Now showing private messages between Terroriser and ChokingIsMyKink

Terroriser: woah okay, yeah

Terroriser: what's up, Craig?

ChokingIsMyKink: ok this is kinda hard to explain but this has been bothering me for a while now so just don't reply until I explain it fully, okay?

Terroriser: ok take your time babe I'm here

ChokingIsMyKink: so we had that thing where we were all talking and I thought I didn't have to talk to anyone and was about to join you for your nap but then Tyler texted me

ChokingIsMyKink: and he was upset bc he had just talked to John and they made up (kinda) but John said that he couldn't be with him bc Tyler still had feelings for his ex and I could tell Tyler was heartbroken but he was also torn

ChokingIsMyKink: bc him and John still love each other but after John said that to him Tyler realized how unfair it'd be to stay with John

ChokingIsMyKink: long story short John told Tyler to talk to his ex and see how things work out before they keep doing anything

ChokingIsMyKink: and even longer story short... Tyler is still in love with me

ChokingIsMyKink: and he said he didn't want to make things awkward between me and him or even you and me, Brian which I know it won't/wouldn't

ChokingIsMyKink: But, honestly, after he said that I kind of...didn't feel so sure of myself anymore and everything I thought I knew kind of went fuzzy and fuck this is so hard to say I'm literally about to fucking cry

ChokingIsMyKink: Brian...I

ChokingIsMyKink: I think I still like him, too

ChokingIsMyKink: But I still have feelings for you too

Terroriser: wow that's a lot to take in

Terroriser: just give me a sec

ChokingIsMyKink: just say you hate me and block my number honestly I know I'm a horrible person who's been leading you on without a second thought and I'm just gonna abandon you when things were going so fucking well god I'm such a fuckup

Terroriser: no, you're not. Don't ever say that, okay?

Terroriser: you did /not/ lead me on because as you said, you do have genuine feelings for me

Terroriser: But, you also still have feelings for Tyler, which would make sense, your relationship kind of fell apart right when your feelings were reaching the peak of development

Terroriser: you two...kind of left things unsolved

ChokingIsMyKink: so I don't like him? I just think I do?

Terroriser: Craig...sweetie, you know that's not true. You /do/ have feelings for him, maybe even be in love with him, but you're also really scared of losing me

ChokingIsMyKink: I don't want to lose you, Brian, we've had such good times and made so many memories and you make me so so happy

Terroriser: you're never gonna lose me, Craig, and we can still make so many memories and I can keep making you happy

Terroriser: as your friend

ChokingIsMyKink: can't I just reject him and move on?

Terroriser: Craig, you know you'll never be happy if you do that

Terroriser: you'll just hate yourself because of it, because you returned his feelings and instead of acting on it, you just chose to ignore it

ChokingIsMyKink: this is so hard, how are you taking it so well??

Terroriser: because even though it hurts now, it'll be nice to see you happy, Craig, because seeing you happy is what I want

ChokingIsMyKink: Brian I'm so fucking sorry I don't want to abandon you like this

Terroriser: you're not abandoning me, craig, I'll still be here when you need me, and even when you don't

ChokingIsMyKink: I guess we got the timing wrong too huh

Terroriser: what do you mean by that?

ChokingIsMyKink: Tyler said that John told him that their relationship would've been meant to be if it hadn't been for the timing

ChokingIsMyKink: if Tyler hadn't already fallen for someone else

ChokingIsMyKink: is that what happened with us too? If me and Tyler had never been, would we be something? Would you and me be soulmates?

Terroriser: you know I don't believe in soulmates, but maybe, that's certainly a possibility for a different universe

ChokingIsMyKink: why don't you hate me for this? Why aren't you screaming at me right now?

Terroriser: because I can't blame you for your feelings

Terroriser: it's not your fault you already gave your heart to someone else

ChokingIsMyKink: I'm so so sorry

Terroriser: don't be sorry, Craig, because saying sorry means you're sad and why should you be sad that you're in love?

Terroriser: I'll always love you, craig, don't forget that

Terroriser: go be happy, okay?

ChokingIsMyKink: you go be happy, too, Brain. I like it when you're happy

ChokingIsMyKink: I love you

Terroriser: I love you too :(

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Now showing private messages between ChokingIsMyKink and WildHoe

ChokingIsMyKink: our old spot. Friday. 5pm. I'll be waiting for you

WildHoe: Craig I don't want pity-

ChokingIsMyKink: see you there

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Now showing private messages between Terroriser and Moo

Terroriser: Brock, I'm sorry

Moo: what did you do?

Terroriser: remember when I rejected you? Like months ago?

Moo: uhhhh....yeah?

Terroriser: I never apologized, did I?

Moo: no I don't believe you did

Terroriser: I'm sorry about that, too, that was a dick move

Terroriser: But not as much of a dick move as rejecting you in the first place

Terroriser: honestly, I'm always thinking about that moment

Terroriser: you were so confident and put yourself out there when you messaged me and I just...ripped you to shreds

Moo: is there a point to this :/

Terroriser: I'm sorry

Terroriser: it won't fix anything but I'm so fucking sorry and believe me when I say it hurts me more than it hurts you

Moo: why?

Moo: why are you saying all this?

Terroriser: well...um, it's kind of a long story

Moo: it's okay, I forgive you or whatever

Terroriser: me and Craig were talking and honestly we broke up and it just reminded me of how I really hurt you and it was totally inappropriate and rude and I gave you no explanation

Terroriser: now, Ik this apology is way overdue and I'm not surprised you still hate me

Terroriser: But...please just hear me out right now

Moo: fine, but only because Ik you're hurting from your breakup

Terroriser: this is /not/ to excuse my actions by any means by the way bc what I said was horrible but I only said those things bc I had finally gotten enough courage to come out to my family and needless to say they didn't take it very well

Terroriser: it was kind of a really dark time and I didn't tell you guys bc so much was already happening at that time

Moo: but...I thought you had already come out to them?

Terroriser: well I've been out to everyone, but I hadn't been out to them and I thought that maybe it was finally time and I guess it just wasn't

Moo: then how did the thing with you and Jon happen?

Terroriser: well I was really sad and I just went to the park to get away from it all and ig he was just walking by and recognized me and I was too sad to care

Terroriser: I was really rude at that point in my life and I want to apologize

Terroriser: you can still hate me, though, I won't blame you

Moo: look Brian

Moo: I understand why you did and said those things, okay? I do. I had no idea you were going through that (and maybe still are) but you're right it doesn't excuse that those things happened

Moo: and you /really/ hurt me, Brian, I had really strong feelings for you and I thought you felt the same way so I told you and you just lashed out on me, that was wrong

Moo: no, I don't forgive you, but I /understand/ you, at least

Terroriser: I wish I hadn't blown my only chance to be with you|
Terroriser: I wish I hadn't blown my only chance to be wit|
Terroriser: I wish I hadn't blown my only chance to b|
Terroriser: I wish I hadn't blown my only chance t|
Terroriser: I wish I hadn't blown my only chan|
Terroriser: I wish I hadn't blown my onl|
Terroriser: I wish I hadn't blown m|
Terroriser: I wish I hadn't blow|
Terroriser: I wish I hadn't|

Terroriser: I wish I hadn't been such a dick to you, maybe things could've been different

Moo: maybe, but it's okay, I'm sure our paths were just meant to collide like that

Moo: besides, if you hadn't rejected me I wouldn't be with marcel :)

Terroriser: yeah, I guess you're right

Terroriser: I hope you two are very happy, Brock, you definitely deserve it

Moo: thanks, I hope you find your happiness too

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Now showing private messages between WildHoe and Kryoz

WildHoe: I think Craig wants to get back together?

Kryoz: what makes you say that?

WildHoe: he wants to meet up on Friday in our old spot!! Isn't that great?

Kryoz: omg congrats

Kryoz: I told you to just talk to him

WildHoe: thanks John, you were right

Kryoz: anytime, ty :)

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Now showing private messages between Kryoz and Terroriser

Kryoz: hey, you okay?

Terroriser: no

Terroriser: he was my whole fucking world