Alright,
I admit it.
I'm foolish,
In everything I'm doing,
I've been foolish.

I call him my first real crush,
But how can I say that when nothing is real between us?
How can I say that and hate him for it,
When he doesn't feel the same way?

How can I make a plan for something,
Work so hard, try so hard,
And then just let it slip away,
Without trying to fight for it?

How can I just walk away when she begs me to stay,
Without even looking back?
How can I hate myself,
If I never tried my best to love myself?

I'm foolish,
And I'm stubborn.
How did I not see this before?