
Despite being so far from everybody else. 
I could hear people talking, people laughing,
and I longed to be part of that. 

So I looked up,
And instantly spotted him, 
The boy my mind tricked me into loving,
The boy that had stolen my heart and tossed it around. 

It reminded me of how one would shoot a basketball into a hoop;
I was the ball and he made a basket,
Crushing my spirits as I fell right through, 
hitting the ground underneath. 

That was the day I finally joined reality,
And realized it was true.
He never would feel the same way, he'd never love me,
And so I stared at him for a moment.

In that moment I felt everything I wanted slip away,
Replaced with a vast amount of loneliness,
Stronger than I've ever felt before.
And I knew he'd just been someone I had wanted,
Never someone I could've loved.