(Freya Milano)

I rest my head on his back.  It feels so nice.  I feel like going back in time to when we were innocent kids.  Whenever I felt tired going back home from playing, Alexander would carry me in his back like this then I would usually fall asleep on the way home.  He was tough and patience since he was a kid.  He has always loved me too much for his own good.  

“Don’t drool on my jacket.” He teases me and wiggles the right side of his back where I lay my head on. “Look, we’re here!” he just lets go of his hands from my legs and lets me slump from his back like someone loses the balance but I land on my feet precisely. 

I take a step forward, next to him. “It’s so beautiful.  I miss this.” My eyes go wide at the sight in front of us.  It’s the lake he used to take me when we were kids.  The white, a little snowy sky matches just perfect with the blue water lake. 

“What has got into you that you’re being so sentimental today?” Alexander nudges my arm.  He’s being teasing today.  

I shrug. “I’m still your sister.  We’re still one blood.  So I guess that’s why.” It’s in the middle of afternoon, I see the sun shines, not that bright but it’s so much better than in Afton.  I get excited and take off my jacket. “Look here comes the sun.” I drop my jacket on the ground. “Let’s enjoy it while it lasts.”

I run to the edge of the lake, bend down and dip my hand on the water. “Damn it’s too cold, even for me.” So I back away and stand a few feet from the lake.  Opening my arms, I enjoy feeling the nice feeling of the sunshine on my skin.  Then I sit with both legs straighten forward and lean my weight on the back supported by my hands on each side.  When I close eyes, I can hear Alexander makes himself comfortable, sitting next to me. 

“Do you think there’s a chance for us to have this ending after this is all over?”  I open my eyes and turn to look at Alexander who’s on my right side. “I mean after we take care of everything and it feels right, will there be a chance for us to take a breath and feel real happiness?”

He looks at me and says. “I hope so.  But as long as we’re alive, we will strive whenever the world needs us.  I’m fine either way as I have you by my side.”

I sigh. “Apparently you cannot just be not that solemn for more than five minutes.”

“You triggered it.” He argues. “In serious talk though, don’t you believe there’s a light at the end of the tunnel?”

I burst into laugh but quickly hold it because he looks drop dead serious.  The look in his eyes is always so pure and like he really puts the weight of the world on his shoulders. “For me? I don’t think so.  I’ve done nothing to deserve something good in life.” I lift my hand and tap his shoulder. “But you, brother, you deserve everything good the world can offer and that might be not enough either.  You’re too good for this world.  Whether or not there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, I’d make sure myself that you will have it even if I don’t.”  

He looks speechless and just looks at me in silence.  His mind seems burdened with a lot of things I don’t quite understand.  He might deny it and will turn it around when it comes to who would do anything for whom.  But I know in my heart what I deserve and that the world is a better place because of him so he deserves more than anyone all the goodness in life.  I will just survive in this world but he will leave a legacy that I can never reach. 

After a while, suddenly I feel like something hit me in the heart, like my blood rushing a little too fast and I gasp.  He looks like about to respond but loses his words when I grab his hand.  I feel a little bit out of breath.  This is strange.  I’ve never felt like this.

“Frey, are you okay?” he puts his arm around my back.

“I don’t know.  I feel,” I’m not sure what to feel honestly. “weak? This is ridiculous even to just say it.”

He touches my hand with both hands. “You feel warmer than usual.” He quickly carries me in his arms and takes me under a tree where I left my jacket.  He puts the jacket on me. “We should get you home.  This must have been what Will told me that something might be happening to you.”

“I don’t care what Will said!” I snap at him. 

“Can you just for once not being irritated by him? He was never wrong.” He’s going to carry me in his arms again but I stop him.

“I’m not that weak.” I slap his hands. “I still can take out Will’s heart when I see him later.”

He just lets out a heavy sigh and waits for me to stand up.  When I thought he let go about that happy ending talk, he brings it up again. “About that talk, I think you deserve a good one.  You didn’t sign up for this in the first place.  You were forced into living the eternity and bear this responsibility forever.  You were innocent once, Frey.  You were so kind and I know deep down you still are too.  You just don’t want to appear weak.”

I stop and he stops as I look at him. “Al, you deserve to know the truth.  I guess it’s time already.  You didn’t know the whole story when I was missing that night.”

“What do you mean?” he raises an eyebrow, looking confused.

I look down and take a deep breath.  I was never this nervous to tell something.  I look at him again when I think I’m ready. “Gabriel didn’t turn me.  I did.  I turned myself.  He gave me his blood but he was just bluffing.  I did this to myself.”

He looks completely dazed.  His lips are parted open but no words come out of his mouth. “Why? I mean why you didn’t tell me about this?” he loses for words for a second there and then continues. “And why? Why did you do that?”

“Because, Al, I was afraid that you wouldn’t accept my decision.  I was afraid of losing you.” I close my eyes to get rid a layer of tears that I feel on my lenses.  Opening my eyes, I continue. “The moment I realized that I jumped in the eternity, it terrified me that I might live it alone without you.  I was so terrified that if I told you the truth, you wouldn’t want to stay by my side.  I couldn’t bear the thought of you hating me.  I’m sorry that you blamed yourself for what happened when it’s all on me.”

He just stands there in silence, overwhelmed.  I look away because I can’t stand seeing at his sad brooding look in his eyes. “Come on we need to go home now and find out what’s wrong with me.”

“Frey, wait.” He calls me just when I take one step to walk. “You were wrong.  I would never hate you.  If you just told me the truth, it might be hard at first but I would never leave you because I believe that whatever reason you turned yourself, it must have been for a noble reason.”  

I chuckle plainly and joke. “Dear God, you’re always my sentimental noble brother.  Don’t ever change because there’s no one else like you.”
*****

Yeah this special bonding time for the bro and sis 😭💖
Wasn't that heartfelt
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